7. "NOTHING CHANGES"
I can write the hundredth book about this damn heartbreak, I can write about how it's had me messed up in the head for months now, I can write about her and everything surrounding but that shit won't change anything.
Don't know what I did wrong for things to be this fucked up, everybody's heart gets broken by somebody every once in while, don't know why this is becoming the ruin of me, my head, body, heart and soul is dancing in the flames of the devil.
I can't have good days and good nights, I can't be good to anybody, all I bring is bad energy and misery, I thought by this time, I would've turned the corner but this shit still has a hold on me.
I can write about how my nights are, I can write about how fucked up I really am, I can write the hundredth book about this fucking heartbreak but it won't change shit.
8. "I'M DONE TRYING"
I'm done watering dead roses, I'm done revisiting the ugly past, I'm done rebuilding fallen bridges and I'm done letting my childhood voids create a weakling out of me. I'm better than just an ex, I deserves somebody who's gonna respect my worth, somebody who knows the true meaning of love and somebody who'll choose me.
If I'm kissing girls that I don't love, I'm doing my old thang and if I make love to girls that I should just fuck, I'm using sex therapy as a ship out of my own misery, that's what it's all about and I don't wanna hear nothing about the ghost of the past. Everybody who's in the past should just remain there, this is a new beginning and I don't wanna hear nothing about the bullshit that's behind me.
I'm done reintroducing myself to old eyes, I'm done speaking to dumb ears and dumb minds, I'm done wasting time with things on the past and I'm done letting my flaws limit my capabilities.
I can be a good lover to a good person, I can keep a good thing, I can be just good enough for somebody's daughter but until I find somebody who makes me feel like it's time for love, I'll be kissing girls that I don't love, making love to girls that I should just fuck.