When did college get so... chaotic. my roommate is nice but brings a new boy every single day to our dorm, my advisors praise me for my work but give me a grade that doesn't match their tone, and just to add more I'm in a very serious but not so serious situation-ship with a guy who treats me like he's world depended on it. "hey new kid"
"huh, wait did someone just call me?"
"not to be rude but are you and mathias dating?"
"where did you get that from?"
"some students were talking about it and we got curious" is this a play, am I being pranked, was I gonna get jumped if I said something wrong? what the actual fuck is going on and why are so many people in my business? "if you really wanna know go ask him" i don't get why your asking me...
"we tried but he kept ignoring us and we really wanna know"
"but I really don't know what to--"
"I already told all of you its none of your business, why do you keep asking?" it was mathias he cut me off but he had such a cold deminor not in one I seen before. he was tall black hair, light to caramel skin and hazel eyes, he looked good in any clothes he wore because of the body he has. big biceps, a six pack, and supposedly to the other girls a big dick. but its not for the dick, its the fact that he came up to me on the third day of school he liked me for a while and if he can persue me with the outmost respect. the only thing is he is only nice to me and me only.
3 months earlier...
"I liked you for a while now, may I please try and persue you?" I thought the point of trying to go out with someone was to not tell them you like them until it feels right. "so um what's your name?"
"mathias"
"mathias..." I knew who he was, everyone did which meant chaos.
"what do you like about me mathias?"
"your hair, your eyes, the way you act, your personality, the way you dont get mad and keep your calm composer, and most importantly the chaotic feeling you bring to my chest"
Present...
I still remember that day vividly it feels weird because I can't garantee how long those feelings will last so I feel like he's just wasting his time here pursuing me and I just feel bad. i told him so many times that him liking me is gonna lead him no where, yea he's cute but I haven't dated in years.
"you okay?"
"hm? oh yea I zoned out I'm fine"
"you sure because you do that zone out thing when your overthinking"
"I can't grantee that you'll like me forever so I really just think your wasting your time..."
"even if I'm wasting my time your the only one I want to love and date..."