He was a son, I was a daughter..
Bounded by duties, chained by responsibilities..
We sat together...
We laughed together...
I didn't like him...
But maybe I did...
Probably...
They called him mine... I denied it... But I couldn't hate it... Because, somewhere deep inside my heart, I wished he was...
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Everytime I see my classmates, it hurts....
It hurts to see how quickly they've moved on.. Whereas I? I was still stuck here...
Why am I always the one that holds onto the past?
I watched them come and go.. like wind... They taught me how to laugh, to live.. But never taught me how to do all those things without them...
I clutched tightly onto the class photo.. A year fell from my eye... I didn't cry... I never did so, I wiped the tear away from the back of my hand.. I'm not weak.. Hence, I can't show tears.. The biggest symbol of weakness...
I arrived to my new class.. It wasn't really new.. I mean–I had always been in section A so it wasn't exactly new... But the people in it were... New faces, new personalities, new people and new traumas...
I sat with my past classmate.. We had been together since third grade–although I didn't really knew her.. She was quiet while I was talkative, she was always in the shadows.. Whereas I was in the light.. She would be there the entire time and you wouldn't even know... Whereas I? You couldn't pass by without turning your head.. Because I was loud... Talkative and bold...
I never thought I would ever sit with her but oh well? The teacher was already here and the only empty seat was beside her... So I didn't really had a choice...
"Heyyy Rinli?" I greeted her unsure if that was her name as I sat beside her
"Hey Nayeli!" She greeted back... I was surprised she knew my name considering this was the first time we were actually speaking...
"Can I sit here?" I asked
"Of course! I was actually waiting for you, that's why I kept this seat vacant.." She said monotonously
Since that day, I sat with her....
I felt like I could finally survive this session...
But that happiness didn't last for long...
Unfortunately....
Fortunately...