21. "I THOUGHT I WAS DONE"
I guess we'll never hear the end of this, I guess this is just another flaw that I get to live with because it seems like if I can't have her, I'll keep looking for her in everybody else. Don't even say it, I know I'm a sucker for love but I really thought I was done loving her.
She's got a new guy in her life, she's no longer the 19 years old girl that was head over heels for me but somehow I still feel the same. Everytime she puts up a photo, I fall back into the adoration of her and everytime I hear from her, it still does something to my weak heart.
At this point, I just wanna erase every memory of her but then I get sentimental and take back my wish, it's just not healthy to love somebody this much. It doesn't matter to me if she's been doing better without me, we're both cut from different cloths but, she's the only love I know.
I still got my closest parts reserved for her, including my love, as if she's gonna come back one day. I guess that's what being in love does, it blinds you and leads you out of reality. I really thought I was done loving her.
22. "LONELY BED"
Everybody is talking about the moon in the sky tonight,
As I lay in the middle of my lonely bed,
I've lost love for the things I used to believe in,
I don't even look at the moon.
As I lay in the coldness of my lonely bed,
There's sweet melodies playing in my ear,
I can't imagine what would become of me,
If music wasn't here to help me lay here calmly.
Everything in this room screams her name,
The last time she was here,
She was laying on this bed tiredly,
Felt like the Angels were surrounding this room,
But now that I lay lonely in this bed of thorns,
I feel like the Angels have turned their backs on me.
Why do I have to be without the only person that I love?
The only person that makes me feel complete and happy.
Everybody is living in the moment out there,
I hear happy voices and long conversations,
As I lay in the sorrows of my lonely bed.