✦ CHAPTER — YOU'RE IMPOSSIBLE ✦
Jayjay's POV
I didn't mean to fall asleep.
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Really.
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I was studying.
Actually studying for once.
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But sometime around midnight—
the numbers started blurring together.
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And the next thing I knew—
my head rested against the table.
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The study room light still on.
Books open.
Pen slipping from my hand slowly.
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Gone.
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Somewhere around 2AM
Keifer's POV
The bed felt empty.
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That was the first thing I noticed.
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My hand reached beside me automatically.
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Cold sheets.
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His brows furrowed instantly.
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"…Jay?"
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Silence.
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He sat up slowly.
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The room dark except for rain shadows moving against the walls outside.
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Annoyance came first.
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Then concern immediately after.
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Because she never stayed up this late alone.
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Keifer got up quietly.
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Checked the kitchen first.
Empty.
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Living room.
Nothing.
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Balcony.
Empty too.
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His jaw tightened slightly.
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Then—
a faint light under the study room door.
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Of course.
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He opened it quietly.
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And there she was.
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Asleep over books.
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Messy notes everywhere.
Glasses slipping slightly.
Hair falling across her face.
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A soft crease between her brows even in sleep.
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And instantly—
his entire expression softened.
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"…impossible."
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He walked closer quietly.
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Careful not to wake her.
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Her hand still loosely holding a pen.
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Keifer removed it gently.
Closed the books.
Moved the glasses carefully.
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Then brushed the hair away from her face slowly.
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She stirred slightly.
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"…mm."
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His chest tightened unexpectedly.
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Because she looked exhausted.
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Too exhausted.
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Without another thought—
he slid one arm beneath her knees.
The other around her waist.
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And lifted her carefully.
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Jay shifted instantly against him.
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Half asleep.
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"…Keifer?"
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His grip tightened slightly.
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"You're supposed to be asleep beside me."
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Her sleepy brain processed that slowly.
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Then—
without hesitation—
she buried her face against his chest.
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Instinctively cuddling closer.
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And somehow—
that affected him more than it should have.
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Keifer exhaled quietly.
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"…baby."
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But there was no real annoyance left in his voice now.
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Only softness.
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Only her.
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The next day
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Everything went wrong by lunch.
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Absolutely everything.
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"This is why no one likes you."
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The guy laughed again.
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And honestly?
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Maybe punching him wasn't mature.
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But it was satisfying.
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Very satisfying.
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Unfortunately—
the principal disagreed.
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"…Miss Watson."
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I sat in the office silently.
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Not regretting it even a little.
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Meanwhile—
the principal looked exhausted.
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"We cannot solve problems with violence."
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"He insulted Freya."
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"That does not justify punching a student."
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"…a little maybe."
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A sigh.
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Then—
the office door opened.
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And my soul left my body immediately.
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Keifer.
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Perfect.
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Just perfect.
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He walked in calmly.
Suit neat.
Expression unreadable.
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The principal immediately stood slightly straighter.
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"Professor Watson, thank you for coming."
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Meanwhile—
I suddenly found the floor very interesting.
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Keifer's eyes landed on me.
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Silence.
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Dangerous silence.
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"…what happened?"
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Oh no.
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The principal explained everything dramatically.
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Meanwhile—
I refused to look at him.
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Because somehow—
his silence felt scarier than yelling.
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Finally—
Keifer nodded once.
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"I apologize for her behavior."
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HER behavior???
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Excuse me???
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I looked up immediately.
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"What—"
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One look from him shut me up instantly.
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The principal sighed in relief.
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After a few more minutes—
we finally left the office.
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Silence.
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Heavy silence.
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I walked beside him nervously.
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"…you're mad."
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No answer.
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"…Keifer."
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Still nothing.
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Oh my God.
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"You're seriously ignoring me?"
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Finally—
he stopped walking.
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Turned toward me slowly.
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"You punched someone."
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"He deserved it."
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"That's not the point."
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"He insulted Freya!"
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"And what happens next time someone says something?"
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I crossed my arms immediately.
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"I punch harder?"
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Bad answer.
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Because his jaw tightened instantly.
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"Jay."
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That tone.
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Low.
Warning.
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I looked away dramatically.
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"…you're being annoying."
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"And you're impossible."
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Silence.
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Then—
very calmly—
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"New rule."
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I blinked.
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"…what?"
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"You don't get involved in fights."
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"That's not a rule."
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"It is now."
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My jaw dropped.
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"You can't make rules for me."
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"I just did."
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RUDE.
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The rest of the day—
he stayed slightly distant.
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Still protective.
Still watching me.
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But quieter.
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Less soft.
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And honestly?
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I hated it immediately.
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Because now I noticed every little thing missing.
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The waist touches.
The soft looks.
The tiny smiles.
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By evening—
I was pouting dramatically on the couch.
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Keifer sat nearby reading again.
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Like nothing happened.
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Meanwhile—
I suffered.
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"…you're still mad."
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A page turned calmly.
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"I'm thinking."
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"That means yes."
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Silence.
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I glared at him.
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Then slowly—
moved closer.
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No reaction.
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Closer again.
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Still nothing.
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My pout deepened immediately.
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"…you're really ignoring me."
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Finally—
he looked up.
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One long look.
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Then quietly—
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"You scared me today."
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My breath caught.
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Because suddenly—
this wasn't about the fight anymore.
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And the softness hidden under his anger?
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That ruined me instantly 😭🤍
✦ CHAPTER — I'M HERE ✦
Jayjay's POV
The house felt strangely quiet that night.
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Too quiet.
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Keifer sat across from me working calmly.
Laptop open.
Phone beside him.
Expression focused.
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And somehow—
the distance from earlier still lingered between us.
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Not huge.
Not cold.
