worst childhood

Yah kahani use samay ki Hai jab hame Sahi aur galat ka matlab nahin pata hota jab hame koi bhi kuchh bhi samjhae to Ham turant se man jaate Hain jab hamen Koi toffee bhi De to Ham usko apna samajh ke kha lete Hain Jahan hamen dusre log bhi Apne lagte Hain ki sab acche Hain sab hamara Bhala chahte Hain sab humko pyar karte Hain sab hamari parvah karte Hain per hota hai iska ulta hi कभी-कभी lagta hai ki samne wala hamen sirf pyar karna chahta hai Chhota baccha samajh ke lekin uski mansik sthiti itni gandi Hoti Hai ki hamen pata hi nahin chalta ki vah Apne dimag mein kya ganda soch Raha Hai mujhe Aaj bhi apni jindagi mein woh pal yad Hai jab mujhe galat tarike se galat intention ke sath touch Kiya gaya tha aur mujhe pata hi nahin tha ki samne Wala Kya chahta Hai aur mujhe nahin samajh a raha tha ki Main Kya Karun aur kaise Apne Ghar walon Ko samjhaun Shayad sab Ne is baat ka fayda uthaya ki iski maa nahin Hai to Ham kuchh bhi kar sakte hain main aapko apni jindagi ka ek kissa batati hun jab Main 6 sal ki thi to main bus se ja rahi thi apne chacha chachi ke sath use samay mai bahut khush ho Jaya karti thi jab mujhe kahin bahar jaane Ko milta tha Main Apne chacha chachi ke sath ek bus mein chadhi woh bus pessenger Se Bhari hui thi aur usmein baithane ki jagah nahin thi jyadatar log usmein Khade hokar hi Safar kar rahe the to hamen bhi khada hi hona pada wahin per Hi ek Budha uncle apni seat per baitha hua mujhe bahut der Se ghur raha tha humko seat nahin mil rahi thi bus main baithane ke liye hum bahut pareshan ho rahe the aur mere pairon mein bahut Dard bhi ho raha tha Safar kafi lamba tha isliye mushkilen bhi ho rahi thi vah Buddha uncle akele tha aur hath mein ek plastic ka bag tha mere ghar walon ka Dhyaan use taraf nahin Gaya jaha wo Bura uncle baitha hua tha Maine ek pink color ki short frock pahan Rakhi Thi Jo mujhe Meri mummy ne dilai thi wo mujhe bahut pasand Thi aur Maine hamesha usko Apne Kareeb Rakha hua hai Aaj bhi mere pass Sahi salamat rakhi Hui Hai us budhe aadami ne mere family ko bola ki bacchi bahut pareshan ho rahi hai to usko Main apni God mein bitha leta Hun kyunki Bagal wali seat per bhi pessenger the to use bus mein jagah nahin thi gharwalon ko Insan achcha Laga to unhone Dhyan na dete hue usko mujhe apne pass baithane ke liye bol diya lekin uski niyat Gandi thi usne mujhe apni God mein bithaya bithane ke bad jab sabka Dhyan idhar udhar Ho Gaya Koi mujh per Dhyan nahin de raha tha to usne apni gandi harkatein shuru kar di usne apna hath धीरे-धीरे Meri tangon per rakhne ki koshish kar raha tha lekin main बार-बार uska hath hata deti fir usne apna hath Meri Jung per nahin Rakha thodi dur Safar hone ke bad धीरे-धीरे Meri aankh lag Gai to usne apni gandi harkatein shuru kar di usne apna hath Meri private part per Rakha hua tha vah Meri tangon se hote hue Apne hath ko meri jaagh se private part tak le gaya mujhe pata hi nahin chala Lamba Safar hone ki vajah se mere ko nind a gai aur ISI baat ka usne fayda uthaya mujhe Aaj bhi yad Hai jab woh mujhe chhu raha tha to mujhe bahut ganda mahsus ho raha tha aur Main kuchh kah bhi nahin Pa rahi thi bus man mein yahi tha ki yah sab achcha nahin Hai fir wo धीरे-धीरे mere ko apne bich mein bithane Laga niche Se wo बार-बार kuchh chubha raha