59. "HERE COMES TROUBLE"
It's been almost a month since we last talked, she blocked me and cut me off but as soon as I saw her today, I couldn't stop myself from talking to her and she tried giving me a cold shoulder but the soft spot is still there, so here comes trouble.
I know that I left a bad taste on her tongue, she took a risk and devoted herself to me but I did her wrong. I kept her waiting, knowing damn well that I'll never give her what she needs and I probably should leave her at peace because I still have the same issues but I can't seem to stay away from her, even though I bring her trouble.
The first night, we almost stayed up through the night just talking, it was almost midnight when we stopped talking and from that night on, she was falling for me day after day but I was just too caught up in my bad habits and couldn't believe in her well intentions.
She probably holds resentment for me, I could hear the attitude in her tone when I was trying to talk to her but she couldn't keep it up as soon as I came closer, so here comes trouble..
60. "FIND SOMETHING OR SOMEBODY"
Have you ever found yourself in a long quest, looking for something or somebody that's gonna become your rescue? To a point where you start believing in anything that gives you a little bit of hope, they say love is blind but it's really the heart that is blind, especially when you've got a void that you desperately wanna fill up.
I don't know how to keep it player anymore, I try to keep myself out of the streets, I got a few girls that still waste my time only when they're lonely and I can't say I don't entertain that shit but I've been looking for something, somebody to rescue me from my own demons and lead me to my fresh start.
Never thought I'd lose interest in the game but most of these girls bring shovels to my dying heart and they offer darkness to my lost soul, so I guess what I'm looking for might never be found.
Have you ever been in a phase where you just wanna be loved, chosen and poured into? No matter how much is going on in your head, you're obsessively chasing this idea of being loved, to the point where you don't even tell the difference between the one and just ordinary girls.