As much as I tried to avoid the tension which her presence brought to the room, her eyes filled up with pain at every moment, a pain which I never thought would ever exist in Beatrice's eyes, she killed me at that moment, she turned my own sister, she made her weak, fragile, she took away the heart which I had grown to love about her. She gave me a new sister that day, she gave me the affection which I hadn't once thought I would ever ask for, yet I couldn't see it at that time, it was all I ever wanted to witness from her.
I hugged Beatrice that night, I hugged her so much that her tears froze up, the pain she felt would soon be lost in time, her beautiful short brunette hair covered my whole face, it refreshed my heart so much that I picked her up and made her sit on my lap, she obliged to everything I wanted too, with no utter of words, just a sense of tears shared between the two of us, we held each other so closely that for a second we seemed to have been in oneness with each other, I could feel her breathing, as slowly as she could, trying to keep her cool and control her tears, all I could manage to tell was, "Let everything out Trice, I'm here for you, take your time".
After a second she stopped weeping and looked at me, her eyes looked brightly at me, as red as they were, there was a sparkle in them, she looked deep in my eyes and smiled, even though pain ruled her heart at that moment, I saw happiness in that smile, I saw hope in her, I saw the love which I had yearned for years in her. " I'll never forget this", I said, she gave me a little laugh afterwards. It was the most beautiful experience vie ever had.
We fell asleep after that. As much as I tried to keep my eyes shut, my wandering mind did not let me, as I fell deeper into my own thoughts, the more relaxed I was, I fell so deeply into my head that I didn't have the chance to see my mother who had been staring at Beatrice and I for the past several hours. She had her usual grey silk long night dress on, she leaned on to the doorstep so hard it started making noises, little cringe sounds to be exact. That was when I was able to snap out of the hallucinations I was having in my head, I looked at her staring right at me.
She smiled, a little soft, side smile, she was beautiful, even her messy hair seemed to compliment her in this light. Having no make up on did wonders to her skin, no blotches, no wrinkles, just a beautiful glowing face. For a second I had this ridiculous idea that it might have been pregnancy glow, but then mother had always been a devoted widow, there wasn't even an inch of a chance that she would be pregnant. Yes she looked flawless, jaw dropping to be honest.
She whispered three little words to me, " I love you", as soft as they were, I could feel the intensity of her love knocking on the door to my heart. It filled me with joy in an instant. She walked away right after saying that, in a graceful, sleepy and punctual manner, as her hand kept touch with every wall which she came across, gripping onto it at every step she took going closer to her room, until she faded into the dark and I could not make any picture of her anymore.
Right than at that moment, my eyes shut themselves and a deep sleep arrived to my doorstep, as heavily armed as it was, the simple darkness gave me comfort until I became unaware of my own surroundings and went straight to dreamland again. With a smile on my face and a little teardrop from my left eye. Quite concerning really, only pain ever causes such acts from the left eye. Which is why my mind finds it weird for my eyes to react so. But deep sleep struck so suddenly that I wasn't able to think nor understand the reasoning behind it.
The morning after was at most one which had aspect of beauty you could ever think of, perfect of weathers all around. The most perfect sunshine to ever grace us on this earth, pity I couldn't enjoy any of it,...
The moment the sunlight graced my eyes a shadow befell them, gracing them with the presence of darkness once again. As stunned as I was, I took a moment to embrace the darkness once again, I had spent almost four hours in its presence already, as I simply enjoyed it….., Beatrice my little sister of course kept a grave stare on me, as if I had stolen something of great value from her prior, she gave me the stink eye for almost five minutes before choosing to tell me of her behavior so early in the morning.
Mother had asked her to call for me. With a serious face at hand and even worse, her moodiness was over the roof, not to mention the constant simple glances she kept giving me. ' she was scaring the heck out of me, even for her this was too weird'.