''Damn it, that horse is so useless!''
I tore up the betting ticket in my hand and cursed. It was my first time at the horse races, and I didn't bet a lot of money, nor was I particularly trying to enjoy it, but the horse I bet on came in with a rank that was quickly counted from the back, making me feel as frustrated as if I had met a troll in a game.
''Shit, I knew it... There's no way even something small could work out in my shitty life."
My name is Sema. I'll be 30 this year, and I'm an unemployed bum. It's pretty cold, but I'm a bum who came to the racetrack on a weekend with nice weather, like the old men who have nothing to do.
I wasn't always a bum. Until my early 20s, I had a decent appearance, a moderate height of 178cm, excellent grades, a confident personality, and a moderately wealthy family. It's hard to say it myself, but I was doing pretty well.
But after returning to Uni, I met the wrong woman and my life got completely twisted, and I developed trauma, lost all motivation, and have been living as a bum for 6 years already. And those 6 years were spent hating real women due to trauma and indulging in 2D girls and otaku culture.
"Ha... I came here thinking I had nothing to lose, but it's not even fun..."
Even though I've been living as a shut-in otaku for 6 years, it's not like I have no friends at all. Recently, for the New Year, I went to a drinking party with close high school friends after a long time, and there, a friend who had experience working at a racetrack said that it would be good to go to the racetrack to get some fresh air.
''...Fuck, why is that bitch coming to the racetrack and acting up?''
As a young woman who looked like a college student passed by in front of me, I unconsciously said in a small voice.
The most serious thing that happened as I developed trauma was this misogyny. Before the trauma, I was interested in pretty women in reality, like a normal man. At the same time, I lived with a slightly old-fashioned view of women, believing that women should be chaste and men should be considerate of such women.
But after the trauma, I saw women in reality with a completely insane perspective: women who seemed chaste were bitches who would betray and rip off men at any time.
Of course, I knew in my head that it was crazy talk. A perverted woman like a whore slave who absolutely obeys me. Those 6 years were hard to endure unless I thought, even in my head, that the right woman was like that.
"Getting a change of pace my ass... What a waste of time. I should go home and play Uma Musume Pretty Derby,...'
There's no way a guy who's been stuck in his room for years would get a change of pace by suddenly going to the racetrack alone. It was actually pretty obvious. I turned 30 and came out with a stuffy heart, hoping for the best, but looking at the bright sunlight, the wide park, the middle-aged men who were excited about horse racing, and the family-looking groups here and there, it wasn't very pleasant for a traumatized loner like me.
" Did I put the Uma Musume OST on my phone? ...Huh?"
As I put earphones in my ears and got up from my seat to go home, I saw an elderly middle-aged man, who looked like a homeless person no matter who looked at him, staggering while drinking alcohol. What is it? Wasn't this place no drinking allowed? I thought I should just go home without bothering him, since no one around was stepping up...
''Heoik!''
I saw the homeless man fall after colliding with a passerby. The homeless man who fell heavily couldn't get up, and the person who collided with him and the people around him didn't pay attention to the homeless man. I was going to just pass by, but what could I do since I had already seen it. My useless meddling was activated and my feet moved towards the homeless man.
'Um... are you okay, sir?'
'....?'
As I endured the dizzying smell of alcohol, I approached the homeless man and tried to help him up, and the homeless man began to look at me with a face as if asking what this was.
'...Kekekeke, I'm alright, young man.'
His tone is strange and he doesn't seem to be in his right mind. He doesn't seem to be seriously injured, so I should get out of here quickly.
''I'm glad you're okay. Then I'll be going...''
''Hey, young man. Won't you talk for a bit?''
'...Yes?'
Talk? Why is this homeless man acting like this just because I paid attention to him for a moment? The thought that I shouldn't have bothered him in the first place was about to fill my head, but the homeless man's next words blew away my thoughts.
''I have something I really want to propose to you... You've been having a hard time because of a woman, haven't you?'
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"So, you're saying you're... God?"
''Kekeke, it may be different from what you think, but you can say I'm a being close to that.''
While speaking in an old-fashioned tone that would only appear in martial arts novels, the homeless man introduced himself as God. I should be treating him like a crazy person, but after seeing someone I had never met before list my name and life story, I had no choice but to sit down and listen.
"Since you still seem doubtful, I can show you something like this... "
After seeing him pour the alcohol in his glass onto the middle-aged man who was standing in front of him, the urge to ask what he was doing rose to my throat, but it vanished before it could leave my mouth. Even though he poured the alcohol, the middle-aged man in the middle of the race didn't look back, and even the clothes that had gotten wet were completely dry in an instant.
Could it be that I'm the only one who recognizes this homeless man as God? It was a bit strange that no one was paying attention to the homeless man who was loitering around with alcohol in a place where drinking was not allowed...
"Hahaha... Could it be that the people around me can't see you?"
"Well, you can think of it that way.''
Oh my god. I thought everything about God was a scam... Until my teens, I had some hope, but after my 20s, I became a complete atheist. The existence of the God, who was showing me his existence with actions right in front of my eyes, was something that made me lose my words.
"Oh my god... So, then, gran-, no, God, what are you going to talk to me about...?"
"Call me comfortably. Well... it's nothing much, I just wanted to propose a new life to you."
"A new life...?"
A new life. I was filled with admiration and suspicion for the God in front of me, who was pinpointing what I had wanted so much in my life. How could he, who had ignored what I had wanted so much until now, come to me in this way and make a proposal?
