'I love you so much... No one could replace you.'
A song I once heard in a bar echoed back into my head as I lay there, watching my lover peacefully sleeping on the white bed.
Even though it was a sorrowful song drenched in tears, my mind clung to just one line that perfectly reflected 'my feelings for GlaiJai.'
That's it...
I love you so much.
I love you so much that no one can compete.
I woke up early because P'Ball called, asking me to join him for breakfast in the dining room. However, last night, GlaiJai and I expended quite a bit of energy. Worried that GlaiJai might feel too tired, I declined by saying I was exhausted from yesterday's swimming and decided to order food to the room instead.
But it seemed that GlaiJai was really tired because even when I talked to P'Ball on the phone, he was still sound asleep, even though GlaiJai was not a sleepyhead at all. I propped myself up with one arm, gazing at the small figure sleeping on his stomach, facing me. My eyes trailed from his gentle face down to his lower half. The thin blanket barely covering his bare body revealed a hint of his round hips peeking out.
Last night, after finishing our activities in bed, we showered and changed clothes again. But once we lay back down on the bed...
The overwhelming love we shared, though partially expressed already, started to overflow again. We ended up expressing our 'love' once more. As a result, GlaiJai and I lay naked on the bed this morning. But the two of us still showed our love only on the outside as usual. I still didn't break my promise to Dad even though GlaiJai's teasing had nearly driven me to the edge.
The sight of his hips peeking out from under the blanket tempted me to gently reach out and touch. Biting my lip, I traced my middle finger lightly from the curve of his hips up along his spine, then back down to his smooth, white shoulder. A soft smile graced GlaiJai's face even with his eyes still closed. Slowly, he scooted closer, nestling his delicate face against my chest. I wrapped one arm around him, holding him close, as his sleepy voice murmured...
"Last night, Puppy kept me up late. And now Puppy's waking me when I'm not even
fully rested yet..."
"..."
"How should Glai punish Puppy?"
I chuckled lightly and bent down to kiss his fluffy head. "Whatever you want, as long as it's your decision, Khun Glai."
"Could I love you less?"
"With a question like that... looks like someone doesn't want to get out of bed."
GlaiJai let out a soft laugh and pressed his lips to my chest. "I'm just teasing..."
"This isn't something you can tease about because Lee is serious."
"Puppy..."
Propping myself up, I gazed at the small figure in my arms. GlaiJai looked up at me, blinking rapidly as if adjusting his focus.
"Yes... what is it?"
"That last time... when Glai did it for Puppy, did you like it?"
I smiled back at him and leaned down to plant a kiss on his lips as an answer. When I pulled back, I confirmed my reply once more.
"Loved it."
GlaiJai smiled and nestled his face back against my chest. His adorable behaviour made me laugh softly in contentment. Tightening my hold around him, I murmured gently...
"..."
"GlaiJai..."
"..."
"For us, just saying 'like' isn't enough."
"..."
"It has to be 'love.'"
Still resting his face against my chest, GlaiJai asked again, "Then can I ask once more?"
"..."
"That last time Glai did it for Puppy... do you love it?"
I laughed fondly before replying, "Love it so much... I've loved it for a long time already."
His soft, satisfied laughter at my answer made me bend down to kiss his messy hair again.
GlaiJai made me realize something...
Why the lyrics...
'Love you so much... No one could replace you.'
Kept replaying in my mind.
It's because GlaiJai is like this...
That I love him so much.
And he completes my life in a way no one else ever could.
🌙🌙🌙
"Panlee..."
"Yes..."
I turned to the sound of his voice as I finished getting dressed. GlaiJai was smiling faintly while swinging his legs on the bathroom counter. I walked over to the slender figure wearing just a pair of shorts.
The reason GlaiJai wasn't wearing a shirt yet was because I'd stopped him. After we showered together, I wanted to dress him again like before, but he was being stubborn and didn't listen. Trying to dress himself instead, so I ended up carrying him to sit on the counter. Now, he had been waiting patiently while I finished getting ready.
