Life is cruel that's for sure but what i done is take lives killed people as it was my job. I was born to fight to take evil with my hands and twist their heart until it's crushed.
I couldn't imagine myself working at some convenience store or some engineer or doctor. My whole body was a weapon he could kill anyone with a switch of a mind set. Though now I don't feel much joy my brother in arms died doing missions. Terrorist had risen in numbers through my years in the military. Sent to kill them as they have bombed many places and important places in south Korea.
I was sitting at some bench thinking whether I should continue living. I wanted to settle down to have a wife. But if I did while being out every single year and only coming home twice. It would be really injustice to the one I marry whether I have a family with that woman and the kids barely see me. Or just me with her yet to marry but not seeing her for that connection to not slowly break.
I did this to myself as, I strayed from relationships but I have slept with some one night stands. Besides it's better than some of my brothers and fellow folks that do the same line of work as me. That marry and have a family but next thing you know they don't see you much and your wife cheats on you. Because she says 'she doesn't get enough love' especially even if he talks to her from a computer.
As for the kids some don't feel like their dad is much in their life. Ignoring him and even some wondering if he is a stranger when he comes home. Broken hearts everywhere if you do this line of work. Your relationship plummets and if you're really lucky maybe their is that one loyal woman that waits for you no matter what.
But I saved myself from a broken heart it's not that I believed in finding that loyal woman that will wait and still love me. But sometimes luck plays in life and the timing.
I only been in one relationship but that was for 1 year in high school before joining the military. For my future broken heart I had made myself single for many years. Sacrificing the opportunity to fall in love for 10 years. I was 28 now and join at 18 but those were the most fulfilling and sad years.
After throwing away my last beer. Fuck it I might as well do something good for someone. This was my last ditch of effort to somehow get back in a good healthy mentality. I'm breaking and if I go down longer on this path I'll one day take my life. Either by drinking and driving or going out with a bang. Not the bad way just dying doing cool tricks while stealing an airplane with no one inside and crashing it at some forest.
Such crazy thoughts but that's one way I think of going down in.
"Fuck..."
I muttered as the cold winds hit my face.
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It's been 2 days and here I had in my home 2 girls at the age of 15. Just mid of highschool both of them and they didn't go to the same school. I wanted to adopt maybe a boy a kid mostly to have his life be turned upwards. But majority of the kids already have papers as people are adopting them.
While a small portion are willing to stay in the orphanage to help the smaller one's and the facility.
But these has just became homeless then luckily got into this orphanage. Like a stroke of luck they found Leon the man looking to adopt not to bad.