Ria
A few more days passed by without anything important happening. Arsheus kept coming at me and I accepted most of the times. It was a fun distraction and it actually felt fucking good. It was soo good having his cock inside of me, but now wasn't one of those times.
Right now we were about to go out and actually begin the infiltration, or whatever the fuck Arsheus thought he was doing. I was still fairly sure that it'd fail spectacularly, but I'd give him a chance.
" Are you ready?" Arsheus looked at all of us with a serious expression.
" Yes, I'm ready" My voice didn't hold an ounce of hesitation as I answered. Although my voice didn't show my doubts I was really wondering if this was even the right way.
Rin and Allea seemed way more confident in the plan, probably because they had gone to check the surroundings and how everything was going and knew how everything worked.
Arsheus's eyes focused on me as if he knew what I was thinking, that this whole thing would come crashing down any second now.
" Trust me" His eyes were serious as he smiled.
Fine, I did trust him.
" Okay. When are we going?"
Arsheus smiled and gave me his hand.
" Now"
He extended his wings, now white instead of their characteristical black color and looked at me, waiting for me to spread them too.
I took a deep breath and closed my eyes for a second to regain my strength before telling him the truth. No more secrets.
" I can't" My voice was barely a whisper as I admitted to one of my deepest and darkest secrets.
" What?" Rin, Allea and Arsheus all were looking at me with big eyes, waiting for me to continue the story.
" My wings..... They aren't there"
Arsheus frowned and walked up to me, his hands on my cheeks as he asked me again.
" What do you mean?" His voice was dark as he asked.
" My parents ripped them off when I was still a baby" I had always wondered how it'd feel to have wings and be able to fly in the sky. He didn't need to know that.
Arsheus's smile disappeared as he looked at me with pity on his eyes. I didn't want him to look at me like that. I just didn't have wings. I wasn't useless.
" Anyway, you'll have to carry me"
I put on my best fake smile, looking at Arsheus without moving my eyes from his.
" Fine" Arsheus didn't seem to even agree with himself, but he put on a smile I could tell was fake and took me in between his arms, carrying me like a princess.
I nuzzled in his arms as he held me closer and tighter, as if he wanted to make all my pain go away.
The wings weren't a pain. It was just part of who I was. I had grown up like that and was used to it by now. The only thing I regretted was never been able to fly on my own in the blue sky, but I was past that.
" Thanks" I barely whispered that word in Arsheus's ear, but he heard and smiled at me.
I felt thankful to him for not prying any further into the story.
Not even I knew anything more. When Illiana had found me wrapped in a blanket at the door of her orphanage I hadn't had anything on me, not a note saying my name, nothing and not even my wings. According to Illiana they had been ripped when it as a baby, but I didn't remember it. It was just a fact I had grown up with.
My dark thoughts begun to consume me as I thought about what my biological parents had done. They had ripped their baby's wings off when she couldn't even walk and then proceeded to abandon a newborn. Was I really that unlovable?
Arsheus said he loved me, but he could change his mind at any time and tell me he hated me and that he never wanted to see me ever again. What if he did that?
Fear gripped me as I looked up at his smile. He was smiling now, but would he still smile if I told him that no one loved me? Would he betray me too at some point?
The dark thoughts consumed me as we flied past beautiful fields covered in snow and small towns. The tall trees covered in white told the story of my life. I was covered in shit too, just like them. Only difference was theirs was visible and mine was not.
I sighed and held Arsheus closer to me. He felt warm and cozy. I wanted to stay like this forever, but it couldn't be. At some point Arsheus would realize how messed up I actually was and would abandon me, just like everyone else in my life had always done.
" Hold on tight" Arsheus shouted by my ear and I tilted my head, looking up at him, confused. What was he planning?
He smiled at me from above before closing his eyes and plunging down into the pointy trees.
What the fuck?
I screamed and held onto him, afraid for my life. The trees came closer at me every second, threatening to kill me. Just when I could almost touch the snow covered leaves Arsheus opened back his wings and soared through the sky again.
As I looked at the ground, traumatized, Arsheus looked at me with a smile.
" Trust me and smile" His tone was happy and light as he smirked and we fell again.
Every time he let go of me for a second or plunged us both to our death adrenaline rushed through my whole body and I felt as if I could do anything. At the beginning I was afraid, but after a few times I had come to trust that he wouldn't let me fall to my death and once I had accepted that I was actually having quite some fun.
