Today I had a good school day, although the night was not good. After realizing that Hexael was manipulating my head, I decided to be more careful about what I do that's evil.
So I made a small mental note about what is bad, what is very bad, and what is obvious manipulation, and I decided to avoid doing what is extremely evil, and so some things are on this list.
First is killing, I must not kill anyone unless it is one of the traitors among the magical girls who will harm my sister, they are a necessity, I cannot leave them alive or my sister will suffer greatly.
But I must not let this be a manipulation of Hexael, I must do this for my sister, not because a demon wants to.
However, apart from them, I must not kill anyone, I must avoid being as evil as the demon wants, because I'm sure he has things planned for me and it may not be good.
The second thing is permanent consequences, doing something that would permanently hurt someone's body is bad, very bad, and I must avoid it. Knocking the bucket on that girl's head was an exaggeration and maybe I should apologize to redeem part of the mistake.
I know that certain things are inevitable and at some point I will have to do great evil for the demon's favors, but I must minimize as much as possible what I do that is evil.
I will try to think like my sister would think and also think about what would make my sister annoyed, bothered or uncomfortable. If I use my sister's feelings as a measure, I will know how extreme something is or not so extreme.
I should not measure an act with my scarce feelings, I should measure it with the feelings of someone altruistic and empathetic.
What I think I can do to pay the demon are small evils, mainly verbal bullying, instead of physical bullying, I think this way I can reduce the demon's influence in my life.
I can also make an extra effort hunting monsters as payment, even though it doesn't have as much value, if I defeat many monsters it should serve.
What I fear most is not being corrupted by the demon, what I really fear is that it will affect my sister, that I will become something terrible before I notice and when I notice it will be too late.
Hexael did not appear in class or during the break, so I decided to just spend the day studying and during the breaks I talked to Ayane to increase our friendship.
We had simple conversations, nothing too much or grandiose, just things about school like good places to rest at school, or what's good in the cafeteria.
It's not really a topic that interests me, but Ayane seemed happy to teach me these things, so I happily accepted to talk to her. I think Ayane feels the need for friendships.
Probably because she no longer has a brother, she must feel very lonely and have a great need for friendships, of course I don't want to take advantage of her loneliness, that would be wrong of me.
So I let her go talk to other girls and she tried to make more friends while I quietly did some things in my notebook.
Many don't approach me at school, either because they think I'm unreachable because of things like beauty or because I don't talk much, or simply because they don't care about me.
Which is not bad, if I have to talk to people I just have to pretend to be normal, which is not so easy to pretend, especially among the girls who are very talkative.
As a man, other men don't care as much if you're quiet and don't interact much, they just understand, but among women, if you stay silent they see you as a stranger and stop talking about themselves.
And after class, at the time to go home, I guided Ayane to her house. On the way back, Ayane talked about her diary, she said she's starting a diary to talk about her day-to-day life.
I just praised the idea, but I didn't try to go into details, first because she wouldn't talk about what she writes in the diary since, although she's an enthusiastic and talkative girl, she's still good at keeping secrets.
And second because I don't have good memories of diaries, honestly just having read the first diary was scary enough for me, I don't want to invade her privacy with her new diary.
I will make sure to make her life perfect so that her new diary only has good memories written on most of the pages, unfortunately the fact that she talked about the diary means one thing.
She feels lonely, more than I would like, because she felt the need to talk about the diary just to have a subject to talk about and keep the conversation going, something she didn't do in the past since in the past she kept the diary a total secret.
Although there was something that put a smile on my face, she said she was excited to fill the diary with happy memories, while in the old diary it was as if it was to write her sadness.
A striking contrast, and I won't let her happy diary turn into a diary of sadness, I must protect her current happiness.
Of course, there was another thing that warmed my heart, she asked me if I had bundled up well at night because it was quite cold, I couldn't say that I was cold at night, I just said I had warmed up well.
