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After knowing the truth about his world, Seojin locked himself in his room. He needed time to think about everything. What was the point of exacting his revenge again if his parents' deaths were already scripted? What should he do now?
There was also a chance that the judge was lying to him, but there was too much evidence that was in favour of the judge. The events that happened were different from what happened in his past life. The doctor and Ji-a didn't seem to be lying to him.
These days, Seojin slept a lot, trying to sleep his worries away. Waking up from his sleep, Seojin massaged his tired eyes. Suddenly, he noticed a little red notebook on his desk. He hadn't noticed it since there were too many books on the desk. It might give him some clues about the life he was living before he lost his memories.
He flipped the pages and suddenly remembered that he had the habit of carrying a small diary. It helped him during hard times when he missed his parents.
I miss my parents so much. Why are my aunt and uncle being so mean to me? Aren't we supposed to be family?
Seojin remembered that time when he lived in his relative's house. They always ordered him around to do housework. He knew that they weren't happy that he was temporarily living with them.
My uncle and the relatives who plotted my parents' death were sentenced to prison. I'm deeply grateful for what the judge has done for me. I also apologize for doubting him when he was trying to help me.
Seojin ruffled his hair, a bit annoyed. It seemed like the judge was really someone else. Maybe he shouldn't have lashed out at him. The male lead continued flipping the diary's pages.
I had a wet dream about the judge. I realized that I have feelings for him. When I see him with somebody else, it makes me jealous.
Seojin gasped in horror. He reread that line and realized that the kid had fallen in love with Valentin. Was that why his arm hesitated when he wanted to smash the judge's head with the flower vase? He just can't imagine why he liked Valentin. That man seemed cold and ruthless. He admits that the judge is handsome, but there was nothing attractive in Seojin's eyes.
I shared my first kiss with Valentin today. It was better than I had imagined. His lips are so soft. I hope we can kiss again.
The male lead spat out the water that he was drinking. What was he thinking? Why did he kiss such a manly guy instead of getting a girlfriend? He wanted to cry. The judge knows about their kiss, but he didn't remember anything.
The other notes in his diary were all about how he wanted to kiss Valentin again. The kid had also written his worries about his relationship with Valentin. He was afraid that Valentin might get tired of him. The most recent notes were filled with the kid's horny thoughts. He wanted to touch the judge and kiss him until his legs melted.
Seojin held his face, trying to hide the blush on his cheeks and his ears. It was unexpected for him to have such desires for someone else. How could he be so horny? He never thought he would become someone who grew weird because of love. He couldn't understand why he fell for the judge. Sure, he was the one who helped him when he needed help the most, but he wouldn't have liked someone just because of that.
To get more answers, Seojin binge-watched the dating show 'Hot Singles'. It was weird to see himself being smitten by Valentin. It was obvious how his gaze always followed Valentin. He wasn't even interested in the other pretty women. Seeing himself leave the island hand in hand with Valentin, he noticed how happy he looked. He has never been like that after his parents' death. Was the judge his healer, or was it a trap set by him?
After resting in his room for all week, Seojin finally had the energy to go downstairs to eat. Valentin was cooking breakfast, wearing a cute apron. Seojin sat at the table and stared at the judge. He would have never imagined that the judge could cook. Normally, rich people don't cook for themselves.
"Help yourself," Valentin said as he put the fried eggs, bread and soya milk on the table.
"Thank you," Seojin murmured awkwardly as he munched on the food. It was surprisingly good. Since he started his revenge, he never had a proper, healthy meal. Without money, he could only eat whatever there was at the convenience store.
"Did you think things through?" Valentin asked. He hoped that the male lead wouldn't put so much pressure on himself. He should just rest until he regains his memories.
"Yeah, I think so. Don't worry, I won't kill you since you didn't get involved in my parents' deaths," Seojin reassured him.
"Were you and I in a relationship before I lost my memories?" Seojin added shyly.
"No," Valentin replied. How did Seojin know about that?
Annoyingly, Seojin's heart sank. He was disappointed to hear that answer. He had never felt something like that before. It was as if he were yearning for the judge's affection.
"Can I try to kiss you?" Seojin asked. He was curious about the kiss the kid wrote in his diary. How would it feel?
"What?" Valentin asked, taken aback.
"Didn't we kiss before? Maybe it could help me regain my memories," Seojin lied. He only wanted to satisfy his curiosity.
"Fine," Valentin shrugged. There was nothing wrong with trying it. It sounded reasonable to him. It was not like they hadn't done it before.
As soon as Valentin agreed, Seojin grabbed his waist and lifted him onto the table. The male lead grabbed his thighs and pushed them apart to get closer.
"Wait, the table might crumble because of my weight," Valentin said worriedly.
Seojin laughed and grabbed his chin, approaching his lips to his. It was unexpectedly soft and slightly sweet. Seojin inhaled on the judge's fresh scent and pushed his tongue inside his mouth. Valentin panted as the kiss deepened. The male lead still hasn't gotten rid of his habit of not letting his partner breathe when they kiss.
"Yummy," Seojin said as he wiped his lips with his finger. He never imagined that kissing someone would be that enjoyable. It was funny how the judge's lips were already swollen. Had his lips never been kissed before? They should train more together to grow his tolerance.
Seojin grabbed Valentin's head, ruffled through his soft hair and deepened the kiss. His other hand trailed down and groped the man's thigh. Valentin flinched at the sudden, unfamiliar touch. The kid was getting bolder each time they were getting intimate.
The male lead bit on the man's plump lips hungrily. He was making up for all the years he had been single. Noticing that the judge was out of breath, Seojin turned his attention to the man's muscular chest. He was curious to know if they were as soft as the kid described them in his diary.
He lowered his head and ruffled his face into the man's chest. Even through the black suit, he could feel the softness of his chest. He wondered what it would look like without the clothes on.
"What are you doing?" Valentin asked. He had a bad feeling about this. Why did the kid stop kissing him?
Seojin stuck out his tongue, exactly where Valentin's nipple was. He licked the soft chest through the fabric, leaving a trail of saliva on the suit. Twirling his tongue around the judge's nipple, Seojin gazed at him, trying to see his reaction.
With all the clothes on, Valentin didn't feel anything. But an electric shock ran down his spine as he stared into Seojin's deep blue eyes. He could see his insatiable hunger and obsession. He felt like prey in his eyes.
"We should stop here for today," Valentin said, trying to get out of Seojin's embrace. If they were going to continue, he was afraid of what was going to happen. He would be eaten alive by the male lead.
Seojin pouted. His twinkling eyes were begging for more. Ignoring his pitiful expression, Valentin readjusted his suit. As if the magic had broken, Seojin quickly came back to his senses.
'That was dangerous,' he thought. If Valentin didn't stop him, he couldn't imagine what he would've done. He must have been craving for love all this time. Seojin's cheeks blushed in embarrassment. He couldn't believe he did that to a man. It was as if he were an animal in heat.
Seojin coughed, trying to break the awkward silence.
"Can you take me to see my uncle? I have unfinished business with him," Seojin suddenly said seriously.