My wife, Noriko, is taking a shower in the bathroom. She's 165cm tall, slim, and has a face resembling Yuki Saito.
While that may seem like a good thing, she's honestly just average.
When I imagine the slender, busty wives I see around town, I always think...
We've been married for 20 years, and although we get along well, I find myself no longer seeing her as a woman.
They say it's the same in every family, but as a man, I still crave women.
Every night, I'd sleep alone, browsing porn sites, but it was a source of enjoyment for me.
I have two children, Mana, 18, and Akihiro, 15. Both are preparing
for high school entrance exams. Akihiro has finally come to terms with his situation and begun studying.
I imagine his friends are starting to study as well.
I've been saving for tuition, but we still need more.
My oldest child, in particular, wants to go to vocational school. Thinking about money is a headache.
I want to send my daughter to a beauty school that specializes in visual appeal, but being old-fashioned, I don't really trust vocational schools.
The thought of spending money on such a place... I'm not exactly wealthy, but I don't want to let my wife live a life that would make her feel poor.
A year ago, I bought my wife a car, albeit a compact one.
We're able to live a decent life.
We still have a mortgage on our house, but having one for each of us in a two-car garage somehow makes us seem like we're respected husbands to outsiders. We
bought our own home when our children were in elementary school, and it felt like we were finally becoming adults.
Apartments may be the norm these days, but we still live in a single-family home. I
don't want to show off to the outside world. It's not something I can
afford to show off to the outside world.
I just want to gradually improve my standard of living.
That's what I feel as I get older.
It was March.
My company decided to open a new branch in Kitakyushu, and I was assigned to work there half the week, Wednesday through Friday, as the acting branch manager.
It takes just under an hour by train from Fukuoka City to Kitakyushu, and considering the commute from my house to the station, it takes nearly two hours. And with limited transportation funds, I decided to spend half the week living in an apartment in Kitakyushu registered with my company.
I considered commuting by car, but since the stay is only for six months, living there wouldn't be a bad option. I
never expected to be working away from home at this age... but it was a chance for me to get promoted. Although I'm not particularly career-driven, I probably fantasized about myself as a hero, saving our family from financial hardship.
Above all, it was only planned for six months. Perhaps I was actually happy to be living alone at this age.
I also thought in the back of my mind that I could enjoy nightlife.
My children were no longer old enough to require much parental attention, and each lived at their own pace.
Akihiro, a high-school student preparing for entrance exams, always came home around midnight, and spent most of his time holed up in his room.
Mana, like my wife, is very attentive to the housework. It would probably be fine even if I wasn't home alone half the week.
With that thought in mind, I browsed porn sites again today.
I found myself excited by the busty girl on the screen.
My wife's bust is a C cup, not small, but when she lies on her back, it almost disappears.
I'd love to fondle the breasts of a girl with such large breasts.
I felt depressed again, thinking about my disgusting reality no matter how objectively I looked at it.
A month later, I was splitting my time between home and the company dormitory, spending half a week at home.
Although it was a dormitory, it was actually a small apartment rented under the company's name. I
would take the train to Kitakyushu early on Wednesday morning, park my car in the station parking lot, go directly to work, and then return to my apartment.
On weekends off, I made it a habit to return to my home in Fukuoka.
The day before, on Friday night, I would park my car at the station and return to my home in Fukuoka City.
At first, the commute was quite a hassle, but once I got used to it, it wasn't such a big deal, and most importantly, I enjoyed my job as assistant branch manager.
By the second week, I had a PC setup in my rented apartment.
Since the room already had a refrigerator and microwave, I didn't need to bring anything special except a TV.
I had thought I could do without a PC for about six months, but when I had nothing to do at night, I quickly brought one from home.
Soon after moving in, I signed up with a provider and immediately connected to the internet.
Here, too, I spent time browsing pornographic sites.
In the third week, I finally called a delivery health girl. It's something I would never be able to do if my family was around.
This was a rare opportunity. I was going to enjoy it.
Having been a husband and father for so long, I felt nervous about showing my male side. I thought
I should at least have some fun at a time like this.
About two months passed like this.