SIPS"
How many more sips will it take until she gets off my mind, how many more sips will it take for my stop seeing visions of us making love? All I see her face when she was on top of me, all I hear is our kissing sounds, her hands around my face, her scent on my clothes and pillows, I don't mind taking opening another cider, I just wanna take sips until she's off my mind.
Just a few hours ago, she was running her fingers through my hair, looking into my eyes, that shit sent me down to my knees, had me right in front of the angels of love, begging for this love between us to blossom and grow, last forever.
Fuck I need more sips because this heart of mine is aching. I'll keep on taking sips until I forget everything that happened on this bed, I'll keep on taking sips until I stop wishing for a rewind & repeat.
These thoughts steal my sleep away from me, I am scared to close my eyes because all I see is her beautiful face, when I lay on the pillows I inhale her sweet scent and it sends me back to the moment when she wrapped her arms around me, just to give me plenty kiss before she leaves and fuck! I can't get it off my brain, I need more sips.
How the fuck do you love me and then leave me? I never needed closure, all I needed was to be with the girl of my dreams for the rest of my life, how's that too much to ask for?
Sips.
"EMOTIONS"
I know you're gonna blame me for every problem, always seems like I'm the only one fucked up one in this relationship, you said I've gotta work on some stuff and I don't deny it but everybody got their own imperfections.
The beginning of March was the beginning of our end, all those late nights and long days, we would waste arguing and fighting about stuff that don't matter, I tried choosing us over my demons but I failed and then you made a choice to end our love on the 28th, exactly on our anniversary date. I wouldn't take a chance on love if I knew that loving somebody would bring me so much pain, I wouldn't trust you with my love if I knew that it wouldn't mean a thing to you one day.
Even though I was never the best, I was never ready to lose the love that we had and from the moment you decided that it's over between us, I throw myself to many things, hoping it'll save me from my heartache.
I know you're gonna blame me for every problem, always seems like I'm the only one fucked up one in this relationship, you said I've gotta work on some stuff and I don't deny it but everybody got their own imperfections.
"NO NEED TO"
There's no need to fight about the past when we could focus on the future, there's no need to turn the love nest into a boxing ring and there's no need to bring anybody into a relationship that's for two people. I hear and see my peers fucking up the meaning of love out there but I just wanna be able to hold my baby in my arms and make her the happiest, the most loved and cared for girl in the world.
You really don't know what you have until you live without it, there's no need to fight over little shit that could be easily resolved with a "I was wrong, I'm sorry", because there is no pride and ego when it comes to love, or maybe I'm just a different type of a nigga.
There's no need to get even, there's no need to be careless and reckless about the girl that makes you feel like the luckiest man in the world, why can't we simply talk about an error and learn from it? We keep chasing "more" when we got just enough, that ain't what loving a person is to me, maybe I just believe in love differently.
There's a lot of shit that I wish I had known when I fell in love but we're here now..