" Again!" I smiled at Arsheus.
He smiled back and let go of me.
For a second I felt as if they hadn't actually taken my wings from me. I felt how flying on my own must've felt like. I was weightless as the air crashed around me and gravity tried to pull me down.
It was such a good rush I never wanted it to end.
I screamed and screamed from excitement, happy to be up here.
From my side I could see Arsheus near me, smiling so widely I could see all this teeth. I smiled back. I knew he wouldn't let me fall.
Just when I was about to crash he held me and flapped his wings, pulling me up again.
From behind us Rin and Allea were grinning every single time Arsheus let me go and then caught me again, happy for us or mocking us, I didn't know which one it was, but they seemed happy.
" Are you doing it again?" Rin smirked at us, his smile big as he looked me up and down, as if I wouldn't dare. I knew he was just messing with me, but it was way too much fun to pass up.
" Again!" Arsheus smiled and threw me up in the air.
I loved the feeling of ingravity when he threw me before gravity pulled me back down. Was that what they felt when they flew? I felt jealous. I wanted to try it too. Now I could see why everyone said that one of the worst punishments you could get was having your wings torn off. I hadn't understood it in the past, I had never had wings, but now I kinda did. Flying was the best feeling in the world. I felt as if the whole world and ground under my feet were mine for the taking.
I laughed as I felt, the rush hitting me again. Arsheus laughed too as he swept on and grabbed me, holding me in his arms as he soared high back up where Rin and Allea were waiting for us with smiles on their faces.
I looked at Arsheus and smiled. I wanted some more.
" More"
Arsheus looked at me with care, but didn't throw me again. He held onto me as he decreased his height along with Rin and Allea. The smiles turned to frowns and serious faces as we flew further away.
What was going on?
When I raised my head and saw the glass castle approaching us fast I understood. We were in enemy territory now.
Arsheus's muscles went taunt under me. He said he was confident about his plans but a confident man didn't get so stressed when it came the time to prove it. I didn't like this, not one bit.
" Are you fine?"
Arsheus didn't answer my question. His arms just wrapped around me harder.
" From now on you do as you were told, okay?" I could hear the fear in his tone and the hardness in his voice. He was going to be really mad if I disobeyed him and although he hadn't used his control over me since I had told him he loved me and he had done the same I knew he wasn't past ordering me to listen to him and stay safe if worse came to worse. I knew he would do it and I also knew it would be all for my safety, but I still didn't want to feel as if I had no control over my actions ever again.
Instead of telling him the rant going on in my head I nodded and smiled.
He looked down at me and a genuine smile spread across his lips.
" Let's go"
Rin and Allea looked serious by our side as everyone landed gracefully on the ground, not a single one of them eating the ground.
As soon as we touched the snow I let go of Arsheus's body and got on my own feet, besides them.
The town could be seen a few minutes away from us. I could even see the angels patrolling all over the castle, not very clearly, but I could see them.
Cold sweat trickled down my spine as fear took a hold of me. Wouldn't they recognize us if we came too close to them?
" Are you sure it's safe?"
Arsheus nodded and grabbed my hand.
" It's safe"
" No one will recognize us?"
Arsheus's face became taunt, but his smile never wavered as he looked at me.
" They won't"
I didn't completely trust him, but okay. I could give it my best and pretend I did.
Arsheus strutted with confidence through the alleys and streets as if he owned the place. No one even turned to look at us and point as we went on with our lives. It was as if we were part of the decor. They were completely ignoring us and I loved it. We had become part of the crowd.
No one stopped us or pointed at us until we reached the glass palace, it's guards checking everyone coming and going.
The guards stopped us on our tracks and looked at us as if we were scum. My heart raced faster and faster as they looked at our faces. Where they into us? Were they going to kill us?
" What do you want?" Their voices were high, as if they were looking down on us as they spoke.
Arsheus let go of my hand and searched for something in his pocket.
He grabbed a few letters and handed them over to the guards.
The men read them and made faces, but let us pass through. Once we were out of their sight and inside the palace my heart calmed down and the fear went away little by little. Now we only had to get whatever the fuck Arsheus wanted to get.
He smiled a he grabbed my hand, our servant clothes making us seem part of the staff.
Let the game begin.