16. "WE"
I've been lurking on her posts, I try to stay away but I always end up starring at her pretty face and she's been showing it off a lot lately. She looks so good and grown, just the woman I always knew she'd become.
This feeling in my chest makes me wanna call her and talk to her for hours but that's not the life we're living anymore, she's somebody else's now, as much as I hate to admit that shit, it's true.
I wish I could see her one more time, breath the same air with her, I wish I could feel her aura once again, I wish I could feel the fire that her spirit made my soul feel, damn..
I say things I don't mean when I'm upset but I don't think I wanna stop loving her, I don't think I wanna stop seeing her in my dreams, as much as the absence kills me, I rather keep her in my heart and live with this for the rest of my life because it's the best thing I've ever had.
17. "THAT'S MY FIRST LOVE"
She's wearing the necklace that I bought her two years ago in every picture, I guess it fits everything she puts on or does she keeps it as a sentimental that connects her to me? We're oceans away but that's my first love.
It may seem like I'm turning her into a distant memory and sometimes it may feel like I'm faking it but that's just my blind love trying to fuck with my brain, I understand the reality we're living in and maybe this is the best way I could handle this pain.
She's wearing the same necklace I bought her two years ago, I guess it fits everything she puts on or does she keeps it as a sentiment that keeps her connected to me in someway? We're not in each other's lives but that's my first love.
18. "BACK TRACKING"
Sometimes I get sentimental, I get all in my head and forget the things that I've said I won't do, then I break the progress and run back to step one but I'll keep running with my best foot forward because this race is far from over.
Sometimes it's like we're circling around the same thing, we're both to blame when it comes to how long we've been tryna move because just last night, we shared a nice moment and called me a sweet name.
Sometimes she gets to me and I tracked back all the progress, I'm sorry, it's just that I get sentimental sometimes 'cause I still have a soft spot for her.
Seems like this will never end..