"When Glai went to grab a shirt from the closet... Glai saw that Panlee brought a T-shirt too."
"Ah... yes, Lee brought it just in case."
Normally, I like to wear Hawaiian shirts with three-quarter shorts when I go to the beach. Like now, I'm wearing a dark green Hawaiian shirt with white shorts. But I also brought some t-shirts from my own brand because I thought I'd wear them when playing in the water.
GlaiJai bit his lip slightly as he looked at me. "Can Glai wear your Panlee's shirt?"
"..."
"I think the oversized ones would be really comfortable to wear."
Having my wife ask to wear my shirt...
It's the best feeling ever, isn't it?
"Of course, let me grab it for you to choose."
"Alright..."
As soon as I finished speaking, I quickly walked out of the bathroom to grab two t-shirts from the closet for GlaiJai to choose from. I returned with a black one and a white one, holding them up for the small figure sitting on the bathroom counter to see.
"Khun Glai, which one do you want?"
The one being asked tilted his head slightly, as if deeply contemplating. But before long, GlaiJai smiled sweetly, biting his lip a little before pointing his finger to my chest and softly saying...
"This one."
From what I could see, GlaiJai pointed to the middle of my chest. It wasn't on the left side, but my heart on that side started racing anyway. I couldn't help but smile and think...
You're just too good at this...
"If Khun Glai really wants this one... you won't be able to leave the house today."
GlaiJai burst into laughter before pointing at the white shirt instead. "I'll take this one instead."
"You don't want this one anymore?"
The small figure shook his head with a smile and said, "Not anymore... because I still want to go out and take a walk."
I chuckled lightly and helped GlaiJai into the oversized white shirt while he sat there looking so adorable. Once he was dressed, I lifted him off the bathroom counter. I looked at the small figure now wearing the oversized shirt. His black shorts peeked out slightly below the shirt that draped past his hips. At that moment, I started to wonder...
"Maybe we should just order food to eat at home?"
"Why, Puppy?"
"I don't want anyone else to see Khun Glai dressed like this..."
GlaiJai laughed brightly and replied, "Don't be so possessive, Puppy."
The small figure spoke as he stood on tiptoes to increase his height, giving me a quick kiss on the lips before smiling sweetly. His slender hand reached up to gently stroke my cheek before walking out of the bathroom, leaving me standing there sighing to myself.
It feels like GlaiJai is getting more and more charming every day...
And it feels like I can't keep up with him at all.
🌙🌙🌙
"What would you like for lunch, Khun Lee?"
"How about stir-fried squid with salted egg, steamed seabass with lime, fried seabass with fish sauce, and soft-shell crab with curry powder..." I paused and glanced up from the menu to look at my lover sitting across from me. "Khun Glai, do you want to add anything else?"
GlaiJai furrowed his brows while looking at the menu. "No, Puppy, let's just order
this much for now. Otherwise, we won't finish it."
"Alright..." I nodded before turning to Jan, the resort manager. "We'll have this for now, Khun Jan."
"Okay."
But then one of GlaiJai's favorite dishes came to mind. "Khun Glai, don't you want shrimp?"
"I just had some yesterday..." GlaiJai pressed his lips together, seemingly debating, before finally saying, "But I still feel like eating it. Let's get grilled shrimp too."
I nodded and told Jan, "We'll add grilled shrimp, Khun Jan."
"Got it."
"Get the largest size shrimp available."
"Sure."
"Puppy, no need to get the biggest ones. Medium size will do."
I nodded at GlaiJai again before turning to Jan. "Then let's go with whatever my wife says."
"Puppy..."
"Yes... Khun Glai, do you want to add anything else?" I shifted my attention from the manager back to my lover, who had softly called me. At first, I thought GlaiJai might want to order more food, but the light blush on his cheeks made me furrow my brows in thought before breaking into a smile.
