Found in a shoebox under Cas's bed. Dated but never delivered.
Letter 1Day after your birthday.
Evren,
I watched you laugh today like the world wasn't on fire. And I thought, maybe I'm just the only one burning.
I wanted to tell you happy birthday. I wanted to hold your hand when they sang. I wanted to kiss the frosting off your lip and pretend we were normal. But I froze. Like always.
There's a version of me that's brave. He lives in these letters. I wish I could bring him to life. Maybe then you'd stay.
— Cas
Letter 2One week after their fight.
I shouldn't have said that. I didn't mean any of it. I was scared and cornered and I saw how your eyes changed when I raised my voice. That look you gave me—like you didn't recognize me—haunts me.
I hate myself a little more each time I replay it.
If you're wondering if I still love you… I do. I just didn't know how to love myself yet. And that ruined everything.
— Cas
Letter 3The night Evren left.
I waited by the bus stop for two hours after you were gone.
You didn't even leave a note. And maybe that's fair. Maybe you're tired of my words that never made it past the tip of my tongue.
I deserved the silence.
I keep thinking, if I'd just run after you—
But I didn't. I let the love of my life disappear with nothing but the echo of goodbye.
I'm so sorry.
— Cas
Letter 4Never dated. The last one.
I hope you're alive.
Not just breathing—but living. Painting in the sun, lying in grass, smiling at strangers. I hope someone makes you tea and listens to your silence the way I once tried to.
If we never meet again in this life…I'll find you in the next.
Love always,Cas