Of course, Forever is impossible.
While I'm still basking in our newfound marital bliss, another call urging me to hurry up came.
I escorted Rhian downstairs.
Grandma and grandpa were walking while holding hands to us. It seems like they just got back from their early morning walk.
I remember another thing Rhian told me so I take my hands off her waist and took her hands in mine. I intertwine them together.
Yeah, this is better.
The older couple surprisingly look at our hands, then to Rhian's blushing face and to my smug face.
"Are you taking Rhian out?" Grandpa asked.
"Yeah. After I deal with something in the company."
Rhian look at me. Surprised that I'll be taking her out on a date without her even knowing.
Grandma starts teasing us. "Oh my, have fun then."
I smile at her and give her a kiss on the cheek. I waited for Rhian to finish her goodbyes too before we walk to the car.
"Hey, Cy. We'll talk after you two come home." Grandpa called.
I turn back to him and gave him another wry smile. "Yeah."
Shit. Why can't grandpa be just as Lovely as Grandma and Rhian?
Don't think too much, old man! Can't you just believe me when I say I had a sudden unbelievable enlightenment?
We rode on the back of the car. I didn't release Rhian's hand and laid them to my leg.
"Are you okay?" I teased her. Shit! I really want to squeeze her pink cheeks!
"Y-yeah! Don't worry." She flail chaotically trying to hide her blush.
I just smile at her and lean down to lay my head on her shoulder.
You're telling me I'm being so handsy this early in the game no?
I don't care! This is my wife! I waited for 5 years to hold her again!
"Can I please lay in your shoulder just until we arrive at the company?" I seriously never ask for anything before. I'm used to taking. But that's one of the thing I'm meaning to change.
Rhian settled down and carefully move my head and sit properly to make me more comfortable.
It's obvious she's not used to touching me or talking to me or even breathing the same air as me but that's understandable.
The guilt kills me every second but that's life. I have to fucking deal with it. Considering that I was actually blessed to come back to life.
I felt her hand gently stroke my head. "Is your head still hurting?"
Huh? I was startled. Nothing's hurting. I'm honestly just copping a feel.
"Your head hurt earlier."
Oh. Yeah. So many things happened, my heart beat too fast and my mind had to work overdrive that i felt like i already lasted for days.
But I only 'woke up' 3 hrs ago. And my head was suppose to hurt. My body too.
I almost forgot everything though.
"Uh... Y-yeah. Just a little." i lied.
I'm enjoying the romantic atmosphere when a red mark on her neck caught my eyes.
She's wearing a modest dress. But there were too much marks that there was still one that was not covered.
Fuck. She smiles at me now. She doesn't seem mad or disgusted or murderous. Does it mean she forgave me and won't leave me after 3 months?
Now, this makes my head ache.
"Rhian..." i murmured.
"Hmm?"
My thumb brush her hand.
"Do you love me?..."
What I really want to know is if she hates me. But I'm not ready to hear the answer.
She stayed with me for 5 years. I kept hearing her tell me she loves me. So she should still be.
I mean, as long as she loves me, i can work on slowly eliminating the hate little by little while increasing her affection, right?
I'm right,
right?
.
"mm..."
"I love you..."
.
Oh...
So the 'I love you' sincerely spoken directly to you from the person you love sounds and feels like this.
I think I should revoke what I said earlier. 'This' just became the happiest moment of I canmy life ever.
I don't know why but i stiffen and i just can't will myself to look at Rhian even if I really want to see her face now.
My face heated. especially my ears.
I want to tell her I love her too but I feel like a very large lump is stuck in my throat and the only thing I can hear is my heartbeat.
I move my head and buried my face in her shoulder.
I can only lay still and murmur "hmm..." In a disgustingly bashful tone.
I just came back to life. I don't want to just suddenly die yet.
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"The heck, Cy! Why did you only arrive now?!"
As soon as I got out of the car, i saw a dog running to me.
"Shut up, Karl." I ignore him and lean back to the car.
I smile at Rhian and offer her my hand.
"We'll just have to deal with some things here then we can go wherever we want."
She looks nervous and reluctant but she took my hand.
I gentlemanly guided her out. i cover her head with my other hand in case she bump her head.
"What!? I'm facing these shits for YOUR company and you're just here womanizing?!"
"Shut up. Didn't I came." I proceeded to ignore him coldly and turned warm again for Rhian. "Let's go?"
Rhian smiled again and nodded.
"Oh fuck! S'dat you, Rhian?!"
I almost want to roll my eyes and kick Karl away when he stop us and stood right in front of us.
"Hi." Rhian greeted Karl.
"Hey! Long time no see!" Karl happily greeted her then turn to me with a questioning look.
Fuck you! You're not my wife or my grandparents! Why do I have to explain to you?!
I snorted at him. "Why are you stalling? Didn't you say to hurry up?"
"Oh." Apparently, the issue was more important than busying with my life, "Yeah. Another Four Suppliers backed out just this morning. I kept calling you and you won't answer, you bastard!"
I held Rhian's waist while we walk to the elevator. All the while, Karl kept yapping. He's really so annoying.
I'm listening to Karl when I felt Rhian lean to me a little bit closer.
I stop Karl with my hand and bow down to check her. "What's wrong? Are you alright?"
She smiled wryly. "Yeah."
I frown and look at Karl who is also looking at Rhian.
Karl raised an eyebrow at me and gestured to the side and behind us.
Fuck.
I just remember this should be the first time I take Rhian out for the past 2 years.
I glare at the gossiping employees around us.
Karl look at me scolding 'you-asshole-posing-hero' with his eyes.
His face makes me want to hit or kick him.
I know, bitch! No need to rub it in my face!!!
I don't know what to say to Rhian. I can't just apologize because I probably need days to complete that or say such sticky things like 'don't worry' or 'i'll protect you' because that would be utterly stupid since I was the one who caused it.
While I'm still worrying over her, Rhian look up at me with a smile in her lips. It looks like she's thanking me.
I melted.
Fuck this Karl, if he's not here, I would have kissed her already.
Since there's a dog beside us, I just settled with kissing her on the forehead.
"Wha-" Rhian was so startled and she covered her forehead and look at me incredulously.
Not only her actually but I don't care about other people.
I just laugh a little then wrap my arm around her and pull her closer to me.
You can't always be this cute, Rhian. We're outside.
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