ELARA POV
That night I couldn't sleep for a single second. The only thing that kept replaying in my head was the statement Kael had made. How could he actually say that to me? Even all the way home, I couldn't concentrate. All I could remember was, "Turn off the camera. Turn off the camera." How would I do something as reckless as that?
I lay on my bed already dressed for sleep, still frustrated. I couldn't even sleep. I had tried watching a series or two, yet none of that worked. Instead, I felt more and more frustrated, like I was just making things more complicated for myself.
I felt so angry that I groaned. "Why is this feeling so maddening? I have never ever been this restless in my life." I sat up immediately and said aloud, "Kael, you did this. You're making me lose my mind."
I stood up and tried to make a cup of warm milk. Maybe it would help me settle, maybe it would help me sleep. I was so confused I didn't even know what I wanted. As I sipped from the hot milk, trying to compose myself, the intimacy between us came crashing back into my mind. How he had held onto my lips, how he had pulled me closer, how aggressive he was yet how much I had loved every second of it. Everything was so unsettling.
"I can't control myself anymore. This is the worst I have ever been. I have never been in a situation like this with anybody. Why? Why is he doing this to me? Making me unable to stop myself whenever I am around him?"
I picked up my phone, trying to do something, anything. But I was hot. I was confused, like I was sitting on a live wire and couldn't control my own thoughts.
I immediately stood up and pulled on a coat.
As I came out of the house and looked at my car, it seemed as if it was calling me. I stepped in and started the engine. At first, I thought driving to a bar and maybe taking a few glasses of tequila would help. But no. I drove past the bar and kept going.
I noticed that due to how I was feeling, I was driving back to the biotech company. I tried to hold onto the wheel and reason with myself, but I couldn't stop. I needed to see Kael. He was the only person who could sort me out at this point.
I soon pulled up in front of the company. As I stepped out, the guard spotted me and was about to say something. I raised my card and said, "I forgot my medication and I need it or I won't be able to sleep." He nodded with a smile.
I rushed in, took the elevator, and went straight, not to the lab, but to the security room where the cameras were being monitored. I stepped in to find it empty. Thankfully, no one was there, as there was nothing pressing to monitor at this hour. He must have been on a break.
I went over and found the feed for the lab. As I switched off the camera, the weight of what I was doing hit me.
"What the hell. I am actually doing exactly what Kael told me to do."
I slammed my hand on the desk in frustration, trying to stop myself, but I couldn't. This was not something I had ever felt before. I stormed out and went straight to the lab.
I opened the door to find Kael had already freed himself from the cuffs. He sat there with a smile on his face.
"I have been waiting for you. When I told you we were connected, you refused to believe me."
But I was not ready to listen to anything or make sense of any words he said. I rushed toward him and jumped on him as he grabbed me tightly. The moment our lips met, he kissed me so passionately. At that point, it was all I wanted and nothing more. I kissed him back so aggressively I almost numbed both our lips from the intensity. We couldn't breathe, but yet I did not want to let go.
And when we finally did pull apart, we only got to breathe for a few seconds before our lips found each other again. Before I could do anything, he was already taking off my jacket, and the next thing I knew, I was bare in his presence. I began to take off his shirt immediately, not even thinking about the situation or the place we were in.
"Did you turn off the camera?" he muttered. His voice alone was making me more and more breathless.
"Yes," I said and immediately threw his shirt to the ground. I was unable to control myself, but he was not ready to rush anything.
"I have waited days for this," he muttered as I reached for him desperately.
"Please, Kael. I just want you so badly," I said to him as he did not stop. He began to kiss me from my waist down to my abdomen, and before I knew what was happening, his head was between my legs, and at that point, I couldn't think straight. Nothing else mattered. Everything seemed as though my sorrows had completely dissolved.
Marcus had never behaved this way with me. I couldn't believe a wolf could actually do better than a human. He was so attentive, so precise, so completely focused on me, that I couldn't hold back. Just as I was on the edge of losing myself completely, I tried to hold on, because I was not ready for it to end so soon. He pulled me closer and the moment he finally positioned himself, I was completely undone.
At that point, I couldn't breathe right. I had never experienced anything like him. He moved slowly at first, deliberately, watching me, and smiled. "It's time for you to enjoy what nobody has been able to give you," he said. I didn't even take his words to heart and instead pulled him closer by his waist, ready to take in everything, and I lost myself entirely.
When I opened my eyes again, I found myself lying beside him. He was already fast asleep, breathing so soundly, his arm wrapped around my waist. I sat up immediately, and the flashbacks came rushing back in one wave: how intense he had been, steady and completely present, how I had moaned his name and begged him for more, and how he had given me exactly that.
That was the most extraordinary intimacy I had ever experienced in my life. I covered my mouth and looked at him, fully realizing the gravity of the mistake I had just made.