Xavier pov
I'm still trying to comprehend what the counsel head said, You could be human again but it all depends on you. it's been a month since he said those words to me.
It all depends on me.
What do I have to do?
Those thoughts have been on my mind everyday
I was euphoric
Petrified
Being human again means alot of things for me, I'm i ready for that life again I never really thought about it until her.
I always thought being a ghost was fun until her.
I stopped caring
I stopped loving
Until her
I'm consumed by her
"Xavier are you alright" Limah said giving me a worried look
We were currently at her House or should I say my house, her so called father hasn't showed up since the incident and he better doesn't. Everytime I think about what he intended doing I felt like killing him.
"If you don't wanna come, you don't have to I und-sta-" Limah continued
"That's not it" I said cutting her off quickly"
Zion is getting discharged today from the hospital limah has been trying to convince me for a week if I didn't want to go I don't have to force myself.
This will be the second time I will be seeing him again after the accident.
Was I really ready to face him, a part of me wasn't.
But eventually I will have to, so there was no going back my mind has been made up
"So what are you thinking about" limah said taking a hold of my hand
"It's nothing for you to worry about" I said giving her a quick smile while pulling her into my arms.
And she melted into my arms perfectly, knowing that's were she belongs.
"I'm never letting you go" I said to her hugging her tightly
"Me too" I heard her whisper
And that assurance was all I needed to hear.
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We were outside Zion's hospital room, I was extremely nervous, other voices could be heard from inside the room. But only zion and limah would be able to see me.
"Xavier are you sure about this" limah said to me.
"Yeah I am"
"Ok here we go" she said squeezing my hand while giving me a small smile.
Limah knocked gently at the door and pushed it open.
"Oh hey Limah" Zion mum said
"Hello" Limah walked towards her giving her a tight hug.
"I would be coming later for some other check up okay" the nurse who also inside the room said to Zion before walking out.
And I was left there by the door standing arkwardly not knowing what to do.
I turned towards Zion seeing the horrified and unbelievable look on his face, He was staring right back at me.
I guess he couldn't still believe I was real standing here staring right back at him
If I were to be in his shoes I will definitely freak out too.
"Zion is everything alright" his mom asked him taking a hold of his hand.
"Why are you staring at the door like that" she continued with a baffled look on her face.
Limah turned to look at me with an unknown expression on her face.
"Zion" Limah said sitting beside him on the bed. Giving him a look which screams don't freak out.
"Uh-mm I'm f-ine mum" he said. Stuttering slightly
" I thought I saw something" he added giving his mum a smile.
Which was obviously a fake one.
Everyone in the room could see that.
"Alright if you say so" Zion mum said
"I will be right back" she added walking out the room.
The room was dead silent everyone was too afraid to say the first word.
Or maybe
Non of us knew the right words to say at the moment.
"Xavier" he said in a weak voice breaking the silence.
I tried talking but no words were coming.
It was hard for me all the memories just kept coming. I couldn't do this.
I can't be here I need to leave now.
"Xavier" Limah called out to me this time.
"Please" she added. As if she could read my mind.
She reached out her hands to me.
"Come on" she said.
I walked slowly towards Zion's bed.
And now I was standing in front of him, in front of the same guy, I have hated for years now. But being right in front of him now seeing him with tears dripping down his face.
I guess I didn't hate Him as much as I thought I did.
"Zion" I said his name.
Saying his name again right to his face after years sounded foreign in my tongue.
"I-ho-w i" I struggled not knowing what to say.
"I should probably give you guys some privacy Limah said trying to stand up.
"No" I and Zion said at the same time.
"Don't go" I said.
To be honest Limah presence in the room was the only thing keeping me Sane right now.
With the bottled up emotions inside me if Limah leaves, I would probably explode and I don't want that happening.
"Okay" she whispered.
"How are you feeling" I said to Zion this time trying not to show much emotions but my vioce failed me.
The question came out weaker than I expected.
"I'm okay" I guess Zion replied lowly. With a saddened expression on his face.
What was he pretending to be sad about I thought to myself, Scoffing slightly.
Zion touched my arm and I felt it I guess he felt it too the shock expression was written all over his face.
I guess he testing to see if he could actually touch me.
And Before I could comprehend what was happening Zion forcefully pulled me into his arms hugging me tightly.
I was too stunned to react.
"I'm so sorry Xavier"
"I should have saved you that day "
"I didn't mean to pushed you that hard and you ended up hitting your head and falling into the water, you know I couldn't swim right.
"And I went to look for help but before help came it was already too late, you were no were to be found.
"You know we were inside the woods with no means of electronics I could have called 911" Zion added crying harder
"I'm really sorry, I wish I could turn back in time I would change everything.
"I would be a better brother" Zion continued mumbling all kinda words.
I didn't know when the tears started dropping down my face and I hugged him back tightly.
I didn't know zion would even tried to look for help.
I turned to look at limah and she was crying too.
"It's fine" I whispered to Zion trying to break the hug but he was unwilling to let go.
This was really awkward for me because this was the first time I and Zion are hugging this way. With alot of emotions
The only time we hugged on two occasions was after a fight and Mr occoner always forced us to wrap it up with a hug.
"Hey you are suffocating me" I said smiling slightly.
"Oh sorry my bad" he replied shyly.
"I didn't mean to" he added.
"It's fine" I said again for the second time.
Was it really fine I thought to myself
all the years of hate and anger I had towards Zion was it really all gone just like that.
"Xavier how are you alive" Zion asked.
"I won't really say alive, being that just you and limah are the only humans who can see me for now" I said turning to look at both of them.
"I know you guys have Alot of questions to ask but I myself don't know the answers" I said sincerely.