I've been reborn. My body and the world that it's in feel so familiar, but at the same time, they are so foreign to me. Both are infinitely confusing to me. One explains the other, but I understand neither.
For a long time, I've been seeking the memories of my purpose, but I recently gave up on that. There are no memories to give me meaning. Instead, I need to create this purpose, maybe on my own, maybe with someone else. All that depends on where life decides to take me.
Today has been like any other day, I woke up looking at my self-imposed cage. I'm still inside of it. I know it's just for my own safety, but for some reason, I just feel so restricted by it. It's definitely my own fault for seeing it like that.
In reality, there's nothing bad about it if I look at it properly. The place I live in is a box-shaped hole inside the trunk of a huge tree. I have no idea how it was made, but it's where I woke up for the first time. It was very empty at first, but I've made a few modifications to it.
It would be a regular empty cube if not for a few weird things. First, the one I'm most happy about, there is a hole to the outside. Second, the entrance has some kind of a force field in front of it, nothing alive, besides me, can pass. Well, that's not exactly true. I've tried to bring in some freshly picked leaves from a tree, but I couldn't bring them in. Only when some time had passed was I able to get them through the mystical field.
And the third thing is a stone in the corner of the room. It's always floating, I can't move it a single bit, and it's always producing heat. With that said, I make sure to get as close as I can when the nights are cold, but I try to stay far away when the heat from the outside comes rushing in. It's not perfect, but it does also allow me to prepare some basic food and tea.
Speaking of, I decided to experiment with a new bunch of dried leaves. It's what I need to do since I don't know what any of these plants are. Of course, I make sure to carefully dry them beforehand. Unfortunately, that doesn't change the fact that I sometimes end up poisoning myself. On the upside, I think it has increased my tolerance for such substances quite a bit.
I'm embarrassed to admit it, but I've spent a lot of days with some unfortunate bowel movements in the bushes. Way too many, here's to hope today isn't one of them. I'm concerned, but the truth is that I've actually started to have fewer and fewer of such episodes. That's because I think I've noticed a mysterious force in the world.
It's hard to put it into words, mostly due to the fact that I'm not sure if it's just my imagination or not. There's this odd sensation, almost like an experience with certain teas. It feels similar to touch, but also to taste and smell, but it's most definitely separate from all of those. Either way, I have started to notice a familiar type of sensation while I drink particular poisonous teas.
They aren't all the same, some feel prickly, while others feel thick. There have even been a few that feel cold. With that in mind, I'll try to pay attention as I drink this tea. Seems like there aren't any of those sensations. Which means this tea is either safe or a new poison. I hope for the former.
Of course, there are also some sensations that I have labelled as "safe", but it doesn't seem like a strict category since I've felt those sensations alongside the poisonous plants. Which makes this experimentation process just that much more tedious.
However, regardless of what I consume, be it a tea, berry, meat or even water, all of them have a particular sensation. The only thing that changes is its strength. I can only describe it as empowering. It provides some sort of a "charge" to my body. Yeah, that sounds weird when I put it like that.
I think even air might have that sensation. Well, I can only assume that's the case since I don't feel anything anymore when I hold my breath. Everything looks normal to me, sure I've seen things here I've never seen in my previous life, but wood still looks like wood, when I look at air I see exactly what I expect to see - nothing.
Well, this tea tasted quite nice and I feel more energised than usual. I'll have to note that down. I think I'm ready to attempt to hunt another small rodent-like creature. There are no spices available to me, but I still quite enjoyed eating some meat after a diet of only fruits. Many of which were poisonous, of course.
I have some traps prepared outside. I'll need to go see how they are doing. Maybe luck is on my side today.