"Kekeke, you know about other worlds, right? I'm talking about whether you'd like to live a new life in such a place."
Good heavens. Another world. Is this the other world reincarnation I've only heard about? God suddenly pops out and reincarnates me into another world?
"I can't give you a detailed explanation right now. There are various conditions and restrictions... things like that. But if I were to tell you only what I can tell you, that place is a world where God has disappeared. A universe that is heading towards destruction."
"You're asking me if I want to live in a world that is heading towards destruction, your proposal seems a bit scary..."
I knew it. It seems that the place he proposed wasn't a happy life other world story, but an apocalypse story. Asking me if I want to go to a world that is heading towards destruction is a bit...
"Don't worry. It's not such a chaotic universe, it's a world that's doing pretty well. Besides, you only have regrets and pain in your current life, don't you? It's called destruction, but it's a destruction that suddenly appears hundreds of years later in a universe that's running well. If it's you now, aren't you a little tempted?''
''...''
A destruction that suddenly appears hundreds of years later in a world that was running well... If it's these conditions, I'm a bit tempted. After my life, which was doing pretty well, got twisted because of a woman, I'm living a frustrating life where I have suicidal thoughts several times a day.
My parents are a bit of a concern, but it's been years since we've seen each other's faces... Wouldn't they have already forgotten about a son like me?
''...Since you say so, I'm definitely tempted. Can you answer a few more questions?''
''If it's something I can answer.''
If he's suddenly offering such good conditions, I should suspect it's a scam. If I go there thinking it's like a power fantasy and it's a shitty world, I won't be able to turn back.
"First of all... why are you trying to send me? I'm curious about the reason why you're sending me."
"Kekeke. Well, yeah. You'd be uneasy. As I said before... that's a universe where God has disappeared.''
''I was going to ask about that later... God has disappeared? What do you mean...''
''Literally. The God of that universe tried to prevent the coming destruction somehow, but failed and disappeared.''
What... God couldn't stop the destruction? So he disappeared?
''Originally, there are countless types of universes, and there is a God who tries to maintain each universe. These Gods are not the Gods of religion that living things have, but conceptual beings... Even if you don't understand, just know this much.''
I don't know what he's talking about, but he means there are several universes and a God in charge of each one.
"A universe where God has disappeared gradually loses its maintenance power and becomes completely nothing at some point, but the God of another universe can't take over. So it's a place where we just wait for it to be destroyed... If I send you, I'm trying to send you with a slight hope that that universe will be maintained even a little longer... something like that.''
''Sending me is a slight hope? Why?''
''I can't tell you that. You'll naturally find out if you go and live there.''
Hmm, I have a feeling of unease...
"Hmm... That universe has different physical laws... or rather, the laws of the world. To put it simply, it's a fantasy other world where you use magic and catch monsters that you think of. How is it?''
As soon as I became suspicious, he mentioned the condition of a fantasy other world that I, as an otaku, couldn't avoid. I was impressed that he was God. This is too tempting of a condition.
"Kekeke... I'm sorry that I can't tell you much because of the restrictions. Anyway, you'll be able to have a pretty fun time if you go. At least more than here, where you're trapped in trauma. I guarantee that you'll be able to live the life you want if you go."
''...Sounds good.''
After talking this far, the image of the homeless man in front of me had completely changed. He started to look like a real omnipotent God from a homeless man with the smell of alcohol. And gradually, excitement rose and my shoulders began to shake.
''It seems like you've decided. Then go and live well.''
''Yes!? Uh!? Wa, wait a minute! There are still various...!''
''You'll find out if you go and live there. If you live there. Kekeke..''
Yes!? I haven't even said what I'm going to be reincarnated as yet!? Isn't there something like choosing reincarnation perks!?
Before I could even say the words, I began to fall into an endless abyss in a dark space. Ah, could it be that I've been scammed? If I open my eyes, will it be a chaotic other world? Is that it?
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(...What, why is it taking so long? Is it loading?)
I hurriedly closed my eyes and doubted God, but after feeling a long time, I opened my eyes. In a dark space with nothing, I only feel the feeling of being sucked somewhere. Am I being sent now? As this continued for a while, my surprised heart calmed down and I began to have random thoughts.
"Ha... He should have given me time to prepare my heart before sending me... And originally, you're supposed to let me choose things like reincarnation perks, aren't you?''
I grumbled and said the other world common sense I knew, but what could I do since it had already happened, I braced myself and started to have hopeful thoughts.
''What kind of place will the other world be... Will my appearance change if I go? I've got a bit of a beer belly these days and I haven't been managing my hair, so it's a mess,... I won't get uglier, will I?
If I go to another world, I should treat women with my old mindset again. It's not good to live with such a crazy view of women while living a new life. Ah, I hope the women in the other world are different from the women on Earth. If I meet bitches like that again, I'll have suicidal thoughts again.
Ah, if I'm reincarnated into another body, I hope my dick is as huge as a horse's dick. So I can just use it properly. Will there be animals like horses there? The horses at the racetrack were pretty cool though. And also....'
While listing various hopes and random thoughts, I felt the light and opened my eyes.
That's how I arrived in another world with a wide prairie spread out in front of my eyes.
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A|N: I think there is to much monologue. Well, the reason is that I wanted to say few things about MC and I also didn't want to delete the words I put my time to write. Give it a try you won't regret it for sure. Also my GILF Hunter novel will still maintain current update schedule until proper completetion.