I silently stared at the woman crying beside the paralized body lying on the hospital bed.
Why are you crying again?
In the first place, why did you came back?
You already saved yourself and escape from that Ill-fated love you have, why did you came back and hurt yourself all over again?
Did you forget how that jerk looked down on you the whole time you were together?
Did you forget how that fucking sonofabitch proudly showoff his lipstick stained shirts whenever he went home drunk?
Did you forget the cold look he gives you whenever your hurt or lonely?
How could you even kept loving that type of guy?
Why did you endured all the disgusted look and the sharp words people throw you just to stay by that bastard's side?
Why won't you give up and live your life free?
It's obvious you're waiting for nothing anyway. That body's obviously an empty shell now.
Didn't you see everyone left?
There's not even a speck of hope to cling to.
Why don't you stop holding that hand and calling out to him?
Please stop wasting your tears...
Please stop wasting your time...
That bastard won't ever wake up...
I look at the man lying on the bed.
'you fucking bastard. You deserve it.'
I could only sigh and let my transparent body drift to that woman's side.
My hands want to touch her and wife off her tears but I could only stare.
Her once bright eyes became even dimmer... Her once fair and spotless skin were already course and dry... The beauty that she once was is now haggard and tired.
How could you do this to yourself, woman?
I lean closer to her and whisper to her ear.
I know she won't be able to hear me but i painfully hope she will.
I should have said it when i was still 'myself'.
Back when i was not a transparent drifting soul lurking around my unconscious bastard self.
I have a lot to say.
I have tons of things to apologize for...
A lot of things to show my gratitude for...
But the long period of time that i was watching her talk, cry, and stay by that bastard's side seemed to clog my throat.
I don't know how to start or what exact words to say.
I can just close my eyes and clutch my aching chest.
"Rhian... If i'm ever given a chance to live again, I promise I'll spend it loving you..."