Everything in this world have meaning.
The history
The beliefs
The lies
The truths
Everything are woven with meaning.
Time may end one day but the story remains.
But if such history is remembered as a lie, does that remain a lie if nobody can prove it otherwise?
Nonetheless, story such as this varies from the perception of the main character.
And in this scenario, in this story book, the main character is me.
Everything, the characters, the events, the scenarios I saw until now are the so called "Truths".
After all I saw them. I feel them. I experienced them.
Everything is proven by me.
But what about the history I learned in class?
Is that still the truth if I only learned from class that it is the truth?
Won't that mean everything in history can be a lie as well?
After all "victors create history."
So if I Sakura Hayashi won the war against the eldritch gods, does that mean I can create a history that states, "There is no such thing as Eldritch Gods."
After all I am the only one who knows the truth.
The one who proved their existence.
Which means, no one else but me know about this.
Well, in the first place, there is no such thing as Eldritch Gods or monsters or ghosts in this modern times.
So why am I thinking about this right in the middle of the class while the "bald fat old man" teacher writes Pythagoras theorem in the board in this scorching hot noon.
Probably because I already knew about this.
It's boring honestly.
That's why I don't get bothered much to the things I know.
But.
The unknown.
The very thought that something out there exists.
Something that can shake the very foundation of my existence exists without my knowledge scares me.
What if today a huge meteor suddenly crush on earth?
What if when I go to the toilet right now and knock on the door of the 3rd stall 3 times, a ghost appears?
Or perhaps the other one where it asks you what pill you want to choose?
This thing alone scares my very being.
"Sakura. What are you spacing out for? Answer the question on the board."
(Geh. I don't know why but I always get uncomfortable when I feel his eyes at me.)
So I simply approach the board, take the chalk and start writing the equation.
a² + b² = c²
Such a profound equation.
This simple equation simply proves that in a right triangle, the square of the length of the hypotenuse (the longest side, opposite the right angle) is equal to the sum of the squares of the lengths of the other two sides.
So this got me thinking.
If the me I think I am and the me I believe I am, does that mean It's the same with the me other think I am?
Well not really.
I just want to think of it that way.
I mean it's easier to remember right?
like if the shortest side of right triangle is 3 then the next to the shortest is 4 then the longest is 5.
"Thank you. Now as you all know, this equation can prove the missing value of the hypotenuse to be 5 as shown in the board which is written by Sakura..."
I simply ignored him and return to my sit before facing back to the window.
(God... Why did you make this time so hot...)
So I simply spend the remaining time wistfully thinking about the space, mystery and the unknown.
Soon enough, the class ended today at 5pm. I know it's still not the time for me to leave the school yet.
After all every 5pm is my favorite time.
"Alright! For today's debate. The topic is... Why do we slumber? Why do people choose to sleep than to stay awake?"
(Another emotional vs logical topic today. As expected from Nina. A budding youth full of drama.)
Currently, I am inside the club room for debate club which is located in the 3rd floor of the building. Our school Hanabira Gakuen is quite known for the students freedom and leniency to create clubs as long as that club receives approval from a teacher.
Our club advisor and the one who approved our club is Miss Hanazono Yuruha our Values Education teacher.
I do think it's normal to join club at 11th grade so that's what I do.
Plus it's a great way to consume time while waiting for my brother to arrive which is always by 6pm. The same time his college class ends.
"In the first place president, Sleeping is required to keep our body in check. Not only that, it also relieves our stress by entering the state of relaxation."
I answered first hoping to stop the emotional side since I always stand to the logical ones.
"That may be true Sakura but others choose to sleep just simply because they want. So called escapism."
(Urgh... here goes another one of Nina's emotional theories.)
"So by that flow, does that mean those who feel stressed out chose to sleep simply because they want not because of the effects?"
Suddenly, Nina slammed the table.
"That is not what I said!"
(Fine. She is right anyways. I'm just nitpicking at her.)
"Then what's the point of this debate? There are no sides to choose since ultimately, in the end, everyone still sleep at night."
Me and Nina can't help but look at the scary looking guy laying on the couch.
"What?"
He closed his manga and look at us.
(Honestly... Why does he look like a delinquent who always fight others despite acting like that.)
The other guy is Jin Ishida 12th grade. One grade above me.
Despite his body made for violence, he spends his time here reading books or sometimes joining debates.
But most of the time, he always ends our discussion with simple remarks like this.
"You're right. Let's conclude this topic Pres."
I look at Nina as she wipes her glasses.
"Indeed. It's quite anticlimactic but what Jin said is true."
Nina is actually a friend and classmate of Jin which is why she doesn't use honorific or formality when speaking to him.
In addition to the other one absent today, there are four members in this club including me.
"Oh look at the time."
I spoke looking at my phone.
"Oh right. You always go home at 6. Maybe your brother is waiting there already."
Nina mentioned while packing up her stuff in the bag.
I usually only bring notebook in school since I mostly memorized the contents of the book we use in this grade level.
So I simply took my small bag and waved goodbye at them.
Jin simply took a glance at me then nod before going back to his manga.
Nina on the other hand joined me on the way to the parking lot
The reason is because...
"I wonder if Big brother Haruto greets me today."
As you guessed.
Nina loves my brother.
One sidedly.
"Nina. I won't stop you but make sure you don't act weird or bro might hate you."
"I know I know geez..."
Nina ties her hair in a ponytail and left her glasses in the clubroom.
"I'm still surprised you wore contact lenses just because you want to look good infront of my bro."
"Well... I remove them right away once you two are gone. I'm still afraid of putting things in my eyes after all."
(Well, atleast I know she is a good girl. So do your best.)
