Driven by Ambition i walked into the world, seeking knowledge that I lack, fame that I crave, and mountains of wealth that I dreamed of. In my dreams, there are delicacies I long for, I want to be surrounded by beauties of my liking.
Intense thoughts and emotions came over me, Severe pain across my entire body, rivers of blood gushing out from various parts of my body, and limbs that felt numb and could not be controlled by will.
Bad and Unbearable Memories I thought I had long forgotten flooded back. Images from those memories came to me like a rushing tide.
Jealousy from when I was a child, Anger from when I was on my youth, puppy love from when I first set my eyes on a beautiful woman, excitement from when I won a lottery, joy from having someone who shares the same interest and grief from knowing someone I known died.
Emotions and memories entangled through my bloodied face etched a complex pattern of realization, shifting slightly from disgust, to relief and anger.
"Is this what they call 'Terminal' lucidity?"
I thought as I looked at the terminally ill pedestrians around me.
"Damn," I thought, "this is the end, isn't it?"
Questioning myself, and I know the answer—with how much blood flowing out inside my body, punctured lungs and stabbed heart, I already know the answer to my question.
Growing up as an orphan with no family to rely on, I watched other kids find homes through adoption while many of my peers slowly fell by the wayside.
On the orphanage, with only a small collection of books to learn from, I picked up the basics—and through a mix of innate instinct and deep-rooted superstitions, I grew strong and learned to stand on my own.
But reality is unforgiving, and even when I managed to achieve something meaningful, it seemed that fate just wasn't on my side...
All came and just left quickly like a meteor dying ephemerally. I feel my mind getting hazy, blood choking my throat. I can feel my life
is nearing it's end.
"heck do i accept it just like that?,"
I can feel my own body getting cold can't control my fingers and toes,But one thought kept me going up until now, "need to live my life the way I wanted", that what I heard from the kind sister from the orphanage the word that kept me going to "live" no matter the cost.
The word that have put me on this situation right now.
what can I say? "That I enjoyed every last bit of it.
But with state I'm go dead by the seconds
Rather than wait for death in this pathetic state why not discovered it?.
Indeed why not discover?, I have always wondered what come's after death?.
Many answers came up due to the state "terminal lucidity" it's like I've been injected ten syringe's but not in the body but on the mind memories flow like river and as fast as the speed of light, "Even in this state" ahh, what a wonderful feeling it is.
"From death come's life, soul return unto matter?
Or death is just the next process"?
And if death is just the next process then what is the next process? Life?
Life then
Holding my breath to choke my self faster
Then I saw my life flash before my eyes.
ash past then came gray and rebirth then tained darkness and light everlasting.