tha mujhe bilkul pasand nahin a raha tha mujhe bahut ganda mahsus ho raha tha andar Se bura lag Raha tha uski harkatein band nahin ho rahi thi बार-बार mujhe dhang Se bithane ke chakkar mein vah Meri chest per hath laga raha tha jo ki mujhe bilkul bhi nahin achcha lag Raha tha Main soch rahi thi main Kise kahun apni yah baat lekin sab mujh per Dhyan hi nahin de rahe the kyunki meri family nahin Thi main sirf Apne chacha chachi ke sath travel kar rahi thi us adami Ne Meri chaddi mein hath dalne ki bhi koshish ki lekin main jhat se utar Gai aur mujhe bahut gussa a Raha tha Main kisi ko bol bhi nahin Pa rahi thi ki uncle mere sath kya kar rahe hain FIR wo uncle Ne mere Ko utha liya God mein aur kaha kya hua bacche kya hua Ghar walon Ko Laga Shayad mein nind Se gir Gai hun unhone FIR mujhe God mein uthakar Meri donon tangon ko chauda kar niche Se kuchh chaba rahe the jo ki bahut ganda tha pata nahin Ghar Wale Ko kuchh samajh kyon nahin a raha tha bus Mera munh bahut ganda banaa hua tha Maine FIR koshish ki hun uncle ka hath apni taraf Se hatane ki aur unki God se utar jaane ki lekin vah बार-बार koshish yahi kar raha tha ki main unke God mein Hi baithi rahun main bahut jor se Rone lagi samajh nahin a raha tha ki apni family ko kya bolun kyunki mere mummy papa to nahin the na to fir gharwalon ne kaha ki koi dikkat hai to hamare Sath Khade hokar Safar Kar Lo Maine FIR unki baat man Li lekin use uncle ki najar mere upar hi thi unhone bahut koshish ki mujhe fir se apne pass baithane ke liye lekin is bar Main gusse mein apni baat per Adi Rahi aur kaha mujhe nahin baithana vah uncle mujhe lagatar ghur raha tha aur main use gusse se dekh rahi thi Shayad vah samajh chuka tha ki mujhe achcha nahin lag raha hai aur vah chupchap se baithkar dekhta Raha Shayad usne Meri masoomiyat ka fayda uthaya aur Bachpan mein to pata hi nahin hota ki yah sab chijen kya hoti hain Na hamare ghar walon Ne hamen samjhaya hota Hai yah Meri jindagi ka vah pahla incident tha Jo Meri jindagi mein Ghar Kar Gaya yahi se shuru hua Meri jindagi ka Kala saya jisne mere pure Bachpan ko Jala Diya aaj main 29 sal ki hun aur apne Bachpan mein itna kuchh galat dekh liya hai ki mujhe aap Kisi per Bharosa hi nahin hota Meri jindagi mein itna kuchh galat ho chuka hai ki Apne khud ke khoon ke rishton per bhi mujhe shak hai Jaise Jaise main aage Badi hoti Gai vaise hi vaise vaise Meri jindagi mein aur gande gande incident hote Gaye Aaj is age mein Aakar Main sochati Hun ki maine apne hak ke liye awaaz kyon nahin uthai maine apne sath itna galat kaise hone Diya Shayad main Kisi childhood trauma se Gujar Rahi Thi aur mujhe Koi samjhane wala nahin tha aur na hi koi mere sath tha kahate Hain maa sab kuchh hoti hai lekin mere pass to maa hi nahin Thi to Main kisko apni baten kahati main is novel ke jarie apne dil mein jo bojh lekar baithi Hun Main yahan एक-एक kar sab bataungi Jo Jo mere Sath hua aur Main chahti hun bhavishya mein Kisi aur bacche ke sath Aisa Na Ho. Shayad Meri kahani aapko apni kahani Jaisi Lage kyunki Bachpan mein har Kisi ke Sath aisa hota hai lekin main apna experience share karna chahti hun taki main ine yadon se nikal paaun khulkar ji paaun I hope aap log Mera Sath de aaj ke liye sirf itna aage aane Wale kisse main aapko aage bataungi dhanyvad