Hey, Kid.
Hey, Folks.
I hope you all have been well since last we spoke.
It's been a while, and you know?
I have been quite busy.
Quite busy.
I met someone.
Well...
Technically, I knew her in a way.
We have ridden the same bus for just over a year now, and we have crossed paths nearly every day.
We never spoke, lol.
Why?
She is from Colombia, lol.
She speaks not a single word of English, and I just happen to know not a single word of Spanish.
Amazingly, we make it work.
Communication is key, you know?
I bought a couple of pairs of translation headphones, and we make it work.
We are both quite patient, so that helps as well, lol.
Hmm.
She isn't your mother, Kid.
She can't have children anymore due to reasons of her own.
We also have a 12-year age gap that would have probably been a problem had she been able to conceive.
Hmm again.
I have... Had?
I don't know anymore, honestly...
Bah.
I told a "friend" of mine that I will be dating someone soon, and she was not happy.
I am confused by that, because I had really liked her at one point, and she simply didn't express the same interest.
I took that as a reason to put myself in the friend zone, and decided to try to date whoever would come my way and be worth the investment.
She said, "It seems like as soon as I start to like someone, they stop liking me..."
You know something?
I have liked her for more than long enough for her to take a chance with me, and now it is just too late.
Why should I put my life on hold because she needs more time?
More reason to not talk about her ex.
More time to heal from whatever she went through with him.
How is that fair?
We can't love the pain out of someone, you know?
I wish she would have told me sooner that she liked me...
I did really, really like her.
Bah.
She could have been a really cool mother for you, Kid.
And she has an amazing daughter who I am sure would have made an awesome big sister for you.
Bah and bah again.
I will let you get to what you came for, and shut up with my rambling.
See you back here soon, yeah?
Enjoy, Kid.
You as well, Folks.
(Hops into the pilot seat of the Slappery-Slappish-Slappington 3000.1 and punches all of the buttons within reach. Mayhap I'll land in some random timeline and start a bunch of trouble!)
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June 13th, 2022.
1:52 p.m.
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Dear You.
Who is your mother?
How long have we known each other?
Are you an only child?
What's the story behind your name?
Weird questions, yes...
But understand that you don't exist just yet.
I don't have any of these answers just yet.
I just want you...
I want the one person who can and will love me unconditionally...
I don't know if I will ever find that.
Even with your mother, whoever she is...
Maybe she loves me unconditionally?
Maybe she is the one my very soul has been looking for?
Maybe you are OUR endgame.
-Dad.
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(Pops back into 2026 lamenting the fact that I didn't cause nearly as much trouble as I would have liked!)
Hmm.
- If you exist, I should know who your mother is, lol.
You just aren't here yet, you know?
- I can't think of a single name that I had in mind for you at the moment, but I have a little list a few entries back, lol.
Alexandria?
Sophettia?
Elizabeth?
I like those old, white-folk names, lmao!
More like... the medieval-feel that they impart, you know?
They sound sophisticated, intelligent, and beautiful.
You must know by now that I obviously would be happier with a daughter than a son, lol.
Mayhap I will have a son, and he will turn out Gay, lmao.
WIN-WIN!
LMAOOOOOOO
At least I would still get the "daughter" I wanted, and I wouldn't have to worry about her bringing a baby home, lol.
Not that I don't want grandchildren.
Perhaps I am thinking too far ahead, lol.
- I hope that... If I do meet someone who becomes the mother of my child, she is phenomenal...
I thought I met that person just recently...
But...
Well, Kid...
Folks.
We will see.
I will leave that in God's great hands.
If you exist, Kid...
I might know who your mother is.
I mean that, Folks.
Maybe she will love me unconditionally, and YOU will be the result of that love, Kid.
A boy can dream just a little longer, yeah?
I will leave you all at that, and I will see you next week, okay?
I love and appreciate you all, and I hope the next entry finds you just as well as this one did, if not better.
See you all soon, yeah?
Safe travels, Folks.
You as well, Kid.
And as always:
Stay safe.
Stay healthy.
Stay vigilant.
-Bluu.