New school year, new school, new classmates, new teachers, new books, a new start.
I was walking for the first and the last time to school, because I wasn't ready for what was coming,
200 meters left 150 100.. she was there and it's was the last time I would see her,
She didn't notice me at all
My mind was on full chaos the same thoughts are back "go after her" "no she doesn't love you give up already"
But this time my body didn't endure,
My heart beat slowed down 70 60 55 40 35 20 0, I fell down I didn't have much time left to live
I called her name one last time "see you again Sofia maybe in other life I could be the one you choose"
I don't have any regrets at least I tried my best but I wasn't strong enough to face the world
My memories come back vividly with my death
First minute passed and it was my favorite toy, my first day at school, my first friend
The second minute passed with my childhood my first best friend Adam, my first win in my favorite video game
The third minute passed with my teenage years my first phone, the first time I saw her, our first eye contact, our first time we met, her first point against me in badminton, every small talk..
Then for the rest 4 minutes just pure darkness, just me staring at the abyss, and it is starting back to me, my original stat I used to be here. Or that what I thought before hearing her voice one again "Do you really think that I can let you face the abyss alone?" I looked at 356 with a hollowed face "I don't want you here I know you are not Sofia, even if you look identical but you are only the idea to having her, can you leave me alone please? Let me alone with the regret for not trying for letting time do work for me, what did I expect she will wake up one day and run me confess her love, or maybe I will wake up one day with a fresh memory and heart like I never met her before, but for the days I loved her I just want to be close to her, even if I did meet my fate halfway I don't have anything else to regret, I even forget how to breathe I am still crying with the will to live if I could bring back the love that's fading away afar I would offer myself to strangers, I was just so young I learned love for a price beyond my imagination. Ah regret doesn't do anything for me, it's already a miracle that I saw her eyes shining for the last time, please let me sink one last time, to have nothing left to regret"
Yes I died on the 19th September 2024, after 1,051,200 minutes or 17520 hours or 730 days of my eternal flame, because of broken heart septum my heart failed me as my heart exploded because of the tension of the pain I carried with me all the time.
After my death my mom asked Adam to ride off my stuff, while he was going through my stuff, he found the book I started "the eternal flame"
He started to read it and find out about everything I helt in my heart,
He keeped it and gave all of my old stuff to charity,
14 years to the future Adam and nikole had been happly married for some couple of years and there are expecting an upcoming beautiful boy,
And on 19th September 2038 a young boy opened his eyes for the first time "zak the only right name for him" Adam said with a bit of grief in his eyes
And there a new story biggins.