-The author thought of a 'volume 2' where he gives more insight and below is an elaboration...I see history repeating it self... We truly are our parents children. Let it sink in, suspire and take your time while reliving this third persons life as I break down their' perspective and them being conflicted. "those who fail to learn from history are doomed to repeat it" 'George Santayana' once said. I'm telling you today, I see history repeating it self, for we truly are our parents children. I truly am my father's son and I truly believe his blood runs through these bulge veins of mine because I can say screw everything for I act like a screw up at times, not that he his one, but I can perpendicularly stand on this ground like a debater, mute the crowds noise in my head and the haters, chest high chin up like a Life saver. And tell you how bad and how unholy I'm craving you and mess everything up. Screw being the outcast and peaceful, putting your emotions and mental health first... Screw being the change I want to see, sacrificing my happiness and hurting you while I do it. Not texting you "I miss you" because I know you might text it back and wreck everything, every reason to why we are not together any more and shutter your dreams or thoughts of moving on and making all the pain we endured be groundless with no growth. Screw the mistakes, being mature and letting you be at peace without me in your life... Let me make my parents mistakes... I sound cold a bit, but let me pull my socks up and break the ice, let you know that I could have done all this but I chose to be, but not to be. My love would seem like that of a pretender, but we both know that's just a defence mechanism on your end to not see that if I stayed I wouldn't have been any tender even though I am, and I always told myself "please don't hurt her"....Forget the latter, I don't want to use the word 'letter' not because this is more of a poem, but I just want to halt being a procrastinator, so I'm telling you everything right away. What I'm trying to say is simple, you aren't obliged to have 3 heads, even if your neurons frequency at 3 hertz you can sympathize with me, if not treat this like a song, give it 3 years and let it marinate. I'm telling you I saw my parents in us so I took 3 steps backwards and never looked back because who among us want what our parents have? But it's a lot of people like you and I whose eyes are being opened, at least you get to read this, but what about the 4th person who never gets to comprehend what we possess... Thus, I see history repeating it self...You know I'm writing this with you in mind, proving that whenever you asked me 'what's on my mind' and I said 'you' I was never lying...
