I wonder if I could really become just like him. Why am I getting reported on crimes and whatnot?
I simply wanted to be like him and ensure people who have abanonded me have given me the same pain that others have. Having [borderline disorganization] isn't fun. While I am extremely impulsive.
I am always alone and whatnot. The emotional pain I get whenever someone rejects or abandon me is a lot. The ORV—Bible is brutal and full of gore. It's a world where survival is needed.
Perhaps I should of tried to tone myself down more if I wasn't stuck in literal insanity all the time. This world just wants to be eliminated it seems. I have been touched way too much in such inappropriate ways.
It's not like anyone could ever understand the pain of being assaulted at least 85 times.