Have you ever felt disconnected from the world around you? You had this otherness that made the people around you neither attracted nor repelled by you, but there was this bizarre way in which your existence was a void yet infin...
You know what? I ain't doin' this shit! It's already bad enough that I have a hard time getting my thoughts onto...whatever or wherever I'm currently dictating this monologue to. Still, I'm supposed to narrate the beginning of not just any old story. Oh no, I am to narrate the entirety of my life story when I can't even be bothered to write the damn thing myself! And I bet that whoever is reading or maybe even listening to this right now is thinking something along the lines of "Isn't it easier to record through speech than by hand?" and yOU WOULD THINK SO, HUH??!?!??
...where was I goin' with this...
Oh yeah, right, the chronicling of my life story and the difficulties of said task. It's not like I can't do it because I definitely can. I would orate my story with poetic passion, flowery words, and vivid images brought to life between the lines of sentences. It's just...not my style or who I am as a person. And an autobiography should carry its author's essence, which means I don't want to lie to make my story seem more "interesting" or "compelling" in any way. Basically, at least from my point of view, my reality is better than any fiction that I am forced to write because of this sudden mission I received from my system to, and I quote,
" Complete your autobiographical chronicle by recovering key memories and resolving internal conflicts. Your reward will grant you clarity, purpose, and the power to navigate new chapters of your life with better insight and intentions. "
...I mean, who or what wrote this???
It feels and sounds robotic yet so eloquent simultaneously, which is nothing like how my system VI, Gabe, does things! His style is basic yet quite informative, and I would know because I designed them that way! Did they develop a split personality, or is this something or someONE else?
...Please excuse my constant ramblings, dear reader and/or listener, as I'll get straight to the point now (but only because the payout, benefits, and rewards are pretty good)...
My point is this: How can I begin a story like this when I'm still living it? When the nature of my journey has no fixed starting point or general endpoint? Can you imagine a story that lacks any semblance of true storytelling, where I can't figure out if I could even distill the everyday into something entertaining?
The answer to all these questions seems obvious, to me at least...
I can't.
I can't and I won't because doing so would be...well, if you've gotten this far in, you get the point. Anyway, I do not have it in me to be able to produce a masterpiece or a failure, even though it is in my power to do so.
That ain't how I roll.
Instead, I'll do you all the favor and create this tale how I want it to be told. No rules and regulations to hold me back in this pursuit! In fact, who said that I had to start at the beginning? So unoriginal! Why don't I start at the part when the adventure TRULY begins, eh? And I'll try to give context and info on what has happened so far, and add comments and reviews done in hindsight. Sounds good? Good...
Now, which phrase best fits with starting a narrative off in the middle? Something similar to the phrase ONCE UPON A TIME or IN THE BEGINNING. Ah, I've got it!
In the midst of all the chaos...