I was scared, realisation hitting me hard, what I did.
"Kayden" I heard called and got out of bed, i walked towards the door, vision blurred by tears, the door opened and a man walked in, I recognised him as he's always with dad, the look he had for me was neutral, I didn't know what I was expecting but he had sat me down and told me the company had everything covered, that everyone died but me and 2 other boys, while 1 of them have no idea of what I really did the other does and he is taking the blame, I tried to convince them that it wasn't him, I was confused as to why the guy would lie for me, I didn't know he had no choice, that the company had threatened him until I was standing in a corner, shaken, as he pleaded, he promised he told no one, that the other guy have no idea what happened and that he promised not to tell but apparently they don't believe him and are not willing to risk anything, they made it look like suicide, the case had dragged and the guy had been frustrated and scared that he took his own life but in reality, he was forced to take the drugs at gun point, I stood there in a corner crying, shaking at what was happening, me being there was like a final nail to my own coffin, he told me about Aria Lin.
"She's your age. You'll know her when you see her" he whispered.
"Take care of her, promise me" he said while directly looking in my eyes.
"I forgive you, you didn't know, you're just another child brought into a fucked up world like my Aria, look out for her, she had no….." He groaned, held his stomach and cried, its was a heart wrenching cry that soon turned into a full convulsion and then he went silent, blood slipping out of his mouth, tears stained his face as he stared at me wide eyes.
END OF FLASHBACK
"stop!" I screamed gripping my head, crying for help, wanting nothing but to stop the thought, I hit my head a couple of times, trying to stop the voice that tells me the kins of horrible person I was, then I felt someone hug me, it's her, her smell, her gentle hands on my head, hugging me to her warm self.
"It's ok" she whispered.
"I killed them, I killed everyone " I cried so hard holding onto her for dear life and she held me back, running her hand throughmy hair, whispering words I don't deserve to hear, words meant for only good people with pure heart like hers, kaydens and Kairo's.
I eventually shut my eyes and slept off.
I opened my eyes to hand running through my hair, it felt good, I wanted that, someone to silently tell me they care but not from Aria Lin, I am too a sinner to accept her grace and care.
I sat up and didn't look at her.
"I told you to stay away" I whispered, my voice hoarse from crying.
"I, jude gave me …." She paused and I turned to her, what did he give her?
"What?" I asked and she looked guilty, which I assume have to do with Kairo, I felt a lump in my throat, I sudden fear.
"He gave you what?" I asked, her eyes set on mine and then she smiled, shaking her head.
"Are you ok?" She asked, I looked away from her, running my hand through my hair.
"I am fine, you didn't have to come here....not anymore " I whispered the last part, to soften my fall, she should start staying away from me.
"Ok" she whispered getting up, I itch to beg her to stay but I can't be that selfish, she walked out the door, taking every piece of sanity with her and I died again at the thought of her never seeing me again.