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Chapter 33 - A poison in my soul

I never thought longing from someone you loved could be that worst,

As the space between the two of you was speeding divert

You can feel their presence through different places and goes along with different faces,

Oh, I got haze and confused

But I swear I'm trying to find my focus

Fazing myself to think about us fondly

But as soon as the smell of perfume scattered through the room,

I searched my eyes every corner

Trying to find you here, but knowing that you are there,

I felt solitary in this crowded room

Dancing, dancing pretty so alone

'Til someone's reaches me a hand and I shouldn't have accepted a stranger's hand

But I swear we were just trying to have fun

Not until his voice speaks gently

Leading me into the warmth breeze of familiarity

And I sensed your presence here

Can you please be here and be near

He is such an act of service like you do and it made so irresponsible with you

I hate to feel this way

Seeking your presence with his grace

Staring at him glitched with your face

He got piqued my curiousity and now I'm fucked up

Of this dynamite feelings

Coz' it was so dearly-dire, but so unknown

I thought it would never be too late

I thought it isn't that immoral to feel this way

'Coz right now I feel shamelessly happy

I know, I shouldn't have traced his body through my gaze

And now I'm bathing through the blaze

Thinking about him with your presence in a million ways

Oh oh oh, this is not so me,

Because I'm now the shameful me

Every time I look into the mirror; I couldn't recognised me,

Because right now it's hard for me to understand the truth

Now my heart is not beating to its usual rythym

I just let myself become burst at the seams

I swear you wont believe if I were to speak up the truth,

Because I'm no longer me now

I'm so selfish, bitchy and worthless,

But you're an angel with a gentle hand,

Every time I made mistakes you still rained me chances,

You are too good and I'm no longer worth to be with you

As I lost my sanity, I don't wanna wreck you uncountably

So I wanted to apologised with you sincerely

Pardon me for I cannot make things the way you did to me

I don't even wish you to forgive me

As I don't deserve to still keep you beside me

I'm sorry, I'm sorry

I'm so sorry for ruining the dream you had fight for us

I'm so sorry for ruining us.

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