The sea water is glowing under the moonlight like crystal.Waves after wave crashes against the shore.The gentle sea breeze is like a soothing hum that can make people forget about their stress.
The beach is completely empty and quiet.The only sound that can be heard is of waves.
To anyone else this scene might seem peaceful and likeable .But to me,this peaceful isn't enough to calm the storm going inside me.
I take a sip from the nearly empty whiskey bottle and my throat burns from the alcohol.But sadly it's nothing compared to my pain.
I have been sitting here for hours now.Still in the funarel clothes,the withered white flower still pinned to my shirt.
The bear and whiskey bottles beside me are the answer to my drunken state.But what else should i do?
This dull ache just isn't going away.
I look ahead at the calm scenery and chuckle sadly.
This same scenery..mom loved this.She used to love the sea so much.
So darn much that she built a house here just for us away from my monster of a father.So that,i didn't have to suffer.
So that we could live happily like she had always wanted.But now that she is gone,what am i supposed to do?
How am i supposed to be happy?
Memories of childhood flash in front of my eyes,when i was a kid.Mom used to bring me here.
She taught me so many of my firsts here in this beach,in the mansion behind me.
Tear's blurr my eyes at the memory and i close my eyes.
I didn't even get to do anything for her yet.
I didn't even get to show her that her son is all grown up and independent now.Just one more year till graduation yet she left early.
She had so many planes for my graduation day.
So many plans,so many wishes,all destroyed.
Just because of an accident.
I get up on my unsteady feet's and look at the mansion behind me.The same mansion tha i used to call home.
The white and the golden architecture of the mansion glows in the dark night.The mansion is so grand,big and beautiful that people are in awe everything they see it.
My mom designed this personally.I have spent 10 years here.But yet,this mansion seems so unfamiliar right now.
I don't know if i will ever be able to call it home again.
Home was mom.
Not this mansion.
Suddenly,from the corner of my eyes i notice movement and turn around towards the sea.
My vision is blurry but behind the rock's in the water,i can see something like a figure.
Wait.
A figure?
Who is it..?
I frown and walk ahead,trying to make tout the figure and it does clear a bit.And when it does,i am left shocked.
Short Brown hair,a beautiful white floral dress-her all time favourite and a scarf.
"M-mom?"The words leave my lips as i stare at the figure with wide eyes.Her back is facing me but i can tell that it's mom.
How?
How is this possible?
Was i dreaming till now?
No it can't be,i buried her with my own hands.I held her lifeless body in my arms.She left me.
Or..
Or am i dreaming Now?
Tears burn my eyes as i start walking towards the rock,my heart beating wildly in my heart.
At this moment,nothing else matter's.
Ghost.
Human.
Spirit.
Hallucination.
Nothing.
As long as i get to see her again.Hug her again.I will accept it.
Water crashes against my feet as i walk into the water,not caring about it.
However,just when i reach the rock's and my hand shoots out to touch her,my feet slip's and the next thing i know is the world is filled with water.
The figure disappears as water invades my vision,pulling me away from seeing her for the last time.
My eyes widen as i choke on water and my mouth and nose are filled with it.I try to move my hands and legs,try to get to the surface but my legs and hands feel too heavy to move.
As if something very heavy is tied to my limbs.My chest starts burning with the lack of air and my lungs tremble with suffocation.
My consciousness starts to slip away as the world starts getting dark and heavy.
Shit,is this how i am going to die?
I didn't even get to see her.
I was so close to her.
Please.
One last time.
Even if i die,i want to hug her one last time.
My eyes burn unshed tears and water and finally they start closing with regret.
The world is suddenly plunged into darkness as the water pulls me down.
Darkness.
Endless darkness everywhere.
And then,a melody echo's far away.
Soft,enchanting and alluring.
Slowly and gradually the melody comes closer,the voice is utterly beautiful and comforting as a pair of hands wrap around me.
"What happened to you?Why is your soul drowning in sorrow?"A beautiful voice whispers and i frown,trying to fight against my consciousness and stay awake.
"Give yourself another chance.Forgive the yesterday and embrace the tomorrow.Live."
A sharp pain goes through my nape and my eyes snap open with much difficulties.
My heart skips a beat as a pair of glowing bluish pink eyes meet mine.The blue is soft yet strong with a hint of pink in the between.And sparks that adore those eyes as if the whole galaxy is residing in those two orbs.Those eyes are so beautiful and surreal that for a second i think that i am dead.
But then,the glowing eyes come closer."Live."
And everything goes dark.