Hey, Kid!
Hey, Folks!
I hope you all have been well!
Where do I start!?
It has been one hell of a month, and boy, it has JUST began.
Life gives us a lifetime to slow down, yeah?
We have to make that time hesitate.
Drive in and enjoy the events, you know?
Slow down as slow as possible.
As often as you can.
You can't get that time back.
I love you, Kid.
You all as well, Folks.
Guess what!?
I have an amazing, supportive, loving, caring girlfriend!
She is all that I've been waiting and looking for, you know?
Let's see how it goes, yeah?
You all know I'll inevitably keep you posted, lol.
Oh! By the way, Kid...
She isn't your mother.
She can't be.
Her body is unable.
Hmm.
The older I get, and the more time passes, I am really starting to believe more and more that...
Well...
You just may never come to be.
Hmmm and hmm again.
Maybe I am just destined to love the idea of you, you know?
Hmm.
Outside of that, I've been well!
One day and step at a time.
A new girlfriend.
A new shift at work.
What else is to come!?
Who knows?
I am just grateful to be alive to experience this whole "life" thing.
To have a child would just be an additional blessing.
I love you, Kid.
Even if you ever only exist in my heart, mind, and soul.
I'll let you all get to what you came for, yeah?
I love and appreciate you all more than you'll ever know.
See you back here soon.
Enjoy!
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June 15th, 2022.
10:24AM.
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Dear You.
I am not a gyalis.
(A smiling face is drawn here with tears running from its eyes.)
I say that because I know that there are... Many names in this book.
Who could be your mother?
One more, maybe.
Lbvs.
XXXXX.
XXXXX XXXXX.
"No amount of guilt can undo the past, and no amount of anxiety can dictate the future."
- Unknown.
Take chances, Kid... Life is too short.
Do.
Be.
Own.
Say.
Try.
You are only human.
That we know of... Lol.
Talk to me.
To US.
I love you.
- Dad.
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Hmm.
Seems pretty short and sweet.
It also seems quite self-explanatory, lol.
After I left my ex-fiancé, I chose ethical non-monogamy for the first maybe... Two years?
I didn't care for a serious relationship, yet I wanted and craved connections and intimacy.
I found more than enough of both, as you've seen and can imagine, and in those "adventures" I found more and more of what I wanted less and less of...
I learned that a lot of people are unhealed, and simply refuse to do so.
It's a sad and scary reality.
Trauma has a way of being... Familiar.
Comforting.
That is extraordinarily dangerous.
I love fully and deeply.
I've come to find that I grew weary of shallow connections very quickly.
Sex can be so superficial if you let it.
If you detach the emotions from it.
That is possible, but extremely hard for me to do, so I only sleep with people that I have some form of emotional attachment with.
I am not only a Sapiophile, but demisexual as well.
- That quote is amazing and true. You have to learn to just feel what you are going through, and then let it go.
You simply can't heal the hurt out of someone. It doesn't work that way.
You also can't live a healthy or productive life if you worry too much about the future.
Be as present as possible, you know?
Time is all that we have.
We have to make the most of it.
Go take chances.
Life is a lot shorter than you can imagine.
I love you, Kid.
I love you all as well, Folks.
I'll leave it at that, and I hope to see you back here soon.
It won't be nearly as long as the wait, lol. I've been working new hours in my day job, so I have been adjusting.
Thank you all kindly for your patience!
See you in the next one, yeah?
Safe travels, Kid.
You as well, Folks.
I love and appreciate all of you.
Stay safe.
Stay healthy.
Stay vigilant.
-Bluu.