I was so excited that Zion finally woke up, I was very scared watching him lying there looking so weak and barely moving.
"Limah I don't think I will be able to go in with you" Xavier said to me with a Stern tone.
I know he was trying to act strong but I could see the weakness and sadness in his eyes.
"You should go alone I'm not ready to talk to him right now" He added.
"I'm still trying to understand and cope with everything happening right now ,so it's best I go for now"
"See you soon" Xavier whispered pulling into his arms and hugging me tightly.
I don't long how we stood there hugging we were currently at the waiting room.
I just hope no one passes and sees me standing with my hands in the air that would be very awkward.
I slightly laughed at the thought of that
"What's making you laugh huh" Xavier whispered pulling me closer Into his arms.
It was getting hard to breath but if I'm to die in his arms that would be a great way to die.
"Nothing just thought about something" I replied
"Alright see you soon" he said letting go of me.
And with that Xavier was gone and the feeling of emptiness was back.
I miss him already
Limah back to reality Zion needs you I scolded myself
I walked quickly to Zion's room and knocked slightly at the door.
"Come in" I heard someone say from the inside.
He was standing close to the hospital window looking outside. He had a cast on his right hand.
"Hey you shouldn't be standing at all"
"You just woke up" I said scolding him
"Hey limah" he said trying to smile
"Common let's get you back to bed" I said to him n guiding him back to his bed.
"Everything hurts"Zion said groaning while lying down back on the bed.
"I'm sorry, that's why you shouldn't be walking around"
"You need to at least recover a bit " I added giving him a sympathetic look.
"Don't worry everything would be okay"
"I'm not really sure about that"
"Everything just keeps getting worse lately" Zion said with a sigh.
"Were is Xavier" he asked slowly as if he was scared of my reply.
"Limah I saw him" he whispered looking at me with a look I couldn't comprehend.
"I shouldn't have angered him that day" Zion said looking at me with sadnesses in his eyes.
"Hey please don't stress yourself by over thinking"
"We could talk about this some other time" I added trying to reason with Zion
But I guess he wasn't having it
"No it's best I talk about this now"
"Maybe I will be free from this guilt a bit." Zion whispered.
"Alright" I said taking a hold of his hand.
"Xavier started staying with us when he lost his mom at fifteen I already knew before then, he was my brother because he usually comes during the weekend" Zion said
"But I didn't like the thought of Xavier staying with us I couldn't just stand it"
"I was just jealous of Xavier my dad always took his side it was obvious he loves him more than me and I hated that" he added trying not to cry.
"My dad always compared the both of us saying I should be More like Xavier and I'm irresponsible I should learn from Xavier, he always said awful and hurtful things about me".
"And I guess I blamed Xavier for that, my mom and dad started arguing alot all the time our house was never at peace everything was suddenly falling apart". He continued
"I and Xavier fought all the time over the little things"
When I was around 17 and Xavier was around 16 my dad said we had to work on our relationship so he sent us camping in the woods for a month only the two of us with no means of technology of any sort"
"I don't know what gave him such idea that leaving I and Xavier alone could work on our relationship" Zion whispered with tears falling from his eyes this time.
"The day we left home my dad pulled Xavier aside giving him a hug and didn't even spare me a glance, I over heard him saying in a month time we will be back home".
It was so heartbreaking seeing Zion looking this miserable.
"So we went on the camping, things didn't change much we couldn't just tolerate each other but I could see Xavier trying sometimes"
"But I guess the problem was from me I didn't want to try, my hatred for Xavier has already consumed me"
"The day Xavier died, I was there I couldn't do anything about it happened in front of me I caused it" Zion said crying.
"I made Xavier so angry that day I said hurtful things to him, like if his whore of a mother didn't ever exist that our lives would have been different"
"I said really hurtful things that day that I don't even want to remember" Zion continued.
"After i and Xavier fight that day he walked off, and two days later he still haven't returned I was getting really worried, so I decided to go search for him".
"I found Xavier sitting on top of a Rock.
"And all the rocks around there were surrounded by water I could already feel my anxiety kicking in"
"I have always been scared of the ocean I had thalassophobia and I couldn't swim"
FLASH BACK
"Xavier I called out"
"Leave me alone Zion I don't want to talk to you" Xavier said looking back at me with angry eyes
"I also don't want to talk to you, I was just worried something bad has happened to you" I said making my way to Xavier
"Why would you care huh" He asked
And I guess that made me angry because I was actually worried
"Yeah I guess you are right, why should I even care"
"If you had simply died like your mother things would been better" I added making Xavier More angry.
"Hey don't talk about my mother like that" Xavier said walking up to me looking at me with angry eyes.
"You don't get to talk about my mother, what have I ever done to you.
"For you to hate me this much just tell me I want to know"
"Oh really now you are acting dumb, ever since you came along everything changed my dad doesn't even care about me anymore"
"It's always you"
"Even at school always you"
"Everything was perfect untill you entered the picture Xavier"
"You took everything thing away from me my friends my family everything" I said screaming pushing Xavier which made him fall hitting his head and he starting bleeding on the side of his head furiously.
"Ahhh" Xavier shouted in pain
"I'm sorry" I said trying to getting closer to Xavier but he kept going back.
"Don't come close to me" he said looking at me with tearing eyes.
"Xavier i" I tried saying but he cut me off quickly.
"Leave me alone" Xavier said groaning in pain.
I tried walking further to Xavier but it happened so fast he was at the edge of the Rock and if he takes one more step that would be the end.
"Just fuck off" he said taking a step back.
And everything happened so fast Xavier was falling and I couldn't do anything about it .
Xavier also couldn't swim.
I watched him fall.
I watched him die
I ran for hours trying to look for anyone but the more I ran the more tress I was surrounded with.
When I finally got help, it was too late Xavier was no were to be seen.
They searched the around for days but Xavier body was never found.