A few months passed since school started again. As time went on, we became busier with school. There were many assignments, projects, and other tasks that we had to finish. Because of that, Sevi and I did not talk as much as we used to.
Before, we almost chatted every day. Even a simple conversation at night was enough to make me feel better. But as school work increased, our conversations became less frequent. Sometimes it would take a day or more before one of us replied.
I told myself that it was normal. We were just busy.
But one day, I found out something I did not expect.
I found out that he and his crush were actually classmates.
When I heard that, I felt something strange in my chest. I did not know why, but I felt a little jealous. I started thinking that maybe they saw each other every day in class. Maybe they talked during breaks or even walked home at the same time.
I shook my head.
"Why am I feeling jealous?" I asked myself.
We were not in a relationship. We were only friends.
But no matter how much I tried not to think about it, it stayed in my mind.
One night, while holding my phone in my room, I decided to message him.
"Hi. How are you?" I typed.
It took some time before he replied.
"I'm okay. You?" he said.
"I'm okay too," I replied.
I paused for a moment before typing again.
"Do you want to play truth or dare?" I asked.
A few seconds later, he answered.
"Sure."
I smiled a little while looking at the screen.
"Truth or dare?" I asked.
"Dare," he replied immediately.
I thought for a moment about what I should ask him to do.
Then I typed.
"Okay. Message your crush and say 'I love you.'"
He did not reply for a while.
After some time, he sent a message again.
"I don't want to. I feel shy."
I smiled a little when I read that.
"If you do not want that," I said, "I have another dare."
"What is it?" he asked.
"Block me."
He replied almost immediately.
"I don't want to."
I stopped for a moment while looking at his message.
"Why?" I asked.
"I just don't want to," he said.
Since he did not want to do that, he went back to the first dare.
"Fine," he said. "I will just message my crush."
After that, I noticed that it took a long time before he replied again. It seemed like he was doing something.
While holding my phone, I wondered if he had really done it.
After a few minutes, he sent another message.
"Done."
I bit my lip a little while reading it.
"Really?" I asked.
"Yes," he replied.
I did not know why, but I felt a small pain in my chest.
For a moment, we did not talk.
Then I messaged him again.
"Hey."
It took a while before he replied.
"Sorry. We are talking."
When I read that, I started thinking again.
"Are you talking now?" I asked.
"Yes," he replied.
His answer was short, but it was enough to make me think more.
Then he typed again.
"Do not be jealous. We are just friends."
I looked at his message.
I did not know if I should laugh or not.
"I am not jealous," I replied.
But even if I said that, I knew that I still felt a little jealous.
We continued talking, but it was not as long as before. It was only simple updates about school and what we were doing.
While lying on my bed and holding my phone, I started thinking.
Maybe this feeling is normal. Sometimes even if someone is only your friend, there are moments when you still feel jealous.
I am just not sure why I feel this way.
Maybe it is because he has become important to me without me noticing it before.
I placed my phone beside my pillow and looked at the ceiling.
The room was quiet, but my mind was full of questions.
As I slowly closed my eyes, I could not stop thinking about what was happening between him and his crush.
And if in the next days, I texted him but no one replied, it's not like before, even though he kept replying for 1 hour but now nothing.