VI
10 years ago
20 October
16:56
.𖥔 ݁ .
It's been a moment since I've consulted with my diary, which is where all of these entries are being kept. Whoever is reading this post-my death may ask me why there's a gap between entries — and that's because I've been busy with school, current home life, and rekindling with my sanity.
It's almost my birthday, and it's been a little over a month since half of my family died. I'm… somehow coping, but it's not a decent job. I'm going to be like —- what, 12?13? I forgot my age. Everything's just overwhelming.
Life at Rosa's hasn't gotten too bad yet, but something reaks suspicious about this godforsaken place.
It's like a walking curse.
It's similar to a living hell.
Wait — It IS hell on earth.
This household is a ring of hellfire even though it's not suspicious to the outer realm. How long will it take for the authorities to brink suspicion? How long will it take for people to revel that we aren't safe?
"Time will tell."
Az always says.
"This place sucks!"
Aika retorts.
"You're safe here."
Rosa quotes.
It still doesn't feel real, and it's been a month. Where did we go wrong in life?
Why does society turn a blind eye to children slowly succumbing to demise?
Real-world math problem type shit.
Aly owns apples, If Aly has twelve apples and she gave six away, how many does she have left?
Six. I've got six apples left.
On a plus note, I'm not dead. Yet. In fact, I'm very alive. So alive that I feel like something is literally living inside of me. Another entity, one could describe. I asked Az and Aika this question, if they felt it too, and they said they felt the same. Which was strange, just what did Rosa do to us?
Aside from the lingering suspicion that Rosa is trying to slowly slaughter all three of us for financial compensation, we've all been back to school again after being traumatized for our lives, and I managed to fill Kura in on the details.
If you forgot who that was, that's my best friend! He's that kid who stayed at our house the night of the gruesome murder and went home the next day because what the hell was that.
I doubt you forgot though, he has a lot of fans, even at school. During the day, a bunch of girls will approach us, but for some reason he'll latch onto me. I don't blame him, those girls are crazy as hell. Then again, we're in middle school, so it's kind of.. you know, standard.
Girls and guys hormones are developing at this age, girls are starting their cycles and their hormones go crazy. Like. Wild. Some may refer to this as being "boy crazy" or "girl crazy". Me personally? I'm just normally crazy. Ask my paren— oh wait, they're dead.
Enough of the dark humor meant to lighten the situation, even though it's actually a very dark subject and difficult for me to talk about.
I informed Kurayami of everything when me and my remaining siblings were mentally stable and arranged in our new home enough to return to school, which was a little under a month ago — during the time I wasn't consulting my diary every evening and day for about three days straight.
His reaction wasn't surprised, rather, intrigued by the information I dumped onto him. This surprised me, granted he was there that night, he knew like four people died. He didn't react to it like I thought he would. I didn't doubt him, I know he's a lot like Azazel when it comes to showing emotions. Neither of the men actually knew how to regulate the "appropriate" emotion for the scenario.
Finally, Kurayami had spoke.
"So, let me get this straight: essentially, four people was murdered the night I stayed at your house, and we all could've been next. Now you're living with an evil sorceress lady that the entire country and cityside hates???"
Yeah, pretty much spot on, and I'm pretty sure that was his exact response.
"Holy fuck."
Is what he whispered in my ear at the time. And honestly? That's how we all reacted that night, and if Atsu was alive, I'm pretty sure he'd react the exact same to all of this.
"You're always welcome to stay with me."
He had told me, but his situation isn't exactly great either, but I'm glad he supports me. I adore him.
But anyways, I asked Rosa about letting Kura stay over, since him and I had talked about it, and she agreed — which was strange. Does she really not have anything to hide from us kids? Or is this all a façade to get us to trust her? Or… does she plan to hurt Kura too?
I can't predict anything, but I sure as hell can sense that she doesn't mean any good to us whatsoever, and I'm willing to suffer through it just to prove a point. Thank deities for diaries.