I don't know how long has it been since I started living in this body. Wandering for thousands of years...I lost count. But ironically the memories of how I died in my past life are still as clear as a day.
It was deep in the night just like ordinary nights—maybe something less ordinary for other people, I had my usual panic attacks. I remember the desperation I felt while I was trying to reach out a bottle of my medicine on the side table while I squeeze my chest trying to suppress the excruciating pain. The beads of sweat that drenched my white nightgown, the deep breaths that seems to grow deeper in between. Usually, my medicine is something within my reach but for some reason no matter how I stretched my hand the more it's becoming unreachable. As my body slammed itself from the bed into the tiled floors, I knew I reached my end.
When I woke up I'm in the body of a pale woman with unusually long silver hair and blood red eyes. I look like a monster,a beautiful one. For some reason, I don't have any memories of the body but I remembered its name— Estah.
In the middle of destroyed barren land where I woke up is where my new life started. I learned to quench my thirst in a river and hunt my food in the forest. I also learned how to use magic as if it was programmed into my system. In my constant fight to survive in this unjust world, It took me a hundred years to realize that my life has no end. That's right! I cannot die—a painful and depressing realization.
I have traveled for thousands of years. I traveled through kingdoms like they are inns, there is a kingdom that made me their patron with a religion built solely to worshipped me. I became powerful enough to make these infinite number of years less tormenting.
But today, I reached my real destination.
To the Archaum Kingdom, the kingdom where Prince Avelle Vietri Archaumbault is. The Male led to the novel I once read in my past life.
The only person who can break my curse.
The novel titled "Roses and Thorns" was a story about the Empress' Lady-in-waiting named Seilla Aviour, a Count's Daughter who is obsessed with roses, and a tyrannical Prince who fell for her naiveness but since the Empress whose not the Prince's biological mother is the main villain and Seilla was her royal servant their love story became a series of twist and turns. It was a well-written novel, page-turning but still wholesome. Even I thought it was very intriguing considering I tend to ignored most of the details. Have I known that I will suddenly get transmigrated into this world, I should have done better. Ahh~ My regrets.
If you're gonna ask me what's my role in this story then I can't confidently say it's life-changing. I was a side character who barely had any appearances in the novel. Someone who was secretly loving the Prince behind the scenes and one day before the ending I was just announced dead by the narrator without even a single detail of how I died. But since Estah was only a side character I chose to ignore it.
Though that's where my regret is coming from right now.
The readers said it was a good ending for her. Well, without the context I can also say the same. Estah is someone who longed for death her whole life, every second of her life was tormenting for her, not until she met Prince Avelle who she started to love secretly. Seeing someone you love get his happy ending and finally reaching your long-awaited solace, it's bittersweet but a beautiful ending.
Not long after, the author decided to give her, her own side story. Unfortunately, I was too busy being a model student and reaching my parent's sky-high expectations as an only child. I never had extra time for myself to enjoy reading such things. The only reason I decided to somehow skim into this particular novel is that the author herself — which is also my classmate told me she looked up to me so much that she's willing to reveal her identity just to get my opinion about her book. I still cannot fathom how I became involved in this difficult situation because reincarnation and such is the last thing I would put in my list of beliefs.
"THE WHITE MAIDEN HAS ARRIVED!" The knights shouted as they ran back and forth while the palace was thrown in to a total chaos upon my arrival. I mean I understand a legendary woman whose basically a God herself arrived without notice and that any refusal can throw the whole kingdom into the pit of hell but what's the fuss? I mean at least I don't bite.
As the door to the throne room slowly reveal the image of the Emperor sitting inside, I grinned. I can already feel the pent up anger and malice seeping through the door but I couldn't careless, being hated is a part of human life so ignore all the red flags and started barging inside.
In the middle of that room, is where the person with the highest authority in this nation sat. The moment our eyes met...
"ARIES! I MISS YOU!" I happily greeted as I spread my arms to welcome him. Aries Cladiou Archaumbault, the current Emperor of the Archaum Empire, that person more than anyone else is expecting my arrival since that certain event that happened 25 years ago.
Suddenly, A ball of magic came rushing in front of me. I can feel that it's not an ordinary compressed magic but an advance magic that can even kill a dragon, I can feel that he did put his all into that attack. Ah, so this is how you're planning to welcome me huh? I smiled as I reach my hand in front of me and the ball of magic disappeared into thin air.
"I came here as promised...I came to marry your son"
That's right! The only way I can figure out how to break my curse is to be as close as possibe to Prince Avelle. And the only way I can do that to a distant, dangerous and wildly cautious person like him is to be his wife.
Call me a garbage all you want but I'm not some certain soft woman who would prioritize the plot more than my well-being. I will find out the way to the heart of the tyrannical Prince...
And survive.