When in fact the night was terrible, it was extremely cold and maybe the idea of wearing wet clothes was terrible, but looking better now there were better options.
But it's more like I was punishing myself for having failed once with my sister, so seeing it that way, having been cold wasn't so bad.
That's why as soon as Ayane arrived at her house, I went to a building to wait for her to leave, I'm sure she'll go somewhere, she seemed pretty excited and I have to ensure her safety.
So I'm ready to wait as long as necessary, I was on top of the building watching her for hours, until it was around midnight, and I saw that owl pecking at her window.
I may not like the owl, but at least he's polite and not too intrusive, if it were Hexael he would have invaded the room without caring about personal privacy or the like.
After half an hour of the two of them inside the house and me not being able to observe anything because of the curtain, they came out, Ayane was already in her magical girl outfit, so I deduce that the Owl had warned her that no one would remember or notice her.
What was a bit uncomfortable is that the Owl seemed to have noticed me watching, or rather he looked towards where I was before I hid extremely quickly.
Maybe he saw a small glint of the rifle? Or sensed that someone was watching? I don't know, but he didn't seem to say anything to Ayane, so if he saw me, he completely ignored it.
Although the most likely is that he didn't see me, it's nighttime and I hid quickly, I don't know how strong a being like him who is an "Angel" is, but caution is paramount.
I then decided to follow them from further away, using the sniper-style scope to follow them from an extremely long distance, both of them went out together and walked together to some place.
That's why I think he might be taking Ayane to see her team, this again raises the question of whether or not I should reveal myself as a magical girl.
It's certain that that Angel will suspect or say something, and I can get into complications, so it's difficult choices to present myself or not, I have to have a good excuse if I decide to try to join their team.
But one thing is guaranteed, I need to get into that team for various reasons, in addition to protecting my sister, they may have some information about the monsters and the future apocalyptic event.
Because in addition to protecting Ayane, I have to somehow deal with any monsters that arise, to start with why so many of them suddenly appeared and attacked the whole world?
I don't know, this event is obviously not natural, there must be a name and a reason, and I must prepare for that day, we have a few years for that to happen.
It will happen in 4 years, so we have a maximum of 4 years to prepare, it will be on the day of the school graduation.
Since Ayane is 18 years old and I kind of now also have 18 years and the graduation will end with both of us being 21 years old.
Of course, I'm ready to kill myself and go back to the beginning if necessary, if I fail at something I should have done very much in the past, I'm willing to kill myself and go back 4 years in the past just to try again.
No matter how many centuries or even millennia I get stuck, if it's to solve everything and have Ayane's happy ending, I'm willing to endure the mental exhaustion that comes with the endless attempts.
But for now I must focus on the present, this is my first chance and I must take full advantage of it, go back in time only in a true emergency situation.
'So this is it...' I see a strange building, it is located in the center of the city and in the past it seemed like just a normal building, but now that I have powers I can see the truth.
The building in the center of the city is a gigantic building much larger than it seemed, in addition to having black and white tones with a giant colored symbol in the highest area of the building, as well as an equally huge antenna.
It looks like an Idol building or something like that, made to be as eye-catching as possible, probably to attract other magical girls.
It must have at least 120 floors, which puts it among the tallest buildings we have in the entire city, and it has a sign that says [Magical Girls], which in my opinion seems like an insult to the building's design.
But as I think it's to attract attention, it works very well, I just think the person who thought of this aesthetic wasn't very smart in putting such an obvious name and a design that screams "magical girls" and the reason is simple.
If magical girls can easily find the building, monsters should also be able to easily find their base, so it's like a "Super Villain" making a giant completely black and red base in the center of the city with "Secret Hideout" written on it.
But at least the place seems safe, even my Sniper-style rifle can't see through the windows of their base, and it's not a question of the glass being too dark, because as long as it's transparent I think my rifle can see.
At least for now, Ayane will be safe inside there, that makes me less worried.