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Date:12/08/2258 : dear diary my name is desire and I am 13 year old .this is my first entry I don't really know what I should write but my teacher told me that writing or expressing something as story or writing a diary can somehow lesson the mental stress.
So here I am. Firstly let me write about myself "ummmm....yeah" my name is desire and I am 13 year old "didn't I write this before meh whatever" I live with my mom her name is Sarah don't know who dad is .my mom works in corporate whatever that is and has very less time to look after me, I live in nexas , we have a small house a 3 bhk with a basement and attic , a garage . Our home is somewhat isolated as it is in centre of our 1 hectar land which got converted into plots and whatever complicated stuff that is so lot of free space for gardening which I like doing a lot.
Everything was good before, but now I just hate myself,all my friends say I am some type of freak but the teacher told me it is normal to get changes in body when puberty hits " I think I have read something like this but what is it?" And told me to talk to mom
I can't really bother mom she is busy all the time at pretty tired at night . I know every girl leaks blood every month but my friends said your chest only swells when you have done something freaky and all adults do it but they do it after they are big and not small like me
"I really didn't do anything freaky i swear"
Now no one is talking to me and the class monitor that 'karen' is not letting anyone talk to me saying I did sin and am contracted demon or something , I complained to class teacher and she said it is normal and i should talk to my mom about it and if I am feeling down I should write it down and said she too writes stories but won't let me read until I am 18 .
" This is good I feel lot better already maybe diary can really become my friend"
Date:16/08/2258: dear diary it is Sunday and I finally talked to mom it was pretty embarassing for both of us I think but I got a gist of that stuff and that stuff seems interesting.
Date: 19/12/2258: dear diary it's Christmas holidays and today is my birthday and mom got me the latest I-watch 2258 I wanted
I can't wait to try it and I love you mom for getting me this watch.
Date: 22/12/2258: Dear diary i finally researched about the stuff mom talked about, it was pretty graphic, disgusting and fascinating in its own way
Date: 06/06/2259: dear diary mom has went on her business trip as usual and I have the whole house for myself I am exited to research more.
Date: 20/06/2259: dear diary mom came back from her trip and it was pretty fun doing research, I tried some of my mom's clothes they were bit bigger but i looked quite good in those .
Date:07/05/2260:dear diary my research has went further and further deep and I think I have intrest towards bondage as it gives me those tingling feeling.
Date: 04/06/2261: dear diary i think I may be bi from what I have researched as I feel more tingly when I research the lesb section.
Date : 20/06/2262: dear diary i finally did my first practical research of tying myself up with some scarfs for a whole night and it felt so good, I used scarfs to tie my legs and used belt to tie my hands . I am going to turn 18 pretty soon and I can't wait to get more resources for my research but the point is where can I hide them?
Date: 19/12/2262: dear diary i am so happy today as I had lot of fun with mom and her colleagues as they celebrated my birthday. I finally turned 18 . Here's the summary of my life so far ,
I have finally entered college and am pursuing law and there are quite a few laws I am interested in that i didn't know were still a thing. Take for example consensual slavery is still a thing and that's pretty fascinating in its own way
My social life isn't that good as lot of girls are jealous of how good I look with my silky black hair , green eyes beautiful face, D cup boobs , bubbly butt and a great figure which I maintained as I go to gym, some boys,even girls did propose to me and some were quite persistent but I didn't really have an interest in dating anyone so I turned them down cause I know very few people would actually match the kinks I have
I don't know how to start that conversation and be seen as a freak . Iam quite happy with solo play till now and I will look for a partner when I feel I need one.
Coming back to the birthday party i think there is something going on between my mom one of her colleague, her name was alice I think. Also I felt Alice was also looking at me a lot as though I was her family or something which deepens my suspicions .
As for the research stuff I think I have finally found a solution for hiding materials as I am going to use ropes which I can give thousands of excuses for having them .
