JUDE
If I were a girl, none of this shit would be happening. He would be touching me like he already does, and people would just know. Now all they see is two bros, and it is killing me a little inside.
I love him so much, but I am scared. I cannot tell him, because what would he do? I know he will keep off the girls; he already does. He doesn't even give them time, be it that I am around or not.
But this is the reality, and telling him that reality is kicking my ass is only going to make him feel miserable.
I can manage this. Or at least I will try because losing him is not something I ever want to think about. At least right now. I do know that our time is limited. There is a clock somewhere for us, ticking and running out.
So to linger on the sadness when I can just enjoy time as much as I have with him, kiss him, love him, and let him love me … it's all I can do.
One day, I won't have him. So why not just … be?
"We are here."
