The weather today is quite nice
The sky was a blue that felt uplifting
The clouds were drifting about lazily across the blue sky
I took the time to breathe it in
This calm peaceful weather that came after a long time of bad ones
Maybe life isn't so bad right now
...well for other people anyways
My life will always feel miserable
Hehe
Why should there be such clear weather
Why can't it be another storm that engulfs the entire world
Then that misery would come to an end
The other people can be given as example as Mr Yakuza at the front teaching a silent classroom
Or the students with their head down
There were a lot of students with their heads down
Maybe they are just tired or something
Or maybe they are sick
Anyway I seem to be the only one that noticed such amazing weather
I mean the other students don't look like they are going to be looking outside the window anytime soon
They aren't one to casually admire the weather
Hehe
Maybe I should end them then face their corpse to the window
Maybe then they would have the time to admire the scenery
I studied the students more closely and felt that the vibes were wrong
Is it just me or does something feel like it's going to go wrong
It's just an intuition of mine but I feel like the classroom suddenly isn't so safe
I turned to gaze at the only form of authority at the front of the class but he seemed not to care about it more than a slight longer of his eyes
Those who were seated beside the obvious slackers tried to wake them up but there was no result
Their heads continued to be down and they didn't even budge
Logically they should have at least shifted from their position slightly
But they didn't move an inch
And if I examine it more closely; their posture isn't something that should be comfortable enough for dozing
Neither does it look like someone who is dozing off
He he
Should I drag them off their seats after ending them and check for myself
I turned my gaze back to Mr Yakuza but he ignored it
He really is relentless
Something is obviously wrong in his classroom but he just continued teaching Language without caring
Shouldn't he have noticed that the students are in a weird situation
And sent them to the clinic or something
Speaking of ; I just noticed that there are a large amount of students in the hallway
It seems the other classes were infected with the collapsing fever because there were a lot of students sending collapsed students in batches
He he
I hope their life ends as a result
Mr Yakuza didn't even bat an eye to the situation outside
Should I end this teacher too before he collapses like the others
The lesson on Language went on and I paid attention to it
Mr Yakuza sounded stiff and I felt like he has taught us this before
It's vague but the tone and the words sounds like something I have heard repeatedly
But this is certainly a new topic in class because he said he would be starting a new one this week
And I don't have the money for a tutor and no friends to have heard them say it
Neither do I stay close enough to the other students to have heard it from them
Anyway he is a relentless man nonetheless
Hmm I feel like I've shifted off topic
And we do share that same quality with each other
I mean he teaches at a school where he is discriminated against and has the lowest status
He he
I can burn this school to the ground and end the problem
While I simply exist
He he
I can end you too
Why am I able to see
Corpses can't see
Why am I able to hear
Corpses can't hear anything
Why can I smell that pungent stench
It's starting to smell funny and the direction is coming from my deskmate
Corpses might smell like this
But I can't determine if it's the exact same smell because the dead people I have seen were fresh victims of the natural disasters
The smell of blood was a whole lot more pungent at the time
Plus it was everywhere
He he
Should I just end the world in a flood of blood
Why do I feel the clothes brushing against my skin and the goosebumps that are growing on it
Seriously, this place feels dangerous like something is going to pop out
Why
Why
Why
I know why, I've always known why
Sometimes I try to convince myself of the opposite but that's just a means to justify myself
It isn't the truth
And both deep down and on the surface; I know the truth
Honestly this morning is a solid reminder of this truth
Instead of reminiscing, shouldn't I pay more attention to the source of my discomfort
I woke up as usual in my very empty room
It wasn't like the other dorm rooms assigned to the other students
It was smaller and not properly maintained
Plus some people used it as a storage room even with me sleeping here
But why would they care about an orphan boy with no future prospects
It's not like I'm achieving anything in this school except a show of sympathy by the powerful to the weak
I'm merely a figure head or a symbol
I wasn't the only orphan sent to a school built by the nobility
There was one more kid that grew up in an orphanage controlled by the nobility