I have researched lot of rope bondage and found some sites like the 'dutchy' which teaches it , rope bondage is vast with things like shibari, rope harnesses, creative tie ups, suspensions and lots of stuff . As I can finally buy stuff, I am going to do lot of research about rope bondage as some of the videos I seen talk about its dangers and will finally try it during summer, do you think I will like it diary?.
Date:06/06/2263: Dear Diary today mom is going on a business trip again and I can finally try rope bondage , I have been researching what to buy where to buy for ropes , and some toys which are small and I can easily hide it like vibrating eggs , butt plugs etc , I haven't really tried anything other than fingering till now , and haven't really tried anything anal but I am excited to try those stuff and I quickly buyed them , they will be delivered within 30 mins via drones so no hassle of meeting people and feeling awkward.
Desire kept pacing around the living room as a whirring sound came from the front door. Desire quickly ran and collected the package, roughly 20 minutes passed as desire collected all the packages and moved them to her bedroom.
" I can't wait to unbox this" desire squealed as she started unboxing the boxes first came a rope kit containing 10 different coloured ropes with removable steel rope ends, a scissor a bag to keep the ropes and a letter of appreciation for buying, next came
The latest vibrating egg which can be either set on a series of commands or manually operated through the I-watch and had battery capacity of running continuously for 2 days straight, it is charged through wireless charging pads
As she opened another box this she was greeted with a cold steel puzzle with 05 pieces with a big fake diamond more like lego but in different shapes . They had powerful magnets which once attached could only be removed using specific tools and attaching those formed a beautiful steel coloured buttplug with red diamond at bottom, the diamond could be used as a paper weight and other parts could easily be hidden.
A last small package contained a water based lube to apply on butt plug.
Desire couldn't stop herself as she quickly closed every doors and windows of house and then she removed her clothes and got fully naked , she laid a rug infront of full body mirror and ogled at her sexy body, the perky nipples,etc .
Desire took the vibrating egg which came already charged and connected it with her I-watch she checked the automatic mode and set one where the vibrator kept increasing speed steadily and staying on highest speed for 5 mins then getting off and again starting steadily. But it came with sudden increase in speed for 5 secs randomly in between. Then she caressed her pussy a bit and applied some lube on her fingers and gently slid it in her pussy.
"Aah " desire moaned then gently inserted the vibrating egg in her pussy still with 0 speed . Then desire did the same with her anal and applied lube to the buttplug, she kept the buttplug on the floor and gently sat on it still moaning as the plug gave her a sense of fullfillness.
Finally she took the ropes and started tying herself, first she did was make a collar and leash for her neck with 'larks single head column 'tie and tied the other end of leash to the table which was aside the mirror, then made a diamond shaped chest harness called hishi karada which also fixed the butt plug in its position with rope blocking it from falling of , then tied her legs using mermaid tie for legs .
Desire couldn't describe how good she looked and felt in those ropes as she took time moving to feel them on her body . Then she took one more rope and made a bit gag from it and tied it , she made a pony tail from her silky black hair and tied them in a bun .
Desire then made the handcuffs from a belt and started the vibrating egg through I-watch and threw the I- watch on bed , the slow vibration spread the tingly feeling through the body also affecting the buttplug she had .
"Aaah ...haah" controlling her moans she wore the belt handcuffs in one hand and ogled herself for final time and then using other hand she put a blindfold on herself. Finally with great difficulty she tightened the belt handcuffs behind her back and moved a bit backward to feel the collar getting slight pull from leash and laid down on rug as she went into the wonderland of pleasure.
Desire felt her whole body and never felt so free from everything than she was now. Desire had known that vibrator didn't have full battery and could maximumly work for 13 hrs i.e till Tommorow morning and desire had already eaten a lot and did everything so she could enjoy this uninterrupted. Desire also knew that vibrator was onlything stopping herself from removing restraints.
" Haah....aah...ahhhhhhh.aahh" she felt her orgasm built up as vibrator went max speed. She had a huge orgasm but the vibrator kept going after a few hours desire slept and continued orgasming till 5 in the morning.