The words I'd just said echoed in my head,
'Then let's go with whatever 'my wife' says.'
That line must have embarrassed GlaiJai...
"No, Glai doesn't want to add anything else."
"Alright, Khun Glai..." Khun Jan replied with a smile, seemingly holding back laughter. "Would you like rice served in a bowl or on plates?"
"Plates will do, Khun Jan."
"Alright..." Khun Jan noted the order on her tablet before asking, "And what would you like to drink?"
"Glai will have water. What about you, Puppy?"
I cleared my throat lightly, suppressing a cheeky thought that crossed my mind. If it were just the two of us, I'd probably say, 'Puppy wants GlaiJai's water.' But since I have manners and respect my lover, I know when to say what.
"Puppy will have plain water too."
"Alright, Khun Lee."
"..."
"Please wait a moment for the food. I've already sent the menu to the kitchen."
"Alright."
As Khun Jan walked away, GlaiJai pointed a finger at me, narrowing his eyes suspiciously. I burst out laughing at his cute expression.
"What's up, little rascal?"
"Just now, Panlee was thinking something dirty, wasn't you? ...Glai knows."
"..." I couldn't even come up with an excuse because I really was thinking something dirty, just like GlaiJai said.
"Puppy..."
"Puppy apologizes," I said, laughing.
GlaiJai didn't say anything further, just scrunched his nose at me and smiled. While waiting for the food, GlaiJai and I chatted playfully as lovers do until the dishes were served and filled the table. We took our time enjoying lunch together, then went for a walk along the beach until the afternoon before heading back to the villa.
As we sat in front of the villa, I pulled out my phone to call P'Fah to ask about the afternoon's activities. But before I could, P'Dom approached us, prompting me to hang up.
"What's up with you two? Disappeared all day."
I smirked and replied, "Someone with a girlfriend like you should know exactly what's up."
"Don't tell me..."
"Not yet, P'Dom," GlaiJai quickly responded.
P'Dom tried to stifle a grin as he looked at his blushing younger sibling, whose face had turned red all the way to his ears. Then he said,
"Well... I was just coming to say everyone's gathering in front of Fah's house to play volleyball."
"I was just about to call P'Fah to ask about the plans for the afternoon."
"Ah..."
"Glai and I will join shortly."
"Alright..." P'Dom nodded, then looked at GlaiJai. "I'll head there with Babe first, okay? You can come later with Panlee."
"Okay, P'Dom," GlaiJai said, smiling warmly.
"I'm off. Babe's waiting."
I nodded and watched P'Dom walk back to his house before turning to glance at the person beside me. GlaiJai stood up and flashed me his usual sweet smile.
Honestly...
I love that smile of his so much.
It's a smile that soothes my heart every time.
"Let's go, Puppy."
"Alright."
And GlaiJai, who always comforts me...
🌙🌙🌙
In the afternoon, I joined the volleyball game with the others, having a great time. GlaiJai, Teerak, and P'Babe cheered us on from the sidelines. I played on the same team as P'Fah, P'Dom, and a few others, and since our team was full of skilled players, we secured an easy win.
After the game, everyone gathered for dinner in front of P'Fah's house and hung out until the evening before heading back to their own houses. When we returned, GlaiJai immediately went for a shower. Of course, I asked to join him, as always, and GlaiJai never could resist my playful requests.
Now, the two of us were sitting together in the bathtub. I was seated behind the smaller figure, leaning down to kiss his soft shoulder and wrapping my arms around him. GlaiJai leaned back against me, resting his head on my shoulder. I nuzzled the top of his head before speaking.
"We should go on trips together more often."
GlaiJai, scooping up bubbles with both hands, chuckled softly but didn't reply. I wasn't offended, though, because I knew he felt the same.
"Puppy..."
"Yes..."
"When Glai was cheering Puppy during volleyball, Glai overheard P'Babe telling Teerak that... if Teerak ever worried about P'Fah being with someone else, Teerak should ignore him often. If they lay together, Teerak should always turn his back to
him."