And he is in the lower grade
Honestly I have enough problems to deal with by myself so I can't spare the effort to care about someone else
My life is already enough to keep me occupied
Besides he grew up in an orphanage and I grew up on the streets destroyed by natural disasters
I'm pretty sure they treat him better than me
Though he would probably still be discriminated against
He he
Should I end all nobility and set the world back to disguised inequality
Sigh life sure is miserable
Can't I just end it already
Though I should probably pay attention to the person making groaning noises beside me
He actually sounds like he's going to die
The opportunity felt like it presented itself when I left my dorm admit the grey skies
How odd for it to become clear blue skies not long after
The shift somehow feels ominous
I was on my way to drop off my room key after turning the key once
There wasn't a risk of stealing because no one wanted to touch something of mine
It was the worst quality
And I was trash in their eyes
Who would willing want to touch something thrown in the garbage
Anyways I was walking to the drop of the key
I usually walked at the edges away from the main path
So that I won't bump into anyone on the way to class
Plus I pay extra attention while walking
But I got distracted by a student trying to jump another student and collapsing
He felt familiar and I realized that it was one of the few students who actively bullied me
He was walking with his friends when he started acting weird and threw himself at one of his friends and collapsed
There were also a lot of black spots growing on his face
It was disgusting and I turned to look away when someone bumped into me
"Watch it" the voice came out just as I landed on the floor
I hissed in pain as one of bruises began to ache again
"I'm sorry" I whispered in a kneeling position
Has I'm really pathetic
I didn't even have to let him say more than two words before I was on my knees pleading
"Are you mocking me" he was angry all of a sudden with my kneeling and he stretched out his hands to me
"I'm sorry" I slammed my head on the concrete floor and started pleading more
I felt the same danger as when I'm about to be beaten up so I tried to make myself as pathetic as possible
This person was also part of the friend group of the collapsed bully
So I was sure that he could drag me away for a beating
But isn't he being more irrational than normal
Why would he want to beat me up for apologizing
He he
Should I beat him until his heartbeat ends
"Hey come and help" it was the voice of the friend group with the bully
"I don't have time for this" he turned away to help them drag the unconscious bully away
I sighed in relief and stood up
The rest of my journey to class was majorly uneventful
The only highlight was that I slipped and almost fell unto another collapsing student
There was water leaking from the girl's bathroom and noises could be heard inside
The second thing to note was that there were some students collapsing
They were the nerds and those in lowest status in school hierarchy who came early to class
Of course I wasn't even in the hierarchy but below it
Far below it so much so; that I wasn't considered human
At the end of the day; I made it to class safely
Now here I am
I returned back to the present and examined the classroom
The students with their heads on the desk slowly raised it up one by one
I swiftly turned to my desk mate who had his head raised too
His face was filled with black spots
His red eyes focused on me and his mouth opened widely at my direction with drool dripping down at the side
He looked like a monster to me
I finally knew where the danger came from
It was everywhere
I could feel it
I was going to die if this continued
But I was scared
I wasn't scared that I was going to die
No I was scared of the ferocious monster beside me
My desk mate looked really scary and I wanted to run away
I screamed and fell off my chair trembling
The monster pounced on me as I fell of my chair
It bit me in the neck and I was assaulted with horrible pain as a result
I chocked on the blood filling my throat
I could feel myself slipping
It felt like freedom to slowly slip away from the world
I can't believe that I almost lost this chance at being free because I was scared of a monster
It's also the reason I have been alive until now even though I didn't try to be
It's because I'm scared of people so I run away from them when they try to kill me
I'm scared of natural disasters so I run away instead of letting myself die
I was scared of my ferocious deskmate because he looked like a monster
I'm scared of everything that can make me achieve the death I seek
I really am a coward; I thought before death overcame me
He he
Ha ha
Hahaha
HAHAHAHAHA
AH HAHAHAHAHAHA
Finally it's all come to an end
But I have to share this joy with everyone
Let's all enjoy the release of ending
His eyes that were wide open at death flashed a red color
...
The weather is nice
Aren't I dead though so how am I thinking