Love.
Love is suffocating.
Relationships are suffocating.
They feel like a cage. You suppress yourselves your true desire and your beliefs.
You put on a mask.
The manipulation and the controlling isn't obvious at first glance.
But the moment you see it, you can't think of anything else.
All the positives just seem to vanish and this feeling gets amplified.
The feeling of losing your beliefs, your identity just to fit in.
The feeling of being alone even when surrounded by many.
You want to be yourself but you can't.
Because being yourself means confrontation, and how can you confront the ones who love you so much?
You fear confrontation so you escape, drown in fantasies and feelings you know you will never get.
Try to fill your emptiness externally.
And you endure.
and endure.
and endure.
Hoping one day something will change.
Hoping one day you will have the courage to face it, the courage to make a decision.
But in reality,
Your hope is a dream.
A dream that won't turn into reality until you make it.
But what if your reality itself warped?
What if the chains that you felt choked you were released?
What if the freedom you seek so dearly falls right into your arms?
Are you going to grab it?
Even if it means giving up everything and everyone.
Would you escape if you can't confront?
Would you pay the price for such freedom?
I would,
and I did.