"Why did Namjoon grab my wrist like that? It surely left a mark, but what does he mean by saying I rejected him? When did I ever reject him?"
Y/n was lying on her bed, staring at the ceiling, deep in thought until a memory suddenly came to her mind.
It was six months prior to the Jeju Island incident. It was December 202X, and snow had fallen in South Korea, prompting everyone to take pictures and videos. On this particular day, we see the BTS members wandering down the sidewalk, enjoying the snowfall of 202X that had come at just the right time of year.
Y/n stayed back because she was suffering from a bad case of the flu.
"I just wish y/n could be here with us," Jin said. "Jin, she has the flu. Do you want to get sick too?" Jungkook replied. "No, it's too risky for my voice to get sick. But I was thinking of bringing her some Juk (rice) to eat," Jin explained. "But she has her parents for that, Jin. Come on, let's build a snowman. We don't want the snow to melt away," Jungkook urged.
Jin agreed, and the rest of the group headed to a nearby park to start building a snowman.
Jimin, Jungkook, and Taehyung began singing "Do you want to build a snowman?" while building a snowman. After finishing their snowman, they took a photo, and each shared it on their stories.
"We are missing one member," J-Hope remarked. "Where's Namjoon?" Suga inquired. "I swear he was just here with us a moment ago, but when we started making the snowman, he vanished," Taehyung explained.
Meanwhile, at y/n's apartment, her parents were preparing to leave for the company dinner.
"Sweetie, don't feel bad; I know the flu can be really tough, but the good news is you can see the snow from your window." "Your mother is right; the first snowfall has arrived today, so try to enjoy it from your window. In the meantime, your mother left Juk (rice) for you to eat along with vegetables when you feel up to it. We'll message you when we get back."
Y/n couldn't scream because her throat was dry, so she got up from her room and walked to the living room, where she stood nodding at her parents. After they left, everything became quiet.
The only noise was from the outside, where kids, families, and couples were doing dance challenges and taking pictures.
Y/n took the Juk (rice) from the pot that her mom had left, along with some vegetables, and sat down at the dining table. "There's nothing like warm food in this lovely weather while I'm sick; it feels really comforting," y/n thought.
Ten minutes later, she finished her meal and washed the plate. Just before heading back to her room, the doorbell rang.
Y/n peeked through the peephole and saw Namjoon. She opened the door, confused about his presence, and Namjoon walked in without hesitation.
"You might be wondering why I'm here instead of with the others. It's quite a funny story. You see..." Namjoon began to explain everything to y/n. Y/n still didn't understand why he came to see her when he knew she was sick with the flu.
"You don't need to talk; I'll handle that for you. Have you eaten anything yet?" Namjoon asked. Y/n pointed to the pot on the stove, then the plate she rinsed. "Ahh, I see. Do you think there is still more? Maybe I can eat something?" "You can look inside the pot. If there is more, take some but don't finish it. I'll be resting in my room if you need anything, or just let me know when you leave," y/n replied softly.
Y/n walked away from the dining table and returned to her room, lying on her bed with the same blanket wrapped around her. Namjoon peeked inside the pot, served himself a bowl, and sat in the same chair that y/n was in, 10 minutes before.
"I completely forgot how delicious y/n's mom's cooking is. I feel like I'm in heaven. Perhaps I should check on her. I doubt she has taken her medicine. Since I'm the only one here, I can play the role of her doctor," Namjoon said quietly.
In y/n's room, she wakes up feeling cold and drenched in sweat. She forgot to take her medicine. "If Namjoon is still around, I guess I can't kick him out. My parents haven't messaged me yet, so they must be coming late. Ugh, I should get some water, take my medicine, and maybe look out the window before I crash," y/n thought as she got up and walked to the door.
Namjoon noticed y/n slowly emerging from her room, wobbling as she approached.
"Hey y/n, do not pass out on me. I was actually going to bring your medicine to you, but I see you're already up. Please sit in the living room while I get you a cup of water and your medicine," Namjoon said with concern.
Y/n nodded and headed straight to the living room, taking a seat on the sofa. Namjoon came over to where y/n was sitting and handed her the medicine along with a cup of water.
Y/n took the medicine and gulped down the cup of water as if she couldn't get it down quickly enough. After that, y/n fell asleep on the living room sofa, while Namjoon sat on the floor admiring her.
"She looks adorable while sleeping. Should I kiss her on the cheek? No, that might be too risky right now, but I haven't told her how I feel. I don't know if she feels the same. I'll be really sad if she rejects my feelings."
Y/n woke up moments later to find Namjoon very close to her face. "Um, what are you doing?" "Just admiring your cute face." "Okay—could you kindly get out of my face? I'm going to my room to sleep comfortably."
Y/n gets up from the sofa and walks to her room when Namjoon stops her. "Why are you in such a hurry?" "In case you forgot, I have the flu and need to rest." "So? Just because you have the flu doesn't mean you can ignore me. Look out the window, see the snow. There's a saying that 'if you see the first snowfall with someone you like, it could be a sign of good things for your relationship.' So here I am, watching the snowfall through the window with the person I like, which is you."
Y/n stands still for a few seconds before turning to where Namjoon was. She seems confused at first, but then it hits her.
"Since when have you had feelings for me?" y/n asked. "The first time Jin introduced you at the studio, that was our initial meeting. After a few meetings, I sensed a spark. It felt like we had a connection," he replied. "I'm sorry, but you can't possibly like me." "Why not? Is there someone else in your life that's stopping you from accepting my feelings?" "Yes, there is someone I made a promise to years ago." "Who is this person?" "I can't reveal his name. Now, if you'll excuse me, I'm going to my room to rest."
Y/n turns back once more and reaches for her door handle just as Namjoon grabs her wrist. Namjoon spun y/n around, pulling her into his arms and looked at her.
In the quiet moment, the only sound y/n hears is Namjoon's heartbeat; she notices his flustered expression. Namjoon leans in for a kiss, but y/n stops him. He attempts again, but y/n still blocks him.
Hesitating to escape, y/n slips out of Namjoon's hold and rushes to her room, locking the door behind her. "You really thought you could get away from me." "Namjoon, leave my room." "No. I'm staying here." "Fine, I'll just go to my parents' room to hide from you."
Y/n dashes to her bedroom door, but Namjoon slams it shut and pushes her against the wall.
He leans in, and y/n tries to block him, but this time she can't because Namjoon is holding her arms captive.
She shuts her eyes until she feels Namjoon kiss her on the cheek, then he steps back and lets her go.
"Do you really think I'm the kind of person who would do that to you without your consent? I'm not a bad person. I just wanted to express my feelings for you. But can you at least consider my offer?" "What offer are you talking about?" "Go out with me, break that person's promise. Even if they find out about us, that person can f**k off. Please, y/n."
Y/n thinks it over and gives Namjoon her response.
Namjoon exits her room and leaves the apartment, leaving y/n by herself.
Namjoon and y/n dated for a few months before the person y/n promised found out about their relationship and decided to end their romance.
Y/n ended things with Namjoon, leaving him heartbroken. Namjoon attempted to repair things, but it was too late.
With his broken heart, Namjoon began to feel hatred for y/n, and this was only the beginning.
"Why did the flashback pop into my mind? I completely forgot Namjoon and I dated for a while. Honestly, Namjoon was a really protective boyfriend until the person I made a promise to, broke it. So that's what Namjoon was saying, 'I don't want you to run away, and you rejected me.'