"..."
"They said it'd make men like that anxious, afraid their partner doesn't love them anymore." GlaiJai spoke playfully, fiddling with the bubbles.
"..."
"At first, Glai thought about using that trick on Panlee tonight..." GlaiJai paused to laugh softly before continuing, "But then, after thinking it through, Glai realized it probably wouldn't work because Glai already sleeps with my back to Panlee."
"..."
"If Glai did it again tonight, Panlee wouldn't notice anything. You'd just hug Glai like always."
I chuckled at GlaiJai's little story and said, "It's too bad you can't use P'Babe's trick on me, huh?"
The small figure stopped playing with the bubbles and turned to look at me, smiling.
"Then, if Glai is scared Panlee would be with someone else... what should Glai do?"
I smirked knowingly and replied, "The truth is... you're not scared I'd be with someone else."
"..."
"You just want to know how to make me love you even more."
GlaiJai smiled, locking eyes with me before asking, "So, what should Glai do, Puppy, to make you love Glai even more?"
"Someone as capable as you... probably doesn't need to ask me."
GlaiJai laughed brightly before turning back to focus on the white bubbles in front of him. I tightened my arms around him, pressing my nose against his damp temple.
"Puppy..."
"Yes..."
"While we were eating earlier, I think Teerak looked... off."
"..."
"Teerak seemed... uncomfortable sitting, and it looked like he was in pain every time he moved."
I burst out laughing at his observation before replying, "If I'm honest, last night that Saggy Cheek probably got it rough from P'Fah. That's why he's so sore today."
"..."
"The moment I saw P'Fah buying condoms at the supermarket, I knew Teerak was going to have a rough night. And, well, I was right."
I glanced at GlaiJai, whose cheeks had turned a soft pink while playing with the bubbles. The one who started the topic was now the one blushing. GlaiJai stared down at the white bubbles and muttered softly, as if speaking only to himself,
"These two brothers... they're so strong. If Teerak is sore like that, what chance do I have?"
"..."
"Looks like I'd better prepare myself."
I laughed again at his adorably endearing comment, leaning in to press a kiss on his soft cheek with an audible.
Smooch~
"At first... it always hurts," I said.
GlaiJai tilted his head to look at me. "So I'll need to prepare myself mentally too, right?"
"Yes... but I promise I'll try to make it hurt as little as possible."
"..."
"I'll take care of you the best I can, GlaiJai."
GlaiJai looked into my eyes, then said, "But I think... no matter what, it's going to hurt
"..."
"But I also want to thank Panlee for trying so hard for me... thank you."
He leaned in to plant a kiss on my lips, then took a deep breath and said,
"..."
"I'll fight through it!"
His adorable determination made me laugh with joy. I held him tightly and kissed him deeply before pulling back to pepper his lips with small kisses. As always, he let me kiss him to my heart's content.
Kiss...
Kiss...
"I love you, Puppy."
"And Puppy loves you, Khun Glai."
Puppy can only belong to one person...
And that person has to be GlaiJai.
🌙🌙🌙
This morning, I took GlaiJai to have breakfast with everyone in the dining room. Even though we arrived last, we still managed to join the table in time. After breakfast, everyone returned to their houses to pack up for the trip home. It didn't take long for GlaiJai and me to finish packing since, as usual, I carried everything. GlaiJai's only job was to lock the door.
"All done..."
I gave him a small nod. "Let's go."
"Alright..."
We walked out of the cream-colored house. I glanced at the other seniors who were ahead of us, heading towards the parking lot at the back of the resort. However, I didn't see the newlyweds, P'Fah and Teerak. They were probably still packing and would join us later.
I turned my gaze from the sandy beach to the person beside me. GlaiJai, who had been watching me silently for who knows how long, smiled softly. I returned the smile, thinking to myself...
For the two of us,
Everything will remain just as it is.
Everything will continue just like this...
...forever... unchanged.