Cypress' POV
Fuck
I instantly clutch my throbbing head.
Why does my head hurt so bad?
Is there someone splitting my brain apart?
Why does this hurt so fucking much?
Shit.
"I-i didn't do it."
despite the ringing pain in my head, My tightly closed eyes flashed open and my head snap up.
.
Rhian?
What...
Why?
Damn, am i dreaming?
Or shit, Is this fucking heaven?
It must be.
.
If not, Why would i see Rhian standing on the foot of the bed with her fair hands tightly clutching the sheets to cover her body?
I can still remember seeing her crying and hysterically calling for my name when my comatosed body is undergoing euthanasia. She was still beautiful when messed up but this is a different type of messed up.
I was ready to wake up in hell but I didn't expect to wake up to THIS.
Rhian's hair is deshiveled. As if she just rolled on the bed, Or was rolled on the bed. Her make up is smudged in a telltail trail of tears and sweat and her pair of rose red lips were sensually swollen.
My eyes can't help drifting lower.
Her slender neck and shoulders, the top part of her mounds left uncovered, they were full of round red bruises and even bitemarks...
Oh shit...
Both of my heads started waking up...
If this is heaven, thank you for the expectacular meal, dude.
"I-i know that you won't believe me anyway but i really didn't do it."
Huh?
The desperation on her voice and on her eyes made me frown a little.
this is probably a dream since I should be dead already but Why does this scene seem familiar?
I was suppose to take the sheets off of me to try and pacify her but i discovered that i was also naked underneath.
Oh! And when i moved, i felt my side hurt. I look at it and saw a huge bruise.
Shit.
No.
Impossible.
I look at her state again then mine
Are you serious?
I don't know if I'm suppose to be happy or what right now..
Fuck you man...
.
If you give me a chance to go back in time, pls take me back to the time before i did all those shits! Why the fuck now?!
'Her' eyes shifted but she continued to hold the trembling of her body and just like before,
She tried to hide the fear and stared back at me with her eyes determined.
I remember when I'm currently at now. She's currently telling me that she didn't seduce me last night.
And as i did before, i was also the one who broke it off.
But unlike the disgust and disbelief that I can vividly remember I did before, my heart filled with apology and devastation.
"Rhian..." My arms tried to reach for her but I had to stop abruptly.
Rhian close her eyes tightly and her shoulders crouch in a defense. Understandable since I'm fucking sure I already blurted out 'How could you do this to me?! Are you so fucking desperate that you resorted on seducing me?!' before I got reborn or whatever shit I'm experiencing now.
My heart and my temple throb and memories of the past came rushing back to my brain. And I'm telling you. There's nothing beautiful in it.
In this time, my wife, Rhian and I were already married for 2 years.
She used to be a rising and upcoming high end model from a not so rich but fairly respectable background.
Being the womanizing bastard I was, I made a move on this gorgeous woman and made her my 4th girlfriend by that time. Yes, I was that type of douchebag.
I've been duping her for 3 weeks already when for some reason my grandparents found out and for some reason pushed me to marry her.
That time I was sure it was a set up. I was mad as hell but grandpa and grandma is grandpa and grandma. I'm a bastard but one with filial piety to the people that raised and took care of me.
After marriage, I ignored her, openly showed despise and even show off ongoing affairs.
I was aware that Rhian faced criticism and humiliation from the people around us but I didn't care. i used to think, it served her right and it was her choice anyway.
And of all days, I actually came back to this fucking day.
I look at Rhian again. Her disheveled state and shaking eyes shoot daggers right thru my heart.
Why do I hate this night?
Last fucking night was also the night I did the unthinkable.
That was the night when I was facing a big problem on the company, drunk myself pissed, beat up a couple of lying ass 'friends' then saw a beautiful woman in my bed and ...
The bitemarks on her shoulders and the crimson marks all over her pierce my eyes.
When I woke up that fucking day, How could I even thought that Rhian seduced me?!
I'm worse than a fucking beast!!!
Shit.
I sigh and clutch my aching head.
Fucking bastard.
3 months after this night, Rhian will finally give up on this fucking shit and leave me. She hate me to the point she hired a courier service to deliver the divorce papers just so she don't have to look at my cheating sexual assaulting face.
At that time, I just smirked and my thoughts about her social climbing was strengthened. I automatically assumed that she finally divorced me because she thinks I will loose the company. It was after another 2 months that I already became a drifting ghost watching over her watching over the comatosed me did my brain worked.
Last night was surely the last straw for her.
And looking at her shaking right now, I had to make my brain work double time on how to fix this fucking situation.
"I... I-i didn't really do it... I-i didn't seduce you..."
Everything washed off my mind when pearl like drops started falling down her eyes.
For the 2 years I've been with Rhian, I never saw her cry. I found out I didn't because I always walk away from her before she even have a chance to tell me or show me how she feels. When I finally saw it, I already don't have the ability to wipe her tears or wrap her in my embrace to comfort her.
Tears continue dripping down her eyes and her hands clutch the blanket around her tighter.
Fuck!
I almost jumped off the bed. My body automatically did what I've always wanted to do for the past 5 years I was looking at her crying beside me.
I can feel her stiffen inside my embrace but I just hugged her tighter.
"Hush. I know you didn't. I'm sorry..." My right hand was shaking when I raise them to gently carress her hair.
Thinking that she must also cried this way after I left her with a disdainful look that day in the past fill my heart with dread.
I know this move startled her or the abrupt change of attitude will make her confused but I can't keep myself off even a second anymore.
I've been meaning to correct my mistakes and give her the whole world for 5 long and agonizing fucking years.
Now that I was given another chance to talk to her, hold her, feel her warmth, the 5 years of longing overflows.
I kiss the top of her head and continued carressing her to calm her taut nerves. She's still stone stiff in my arms.
By this time, it was already 2 years ago since I held her in my arms and talk to her gently so I know it must put her brain on overdrive.
That very same thought makes my brain hurt. How could I even fix the shits I did?
I can only kiss the top of her head and wait for her to calm down a little.
'I promise you I won't hurt you ever again, Rhian. God! I'll fucking give you the world!'
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A/n: i like to confuse people, yeah.
TIMELINE:::
3 weeks dating when Cypress was forced by his grandparents to marry Rhian
they were married for 2 years then Cypress fucked up. He always fuck things up but he did the ultimate fuck up. (present)
After 3 months from present, Rhian left while Cypress was facing company problems
After 5 months again, Cypress had an accident and fell into a coma.
Rhian came back and took care of him not knowing that Cypress' soul remain in the room and watches over her.
5 years after, his unconscious body undergone Euthanasia (mercy killing).
Instead of dying and going to hell where he should fucking go, He woke up and came back to the present.
There the story will proceed.