I'm tired, I need to sit down, those memories are consuming my energy, I still can't believe at one point or the other I considered him as a friend, a really close one to. I remember the times I've spent having really long comfortable conversations with him when I couldn't sleep at night, he was a good listener, heard what I had to say about my likes, dislikes, food, friends, family even my crushes, he gave me good advice when I asked him to, we had fun talking for hours and hours _mostly I was talking_ I can't lie I really loved those nights, I fucking did.
I saw him like once maybe twice after that morning outside my window, I'll usually see him from a distance, like in the mall smoking or driving his bike down the street from my house, never said Hi! or anything.
When one afternoon, I went to go get pads from a nearby store when I saw him with a baby boy on his shoulders across the street, the baby was a new born at the time, a really cute fat baby, he was adorable I could've easily had a heart attack when seeing his big smile as he pulled on Tim's hair with his small little hands, grabbing a fistful of dark black hair, if it wasn't for my motherly instinct to kick Tim in the shin for keeping the baby outside with only a diaper and a pair of socks when it's freezing in here, I rushed to him, didn't care about the car honking at me as I almost got crashed, I grabbed the baby and maybe some of Tim's hair too, cause I saw him scratch his head, I hugged the baby as I tucked him in my cardigan, seeing the rosy flush on his cheeks and forehead didn't effect me as much as the little aatchooo that came out of the baby, his little nose was red, I got so pissed of at Tim, when I turned to look at him, he looked confused and surprised by my actions, I didn't care to explain before I say,
" Take off your jacket,"
As expected he looked more confused but he did so, I pulled the baby closer to my chest, still covering him with my cardigan as I put the jacket to fully warm him as he looked sicker, I glared at Tim as he pointed to a red house not really far from where we were, I walked faster as he followed, we got to the house as he opened the door with his key.
I never considered my self stupid, but the fact that I rushed into a big house with the creepy stranger I meet recently _Tim_ is making me doubt my intelligence levels looking back at it, but what can I say, there was a baby involved and I needed to take care of him, so I just took the shoes off as I looked around to see a huge blanket on the couch, I put a cushion under him and the blanket on top of him as I pulled my phone to google, how to take care of a sick baby, as I made my way to the kitchen to make granny Gigi 's soup recipe which is apparently a hidden treasure, after I made sure the baby was safe, I had already begun to cook when he walked in saying:
" Please, count yourself at home," I know it's rude to use someone's kitchen without asking but he's in the wrong here," Oh, I'm sorry I didn't ask, I was worried about your baby having a fever because you're so ignorant that you couldn't put on some clothes on him in this cold weather ," I said it without looking him in the eye, it took him a minute before he held up my chin making me face him as he says," Sorry, It's not my baby, the dad is a friend of mine, he dropped him off a block from where you saw us, the baby was already like that when I got him, I just thought I'll put on some of the clothes he left here last time I baby-sat him when I get home, it didn't occur to he will catch a cold just because of a five minutes walk, I'm sorry beautiful," ....Yeah , maybe the situation isn't as bad as I thought it was, his friend is the one in the wrong here but why the hell do I feel embarrassed and a little guilty when I look into his browns, I guess he saw my face soften as he smiles saying," I 've never seen you being this feisty before, it kinda suits you not gonna lie," as soon as I felt heat rushing to my cheeks I pulled out of his grip, acting as if I wasn't effected by what he said stirring the pot, I heard him chuckle a bit before he said,
" cute....the way you look like you want to explode because you're regretting screaming at me before, now that you know it's not my fault, but at the exact same time you can't bring yourself to apologize to me, is very cute, one might even say adorable,"
Damn, he knew what I was feeling before I did," How would you know?" I ask
" Your body and face shows it, it also shows that your soup is almost burning," he says hinting to the pot on the stove, I quickly closed the stove as I put the hot soup in a bowl, I stare at the remaining piece of veggies I had previously put in, glued to the bottom of the pot," Would you look at that? It's already burned," he says looking over my shoulder to see the pot as he whispered in my ear .
" It's not burned..... That's how the recipe says it should be," I pout covering my ear with my hand.
" Oh, sorry , I didn't know that, well you see, I thought it was burned because it looks like coal, nevermind if it's in the recipe, after all you're the better cook here," he says whispering to my other ear, so I cover it with my hand as he took pot from the counter and started scraping the black residues into the trach as he scoff saying:" As if! that... stuff... isn't edible, I'll order pizza,"
" I was making it for the baby, he needs medicine,"
" The only thing that ... stuff...you cooked is gonna do to the poor baby is giving him excessive diarrhea, and don't even consider the water of that...stuff...it looks like something I 'll find in a public bathroom in a deserted gas station on a highway,"
Brutal.