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But enough for me to feel it.
Enough to hate it.
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I looked down at my hands quietly.
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Then before I could stop myself—
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"…Keifer?"
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He looked up immediately.
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"Hm?"
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The words suddenly felt stupid.
Too emotional.
Too vulnerable.
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But they came out anyway.
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"…if you stop loving me one day…"
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His entire expression changed instantly.
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Brows furrowing slightly.
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"What?"
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I tried laughing softly.
Failed horribly.
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"Just…"
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My throat tightened unexpectedly.
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"…tell me first."
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Silence.
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Complete silence.
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I looked away quickly.
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Because now my eyes burned.
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And I hated that.
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"Jay—"
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"Don't make me figure it out myself."
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My voice cracked softly at the end.
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And suddenly—
everything felt embarrassing.
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Because maybe this fear sounded irrational.
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But what if one day—
he stopped looking at me like this?
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What if one day he became distant—
and I was the last one to notice?
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The thought hurt more than it should.
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Across from me—
Keifer looked genuinely shaken now.
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Like the words physically hurt him.
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"Why would you even think that?"
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I shrugged quickly.
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"I don't know."
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Lie.
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Because people changed.
Feelings changed.
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And losing him slowly?
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That terrified me.
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Keifer stood immediately.
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"Jay, listen to me—"
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But suddenly I couldn't stay there anymore.
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Couldn't let him see how emotional I was getting.
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So instead—
I stood too quickly.
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"I'm tired."
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"Baby."
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That voice almost stopped me.
Almost.
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But I walked away anyway.
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And honestly?
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I didn't sleep properly that night either.
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The next morning
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I avoided him.
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Not intentionally.
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Okay maybe intentionally.
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Just a little.
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Because now every time I remembered last night—
my chest hurt again.
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So at university—
I stayed with Noah instead.
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Talking.
Laughing quietly.
Trying to act normal.
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Meanwhile—
I could feel Keifer's eyes on me the entire lecture.
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Heavy.
Dangerously quiet.
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But I ignored it.
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Or tried to.
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Noah leaned closer slightly.
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"…you two fought?"
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"We didn't fight."
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"You're ignoring him."
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"I'm literally sitting in class."
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Noah snorted softly.
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Then suddenly—
the classroom went silent.
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Oh no.
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I looked up slowly.
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Keifer had stopped teaching completely.
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And now he was staring directly at me.
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Not angry.
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Worse.
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Affected.
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"…Mrs. Watson."
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My stomach flipped immediately.
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"…yes?"
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"Come with me."
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Dead silence.
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Freya's eyes widened dramatically.
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Mica whispered:
> "OH MY GOD."
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I crossed my arms immediately.
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"I'm busy."
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BAD answer.
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Because something in his expression shifted instantly.
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"Now."
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The entire class froze.
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And somehow—
that calm voice scared me more.
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I stood slowly.
Heart racing.
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Then followed him outside.
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He walked fast.
Too fast.
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Straight toward an empty room nearby.
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The second the door shut—
I turned toward him immediately.
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"What is your problem—"
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The words disappeared instantly.
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Because suddenly—
his hand caught my wrist.
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And before I could process anything—
he pulled me closer.
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Too close.
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My breath caught hard.
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"…Keifer—"
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"You ignored me all morning."
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His voice sounded rough now.
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"You kept talking to Noah."
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"He's my friend."
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"I know."
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That somehow made it worse.
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Because he knew.
And still got jealous.
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Still looked at me like this.
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His jaw tightened slightly before he spoke again.
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"Do you really think I'd stop loving you?"
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My chest hurt immediately.
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Because last night still echoed in my mind.
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The distance.
The fear.
The thought of losing this.
Losing him.
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I looked away quickly.
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"…I don't know."
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Silence.
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Then softly—
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"Jay."
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His hand lifted slowly.
Tilting my face back toward me gently.
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"Look at me."
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I tried.
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God, I tried.
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But the second our eyes met—
my heart started breaking all over again.
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Because he looked hurt too.
Actually hurt.
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"You really thought I'd leave you to figure that out alone?"
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My throat tightened.
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"I just…"
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My voice cracked softly.
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"I didn't want to wake up one day and realize you stopped loving me first."
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The silence after that felt painful.
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His expression shattered completely.
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Like hearing that physically hurt him.
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"Baby…"
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And suddenly—
he pulled me closer.
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One arm wrapping around my waist instantly.
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My breath hitched hard.
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Because now there was no space left between us.
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None.
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"You don't understand what you've done to me."
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His voice was barely above a whisper now.
Raw.
Real.
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"I can't even sleep properly when you're not beside me."
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My breath caught instantly.
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"And you think I'm just going to stop loving you?"
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The way he said it—
like the idea itself offended him—
made my eyes burn.
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I looked down quickly.
Embarrassed.
Emotional.
Overwhelmed.
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But then—
his fingers lifted my chin carefully again.
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And this time—
he didn't stop.
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He leaned down slowly.
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Close enough for me to feel his breathing.
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My heart pounded harder.
And harder.
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Until finally—
his lips met mine.
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Soft.
Warm.
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For one second—
everything inside me stopped.
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Because this kiss wasn't teasing.
Wasn't almost.
Wasn't rushed.
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It felt emotional.
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Like he was trying to say everything he couldn't put into words.
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His hand tightened slightly against my waist as he kissed me again—
slower this time.
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And my fingers instinctively grabbed onto his shirt.
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My chest aching in the best way possible.
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When he finally pulled back—
barely—
his forehead rested against mine.
Both of us breathing unevenly.
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Then quietly—
almost painfully soft—
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"Don't ever ask me to stop loving you."
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My heart shattered completely.
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Because suddenly—
I realized something terrifying.
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I didn't think I could survive that either. 😭🤍