Jamie no! The car violently swerved to the right and over the cliff, everything got dim and hazy I mustered some strength to shake my brother hoping he was okay then everything went dark again.
I came to in a hospital room and sat up since I was in an uncomfortable position,but I regreted that decision instantly my entire system echoed with excruciating pain. I steeled myself to look around, I saw a familiar face. It was nurse Lydia I knew then that I was in my mother's hospital. Nurse Lydia looked at with eyes full of pity and sorrow.
Nurse Lydia Owusu was a black beautiful woman in her late twenties,she has been working at my mom's hospital since I could remember so her look worried me.
I stretched my hand towards her's but I immediately felt a sharp pain in my lungs and side . I coughed out blood with my face twisting in agony.
I turned my head downward to where it hurt the most. I saw a deep cut running downwards from my left thoracic side,I asked why wasn't being treated. She said my mother sternly warned all personnel in the hospital not to treat me until she gave permission . What about my brother?! I asked. She seemed puzzled here I was with a bunch of my ribs sticking out and the rest piercing my lungs and I ask of someone else.
Your brother is fine,all the surgeons are in his room. All of them ,why is he in worse shape than I am ? Nurse Lydia didn't answer but stormed out of the room in tears. I felt sleepy as she left so I closed my eyes , I reopened them only to see my body, was I dead? l just couldn't believe or understand I died on a hospital bed in my own mother's hospital how is that possible.Naah,maybe its a special case where my body is in coma but my spirit is projected,yeah that should be it. I hovered around and decided to go to my brother's room,after moving for a while I found it and everybody was present.
Mom,Dad,Lil Sis and even my girlfriend Anna.Nurse Lydia was present and begging my mother to give permission for her to start treatment because I was in danger and could die at any moment .My mother slapped her and told her to not talk about me the devil who hurt his son in her presence and also added that until I apologize for harming Jamie I will not receive treatment. Nurse Lydia answered saying,"Jamie only had a cut on his thigh and broke his leg but Jason's lungs have been pierced by his ribs and has a deep cut in the chest region, please let me start something even dressing the wound might help." My mother angrily shouted back,"you dare talk back to me, security please take this woman downstairs she needs to cool off ."
Security accompanied her out and immediately she left they started mocking her saying things like I'm probably fine and just paid her to act like that to draw attention and escape giving an apology, my girlfriend chirped in that she probably likes me and hopes doing me a favour will give her a chance with me . I chuckled thinking she was jelous but she added,"those two scumbags deserve each other".My chest got tighter from what I heard, my mother added poor Anna you are only with him because you fear what he might do to you and your family when you break up, well don't worry you've always liked Jamie and as far as a mother's intuition goes he likes you too so when he wakes I will coaxe him to ask you out you can date him and we will protect you from Jason.
Oh yeah I now remember,my family hates me . It all started when I was three my mom was pregnant with Jamie I accidentally bumped into her on the stairs while running down. She took a pretty bad fall down the stairs and got hurt, after she got better and returned from the hospital she blamed me for trying to kill her son and ever since then everything bad had been blamed on me.
Jamie grew bullying me when given the chance and knew everything bad he did would automatically be placed on my head so he developed a twisted personality acting like an angel Infront of others but cruel under charade. He'd break things,take stuff without permission and get into fights and blame it all on me and every single time they believed why would thier angel lie ,of course it was the devil ,it was me .
Jamie woke up while they were talking and went straight into acting,"mom,dad,sis,Anna, sorry for making all of you worry where is Jason ." Our mother in tears said you see how caring he is,even on a hospital bed he asks of the brother who always harms him even before he was born." Catherine our little sister went to hug him saying how much she was worried. The entire room became cheerful and full of warmth while I layed coldly in a different room. I couldn't bear it anymore so I left and went back to my room only to find nurse Lydia wailing as a white cloth covered my body from head to toe, my heart sank,my chest tighted as I realised that I was dead the whole time. I remembered everything my so called family said about me and then something just snapped,I died in the woman who was supposed to be my mother's own hospital unattended to.
Rage, I sped through the walls right into Jamie's room and punched him but I fazed right through him. I turned to my family in pure anger and frustrating shouting you let me die!You let me die right here! Why!? Why!? Whyyyyy!? I don't know when it started but I was muttering to myself, "I'll kill you all " . Over and over again until it was the only thing I said while squeezing my body together. I continued cursing at them during their whole say at the hospital till I lost track of time.But deep down, deep down the only thing I truly wanted was to miss my presence and come find me , I wanted them to know what happened and mourn.But that never happened. My anger only intensified as the minutes turned to hours and then to days, I had completely lost track of time while swallowed by my own rage. The world had no colour no sound no life anymore.
The only thing I could think of was the hatred for them and how I wholeheartedly wanted them to suffer fates far worse than death.
After Jamie was released and went home the mockery and bad mouthing still lasted . Nurse Lydia at her own risk made them cremate me . I looked at her and my raging fury started shrinking I had always looked at her but not actually seen her, her gentle demeanor, her sweet smile and her seriousness to things she regarded to be of importance. I reached out for her but my had could only pass beyond. The only thing I could do was watch as she cried for someone who even didn't see her till the accident.
I was looking while suddenly my mother hit away the cylinder with my remains onto the ground. Ashes poured onto the damp soil from the rain earlier. I turned my head in disbelief looking at her asking for a reason,all I wanted to know was why she hated me so much. "Who gave you permission to cremate my son " ,my so called mother furiously asked. "I has been more than 6 months, if you cared even in the slightest he still wouldn't be here, just let me do this for him!!!" Lydia yelled out . It was the first time I had seen her show anger.
My mother pleased with herself asked if that was me, pointing to the cylinder on the floor,she said,"nobody touch that cylinder just let it lie there. That's what filth like him deserves ". My anger spiralled out of control, if anyone could see how I was looking then they would have been terrified for the rest of their lives. Lydia walked slowly to my remains and gently scooped up the ash , bit by bit. My mother perplexed said ," if you don't pour it back out consider yo...". Lydia cut in before she could finish saying," it's ok I quit ". She walked away with my remains and that was the last I saw of her.
I turned to look at the woman who I thought of as my mother for all my life and my rage only intensified, the world started losing its flow again and this time it was faster and more black. I wanted to tear her apart but I couldn't.
I stayed in the hospital for what felt like an eternity in an endless loop of reminiscing and cursing till one day a voice called out for me.