As we entered the building , we passerby stared at us .
" She is not getting kidnapped," Liam told them .
I just noded behind my palms .
Even though people here seemed too busy with their lives to care about our identity, I didn't want to give them a reason to be suspicious.
Besides I was scared that he was going to drop me any second . It's not easy to carry a whole human being on one shoulder .
Strangely he managed to get us up the stairs back into the my brother's room at the rooftop .
Before he sat on the sofa , he placed me in his arms .
I crossed my arms in defense on my chest ,and warned him ," My brother , he is here ."
" I know . .. I called back and he picked it up ," he told me ," He is in the other room , sleeping on the bed ."
It was his way to point out there was not a real excuse for me to avoid him now .
" You can try to bolt again and I can catch and bring you back ," he said confidently," But I feel bad about chasing around a person who could not use her leg at the first half of the year ."
Why did he have to point that out ?
" Does Mira know you are here with another woman ?," I said , bitterly ," No every woman is stupid like me , Liam . They won't tolerate this behaviour."
" Yeah , not every woman is like you who tries to start a fight in any way they can ."
" Yeah ? Then you can leave , right ? There is a better option outside this room ."
We glared at each other for a while . He took in a deep breath . I could see that he was trying to calm down his anger .
" Leave that , we will start fighting again at this rate ," he finally said," We need to talk. "
The audacity this guy had to think that he could just talk with me normally like this .
" I don't want to talk to you. Infact , how about you take yourself out the door !"
" Julia ," he urged .
" No , don't Julia me, I have no more reason to speak to a traitor and cheater like you ," of all the time I had stayed awake at night for me , for all the time I had suffered for him , came rushing down my mouth , making my voice sharp ," You think that I should just wait for you like a puppy, no matter how many times I leave you , that I will eventually come back ?"
" I never left you !"
* You leave me all the time !"
I finished it .
" Look ," I stared down so I did not have to see the pain in his eyes ," I am still recovering from what father did to me ...now that the whole nation knows about it , I want to still retain some of my dignity . And you doing this ,is not helping me ."
" But you are the one who called me ."
" You know that I was drunk right ? People do stupid things when they are drunk . Next time if I do that , just ignore it ," I sighed ," And let's start talking with the lawyer to finalise our divorce ."
" No ."
" What do you mean by -"
He grabbed the back of my back and pushed me forward. I had to place my hand on his chest to steady myself.
" Liam !"
His blue eyes stared at me like he was going to melt me to ground .
" Push me away , Julia , do it ," He said confidently .
He leaned in and kissed my cheek ," If you can do it then I will listen to whatever you say. "
He was crazy to think that he could still hold me like this after touching another woman . He did not deserve me . I knew that damn well.
But as soon as he brushed my lips with his tongue , my hate was dissolving into longing . I did not have any dignity left when it came to loving him .
I did not resist as he kissed down my neck to my collarbone and then he kissed my lips .
" I hate you ," I said with a trembling voice . But I could not really push him away . My bones ached and my skin tingled when he was their close to me . Everything in me yearned for him . Even knowing what a terrible man he was , I still could not let him go .
I was a liar when I said that I could do it . In reality, I was slowly dying without him .
Tears rolled down my cheeks as we kissed . This reminded me of all the times we had met and acted like strangers , of that other woman touching him.
The thought of Liam kissing someone else like this was driving me crazy . In anger I bit his lip , until I could taste the blood . He groaned but too the punishment without any complaint. Instead he pulled me closer to him .
With our bodies aligned and my heart pressing over his , I felt like I was melting in his skin .
I brushed my fingers over his eyes , his soft earlobes , down his neck so I could remember them when he was gone again.
The thought of him leaving again broke me. I put my head on his shoulder to sob. There was nothing I could do about it , and that helplessness was eating me .
" I hate you Liam Anderson, " I told him again and again . I cursed him and his family. He took all of them silently as he holded me with firm hands but a gentleness that made my heart ache .
" I know that , you can hate me all you want ," he consoled me in a voice like lullaby . He was like a soft dream that would vanish again in sunlight .
A part of me knew how stupid I was being . But I was helpless to the one I had loved .
My tears exhausted me to the point , I could not longer keep my eyes open . But I could still feel his arms wrapped around me like a barricade ,like he was trying to protect me from the sorrors that he , himself had caused .