In the chapter the author thought of giving an insight of Vol 2
A LOST SHEEP SEEKING HIS SHEPHERD
I might be mistaking depression for growth, but what's really the difference... Skip.
What really is an ending?
If something ends in your favor? I'm not even talking about a happy one... What is an ending overall?
"We shouldn't end things like this..." How should we end things then? By becoming friends and slowly becoming distant? More and more of a red flag whenever I talk to you. Your words not mine... Let me not FINISH this.
How have I managed finishing everything else, seen myself finish everything but this piece of writing... Seen myself finishing everything but this career thing and 'US'
I think this is unfinished, I think we are UNFINISHED.... Skip
Skipping everything because I feel like I'm lacking nothing. I keep talking about love, but His love. I won't take you in circles, I'm talking about the FATHER.
I feel like we all know what we should be doing and we are doing nothing about it. Money should be for survival but it has a higher impact than that. We are lost, not to talk for others, I am lost. I seek salvation but damned cause I'm in this world. Don't get me wrong, it's a beautiful place to be in, I'm just in the wrong.
With little experience and I feel like Nsikayesizwe David Junior Ngcobo, "life feeling like killing time."
Usually scared to talk to my peers because I fear I might change their perspective on life. Scared they may become hopeless and ... Let me stop.
Just answer me this...
Everyone who knows you keep saying you know God. Is it true?...
I want to be vulnerable and open for a moment, can I trust you?...
I know He's there, will you pass Him the phone if I call you?...
This is not fair, why is there no longer a connection between us like He Has with you?...
He used to be my friend that One, a friend of many seasons...
But then He left, or maybe I left. I don't know what happened, I don't know the reasons...
I used to know the verses, the stories, the light...
I could hold someone's hand and find the right bible words to get them through the night...
Now look at me, I feel like I don't know Him anymore, I feel empty...
Ever since I or He Left, I have been lost, my soul has been dusty...
It happened so fast...
And it hurts...
It hurts so much to feel this far away from my God...
I feel so cold...
If I were to die now as I sin…
O It would be the saddest thing....
To finally see the Face I've been longing for, the kings' King...
and have Him deny me saying "I used to know you, where have you been?"😭...
So please, my friend.
Don't just tell me God is real. I know that.
Tell me how to find my way back to the friendship...
Help me find my way back, I am a lost sheep, looking for my Shepard and I'm sure he's looking for me too. Rumor has it he left my brothers and sisters in search of me. Tell me that's more than a rumor...
Tell me how to remember His voice, my soul is homesick for His Heart I had been friends with...
I just want to know Him again as much as I can...
Not just know OF Him. No! I am putting in this effort and I hope it won't be in vain...
This is a humble request from an imperfect soul. Able Sinyangwe and Scort Mwendabayi 🙏