JUDE
Something I have come to realize is that, when everything is a little blurry, when you feel like you are floating even though you are still on your feet, then it doesn't hurt as much.
Then all the thoughts mute and fade into the background, and nothing matters anymore, except for what you want to be the main focus.
Wine does that the best. And my main focus right now? Music.
Loud, heavy, and sensual.
I am down one bottle of wine, all by myself, and I have plugged in my AirPods, jumping on the bed as I dance, turning around in a way that makes me almost queasy, but the floaty feeling is there, and it gets more intense, so I am keeping at it.
And I am feeling good.
My eyes are closed, as I take the last drop of the wine, kinda sad about it, but happy when I remember I have another bottle on my dresser, all for me. God, I love being an idol. You get free expensive gifts.
