However, before Koji died inside of the 'dream' he woke up.
'What the fuck was that!?'
His chest heaved, oscillating up and down faster than ever; sweat casted his forehead, and he could feel a burning sensation deep inside his stomach.
'That felt too real, way too real!'
Sweat fell down his pale forehead like a waterfall; Koji was still utterly shaken from such an experience
'Calm down... It's not like it was real! It really was just a dream!'
However, his fists clenched in knowing contrast.
'When has there ever been a dream with su-such realistic images, and how do I remember all of it!?'
He could clearly picture Ivory's disgusting, warped face that resembled a zombie.
'I-Ivory... That is not her fate is it? No, I don't have the power to see peoples fate, what am I thinking? God damn, I don't know--I can't, why? Why can't I know?!'
The dream was not the most troubling thing for Koji; the most troubling aspect was his unknowing.
'Fuck! Fuck! Come on, there has to be some clue to what it was!'
He was becoming sick and tired of these so called dreams--not once did he ever find out what any of them entailed or why they existed.
'Something... Maybe there is a clue deep down in my own soul--something I haven't been able to discover.'
'There has to be, something can't exist without reason can it? There must be a logical explanation for it! No... There can be, and I know there can. Logic is something that binds simple things--take the earth for example; the laws of the universe govern it completely. How could you apply logic to a dream, well especially a dream where I'm in a completely different world!?'
'This is to frustrating, ignorance is not bliss, and it shall never be considered as such! Knowing, yes--knowing, being aware is the ultimate goal! I need to find out what these dreams mean, and stop ignoring them as if they are a simple insect on a sidewalk!'
However, this brought Koji to a new thought.
'Knowing, understanding--yes, this is true bliss! For the more you know, the more you bare; if one can be at peace under such a big weight.... Well, maybe I shall consider them great, and this is the only way I may become great too, and the only way to exhibit true peace and happiness; it is to seek knowledge--bare the weight of all of it, for if you are only happy under ignorance, it is simply a false idea of peace.'
'I've denied wanting to make an impact on the world, I've tried to convince myself, and even believed--I truly believed it was enough; it was enough to sit and wallow in my ignorance, and say I am equal to others! No, even I cannot escape this superficial urge to be great! I admit, I am a complete contradiction! Once I become great, and once I rise above, there shall be no worries. Only through becoming a creator may the waves crashing into each other finally calm.'
'After all, I am nothing but human. Yes, we are all so equal in that regard--however, we are so unequal in other aspects of our nature.'
'Truly, and the most painful thing one must accept; the only thing that is equal for all--yes, for all is the urge to be at peace! One may say it is death that is equal for all, but that is nothing but pessimistic folly! Death may be the end for everyone, but some lived their life better than others--yes, they were happier and more at peace than others. Truly, this is the only measurement of greatness!'
However, Koji's mind underwent another shift in topic.
'Suffering, maybe.... Really? Maybe, just maybe I must suffer to not suffer...'
'No! What am I thinking--suffering is but a rock in the way of reaching my goal! Suffering is not a helper, and I shall not seek it like a lunatic; though, should I accept suffering as it is? No, the journey must be worth the end! Though, one may say knowledge is suffering--no! It isn't at all! Your reaction to knowledge is anything but out of your own control. However, physical suffering is truly demonic; never will I accept such a thing. However, to experience physical joy, one must be able to experience physical suffering is what one may say--false! Utterly false such a statement is, because once I rise to the top, who will cause me physical pain? Tell me you pessimistic fools, who will do anything to me!?'
'Maybe it is me who is the lunatic; I am the one who is unrealistic, and talking of my ignorance when I am still such. However, I believe this now--I shall follow through with it!'
He begun to laugh at this, and forgot the horrifying experience he just had.
In fact, he could not stop laughing! Maybe he truly was a lunatic, however he did not care.
'What am I even doing? I am still so weak yet I talk as if my success in this world is guaranteed! Oh truly, I am the funniest guy ever!'
Yet even as he laughed at himself, he did not deny his own thoughts--he fully embraced his delusional confidence in himself.
'I talk of not being sure, I talk of not indulging in arrogance! No, I am arrogant--no, that is not enough to explain it. Yes, I am the most arrogant person in this world! No one is delusional like me, oh even as I say delusional I do not believe that; for I believe, no it's like I know I will succeed!'
If someone had ever stated something like this to Koji, he may call them a fool; or make a random quote about how wise men would do the opposite of them, because they are simply a fool.
But Koji did not want to be a wise man; he wanted to be great!
After all, what was a wise man to a great man? No, what was a wise man to a fool?
The fool and the great man laugh upon seeing the wise man!