On the corner of the parking lot is a red car, a 4 seater toyota. I'm not sure about cars but bro keep calling it his baby or something like that. He even customize it so many times I lost count. Always changing colors or wheels.
"Yo Nina. We meet again."
Bro approach us and took my bag.
"Go...good afternoon big brother Haruto. It's a nice day today isn't it?"
(Uwaaah... that's cringe.)
I can't help but sigh as I leave the two and sit inside the car on the passenger seat.
I gave time for the two to talk and five minutes later, bro waved goodbye to her and entered the car.
Once inside, he locked the door and sighed loudly.
"You okay bro?"
I asked but I already know the answer.
"Phew... I just can't calm down when I'm talking to her. I have this feeling that she is always looking for ways to dig any info at me. But I can't just say no to her. Do you know what she do to my information Sakura?"
Brother sighed again before turning the car's engine on.
(Maybe paranoia runs on our blood. While I fear the unknown, brother fears anything about him spreading around. He is always cautious when talking to others and always tend to avoid saying anything more than necessary.)
"Nothing much. Just a maiden in love."
I simply murmured while typing in my phone.
8/22/2011
6:08pm
Nina scared bro again.
(Great another entry to my diary.)
There we rode home as I smile while my brother kept on muttering about finding it out someday.
At home, nothing out of ordinary is happening to be honest. Just changing clothes, eat dinner, go to my room and play some music or games.
Although I say games, it's mostly trivia games I play.
After all, I feel like the more I know, the more I remove anything that is "unknown".
So I just play, relax, read some stuff I think I forgot then sleep at 9pm sharp.
However, I woke up at 2 am today.
As I sit on the bed thinking why I woke up, I realized something.
"Urgh... I forgot to make a report."
So I opened my laptop quickly, set a timer at my phone to 3 am to stop and sleep incase I started browsing nonstop to the darkside of youtube again.
But it didn't take that long to finish honestly.
Just around 30 minutes then I'm done.
I look at the time on my phone and it says 2:42 am.
Feeling parched, I head to the kitchen.
I noticed the light is open.
There I saw my brother drinking milk.
"Hey! that's my strawberry milk!"
"Geh! Why are you still awake? I'm planning to buy you another one tomorrow..."
Bro got surprised that he almost dropped the milk.
"Grr... I want to drink one!"
Bro stopped and think for a while before he sighed and asked.
"So what do you want?"
"I'm buying milk in the grocery on the other street. Escort me!"
I answered immediately without hesitation.
"Eh? It's almost 3 you know?"
I pouted and started kicking his leg.
"Fine fine. Atleast change clothes."
"Oh..."
I look at myself and I am wearing pajamas.
I rushed to my room and wore my uniform again. I know it's weird but I always wear uniform when going out. I don't like wearing different clothes after all. It's more logical to wear uniform when going out so everyone knows you are a student incase of emergency.
I return to the kitchen and bro is waiting there.
"I'm ready."
He simply nod and follow me from behind as we go out.
It was only 5 minute walk from here so brother didn't use his baby to go.
Besides, walking at this time is a cool feeling but a little scary.
Along the way, I notice the atmosphere is very quiet.
(I feel goosebumps...)
I though while feeling chills on my skin.
Then suddenly my phone rings.
"Eeek!"
I got surprised from the sound and look at my phone.
"Oh it's 3 pm already. Let's hurry up bro..."
I thought I am talking to my brother.
But when I turned around.
"Bro?"
He isn't there.
(Huh?)
I look around and notice it's very silent.
Brother also disappear.
"Bro? Where are you?"
I keep on asking but nobody replied.
(What is this... It's giving me chills ...)
I thought something was going on.
In horror or mystery stories, this kind if scene means something paranormal or something weird is going on.
So the first thing that came into mind was.
(Run back home!)
I spurted back to where I came from.
However, no matter how long I run, it just never stops.
I notice the same post, the same phone call booth, the same electrical wire...
"Haa... Haa... Why does it feel like a loop?"
I keep on running hut the scenery doesn't change.
(Does that mean I can't go to the home?)
I remember one story before about the lost snail. But it's weird to happen to me. After all...
(I didn't wish to not go home.)
So something else might be happening.
But despite the fact that I have read and studied many mystery and paranormal stories, the only thing I think is happening right now, is that one where something abnormal, something weird is going on. And it won't stop until I figure it out.
So I stopped running and instead, look at the signs.
There are only one road sign which is the name of the street but...
"Yep. The name is changed."
The name of this street is Ibuki street but now the sign is blank.
Instead there is a right triangle drawing here.
Now if I think about it, the shape of this street is like a right triangle.
My house is located at the point of the longest side, the grocery are at the angle and the park are at the other corner.
basically something like this.
House
|
|
|
|
|
Grocery --------------------------- Park
And currently, I am on the way from house to the grocery.
As for why I use those places as the corners of the triangle, it's because according to the map, this places makes a perfect right triangle.
Now the weird thing is, in this sign, the park are shaded. I mean in the right triangle, the place where the park is located are shaded.
So following this logic, I think I have to go to the park first.
So I tried to run to the grocery then turn towards the park.
And I did arrive at the park.
I should be glad but...
(What in the hell is that...)
In the middle of the park, a man holding a katana stands.
His body are full of blood.
His katana are literally dripping with it.
And his face...
"Jin?"
I look at him as I feel my knee gave out making me kneel on the road.
His eyes are glowing red.
Jin slowly walk towards me.
I feel scared.
What is happening.
First everything became weird, I got stuck in the loop and now I saw someone I knew with bloody katana and a dismembered parts on the ground.
"Welcome..."
Jin spoke with his familiar, nonchalant voice.
But his eyes are staring at me as if judging my very being.
"To the other side."
He said before he smiled and with a swift movement, slashed me in two.